"Sister fairy, why am I like this?"

Guan Yue wanted to enter the dream as soon as he lay down, but at this time, when his spiritual power was full, he couldn't sleep at all, so he had to sigh secretly and said to himself in his heart.

What exactly is practice?

Guan Yue would think about the various things he had started to practice, and he found that he didn't seem to understand what cultivation was from the beginning. Except for the accident that He Luo said, he never thought about anything else about cultivation.

Originally, according to his principle of doing things without quarrel with the world, such a thing would not have happened at all from the beginning today. Could it be that because of my practice, my personality has changed? Guan Yue couldn't help but ask himself in his heart.

At the beginning, his indifferent attitude towards those two big men was because his cultivation had recently risen sharply, and that was because he was confident in his abilities.

But when he heard Wan Dongqiang's background and attitude later, although he hated Wan Dongqiang, because he was born in an ordinary family since he was a child, he instinctively didn't want to cause too much trouble.

When he heard Wan Dongqiang's intentional overtures to himself, Guan Yue also thought about this problem in his heart. But somehow, the more he didn't want to cause trouble, the more the figure of the sister next door when she was a child lingered in his mind.

When he was a child, Guan Yue's family was very difficult, as a child, he always envied other people's children often had many delicious snacks and toys that their parents brought back for a long time. And Guan Yue, can only secretly envy on the side, I don't know when he started, he became dislike to say more, sometimes his parents asked him if he wanted snacks, he would also say that it was good to have food, his parents felt very relieved to hear it, and these things were often praised for his sensibility and obedience when they reached the ears of outsiders. So Guan Yue dislikes talking more and more, resulting in fewer and fewer friends, and even no children like to play with this little wooden man who doesn't like to talk.

Only the sister next door did not dislike him, and often gave him snacks and took him to play in the fields. The sister next door likes to play, has poor grades, and often fights with boys, and everyone says she's a bad boy. It's just that Guan Yue thinks she's a good boy.

The sister next door is a left-behind child, her parents work outside all the year round, and there is only one grandmother to take care of her life.

Later, she dropped out of elementary school after graduating from elementary school and began to wander out, and at the age of thirteen or fourteen, she began to dye her hair, and always played crazy outside with junior high school boys who did not study well. As a result, more people knew that she was a bad boy. And Guan Yue, because of the pressure of studying homework in junior high school, slowly reduced contact with her, perhaps, more because she was a bad child in everyone's mouth.

When he returned home for the first time in high school, Guan Yue learned from his mother that the sister next door who used to take him out to play when he was a child and helped him fight with boys was dead.

Some people sigh, some people regret, but more people feel that this result is inevitable because she is a bad child. Even, in the future, when her children are disobedient, the people in the village will use her example to scare their children and make them not become bad.

Guan Yue, who learned the reason, felt unspeakable in his heart, including anger, pity, sighs, numbness and fear. From then on, he hated those who played with their feelings, and he also hated those who covered the sky with one hand.

What did he want to do for her, to avenge her? Guan Yue didn't dare, thinking of the other party's identity and background, all kinds of emotions had to be pressed in his heart again. From that time on, Guan Yue became even more silent, except for going to school, not even having a friend.

"I'm sorry!" Thinking of this, Guan Yue didn't know why, tears appeared in the corners of his eyes.

At the same time as Guan Yue recalled, he found that his cultivation had undergone some different changes, as if a certain shackle had been opened, and his whole body had an indescribable sense of relaxation.

"Perhaps, the meaning of practice is to follow one's own heart?"

Guan Yue suddenly felt as if he had caught something, and the matter of the sister next door made his personality change greatly. It is said that he doesn't like to cause trouble, but in fact he is afraid of causing trouble, and he is afraid of the consequences of causing trouble. So he was afraid.

But this time it was different, because of his own ability, he chose the former before advancing and retreating. Thinking that if Wan Dongqiang went out, there might be someone similar to the sister next door in the future, Guan Yue felt a little breathless. He doesn't think he's a good person, but he's not a bad person either, it's just that he doesn't want anything like the sister next door to happen, and more, he wants revenge.

"It's not that I've changed, it's that I've found myself." Guan Yue said secretly in his heart.

There are some things, some times, and it is still necessary to do it.

"Mommy, Mommy. I'm looking for my mom. ”

"What is the noise, the noise makes people upset."

Originally, Guan Yue was still pondering and was annoyed by a milky voice, and suddenly he didn't have the mood to think about it anymore, so he opened his eyes and sat up angrily.

But the next moment, Guan Yue was still stunned, because he saw that the milky person was none other than Wan Dongqiang, who had been abolished by himself just now.