Chapter Eighty-Five: How Hard It Is to Let Go
"As usual? What do you mean? Can I still stay in Yunkakuin? Lu Yao asked incredulously.
"Well, what else? I've released my words to take you as an apprentice, if others ask about you again, where do you put my old face? ”
"Do I still have to train in the future?"
"What do you think? If it weren't for Zhen Luoyuan's sudden desire to take you as an apprentice that day, do you think I would take you under my door? ”
"Then I should really thank him"
"Don't think that being my apprentice is like taking advantage of what a big advantage, if you want to get my true inheritance, you go and ask Jishu what I have taught him? Let's follow Jishu slowly for a hundred years. ”
"One hundred years?" Lu Yao's mouth opened wide.
"A hundred years is less! Why do you open your mouth so wide? ”
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"As for Zhen Luoyuan's side, if he looks for you, you can provide him with some inconsequential information."
"What? Provide a message? ”
"Yes, you should accompany that kid to tease the boring man, no one plays with him, and he can't be idle."
"You mean, let me do Infernal Affairs?"
"This Infernal Affairs is not of any level, how can a funny little ghost be Infernal Affairs? Let you kill and let you set fire? ”
"Okay"
It's really not interesting for this spy to do, it's better to go to the kindergarten to see the child, fortunately, Lord Huhe doesn't want to fight with the young master, otherwise, I'm afraid it will be difficult to get out this time.
"Be your Infernal Affairs!" These were the last words he said to her before leaving.
Lu Yao left the underworld and returned home, lying on the bed in a daze and falling asleep again.
This dream was the last thing she wanted to recall.
It was raining outside the window, and she ran wildly through the empty hallway, as if looking for something and hiding from something.
"Lu Yao! Lu Yao? Hehehehehehe, where are you going? ”
There was an eerie shouting behind him.
"Baiwei is dead? No one can save you! Obediently hand over the things to me, for the sake of us having known each other for so long, shall I leave you a whole corpse? ”
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She didn't answer, still looking for a way out, just as she ran out of the school building and towards the door.
"Lu Yao! Lu Yao! A heart-rending cry for help came from overhead, and she looked up to see a girl whose face she couldn't see was being pressed against the edge of the cement platform on the rooftop, her head bowed, her long shawl hair covering her face.
A terrible cry came out of his mouth: "Lu Yao, please!" Help me! He's going to kill me! He's a madman! Please, don't leave me! ”
In the next second, the scene turned, and Lu Yao found that he was already standing on the rooftop, and on the opposite side, there was a man wearing a hat and dressed in black, and the girl who called for help just now was trembling in his hands.
"Put Mu Lan away, I'll give you the things."
"One hand to the person, one hand to the delivery!" The man grabbed Mullan and slowly moved forward.
Lu Yao stepped back step by step, her hand was in her pocket and she was holding something tightly, taking advantage of the man's unpreparedness, she took it out and sprayed it at him, she didn't know what it was, a shiny layer of gold dust, when it touched the man's face, it instantly turned into a puddle of slimy liquid.
Lu Yao dragged the girl who was held hostage, and the two hid to the side.
The man covered his face and tried to tear off the unknown thick liquid from his face, grinning with his aching teeth.
The girl named Mu Lan hugged Lu Yao tightly, and the weight of her whole body pressed on her body, making her unable to move half a step.
"Mu Lan, stand up, let's run!" Lu Yao dragged Mu Lan, who was sitting on the ground, and shouted loudly.
"I'm Lu Yao, I don't have the strength, I can't stand up, or Lu Yao, you go first, leave me alone!" Mu Lan pushed Lu Yao, but wanted to get up but couldn't stand up.
The man was still covering his face, unable to see ahead, and scolding and shouting in his mouth, to tear Lu Yao to pieces!
"I've tired you, I can't leave you alone, come, I'll carry you, hurry up, this ecstasy won't last long." Lu Yao turned her back to the girl and bent down, wanting to carry her away.
After a few seconds, Lu Yao suddenly felt that someone touched her back, she thought it was Mu Lan who stood up and climbed onto her back, but in the next second, her body took off and was pushed down the stairs from behind.
"Ahh Lu Yao was covered in a cold sweat and woke up from a nightmare.
"What's wrong? Nono? Fang's mother heard the voice and ran over and knocked on the door.
"It's fine!" Lu Yao opened the door and looked at Fang's mother with an anxious expression.
"It's just a nightmare"
"Look at your sweat, it's not even five o'clock, let's go lie down for a while, I scared my mother to death just now."
"Don't worry, Mom." Lu Yao tugged the corners of her mouth and smiled.
Lying back on the bed, Lu Yao's mind was full of the feeling of weightlessness when she fell from a height.
For the first time, she clearly restored the scene of her killing, but the faces of the girl and the man seemed to be faintly visible in her dreams, but they were blurry when she woke up.
"Mu Lan, Mu Lan." Lu Yao remembered that Fang Nuo had mentioned to her good friend Mu Lan, but Fang Nuo said that she had found out that Mu Lan had also jumped off the building and died a few years ago.
Could Mu Lan's death have anything to do with her? Was she implicated? In the dream, the man said that Bai Wei was dead and that no one could save her.
Tricks? Isn't that the demon in the Bat Bar? He had also appeared in her dream the other day, why did the man in black say he was dead?
Su Eryi said that the demon may be related to the Soul Gate, after the bar riot, she has been busy with her own business, and has never been to the bar again, and I don't know if Su Eryi has any news of the demon.
"Well, I'm going to have to go to West Street again tonight."
Early self-study, Lu Yao lay on the table listlessly, it seems that the fit between herself and Fang Nuo's body is getting higher and higher, and now she doesn't even have a good rest at night, she actually has no energy,
The whole person felt drowsy, as if he was going to lie on the table and play chess with Zhou Gong in the next second.
"I said, eldest sister, what's wrong with you these days? Yesterday I saw you like I lost my soul? During the recess, Zhou Yinyin pounced on her desk and stared at her curiously.
"You're in this state like never before, I thought you never knew you were tired!"
"I don't know what's wrong lately, I always feel sleepy"
"Did you stay up late? Or stayed up late to cram on your homework? ”
"I'm not, it's all made up!" Lu Yao rolled her eyes, thinking in her heart about how to find a chance to sleep for a while in the next class.
"Eh, it's not a nonsense, didn't you say that there really are vampires in this world?"
"Vampires, I don't know, there are a lot of vampire bats, do you want to take you to see them?"
"Don't say goodbye, I'm not interested in vampire bats!" Zhou Yinyin hurriedly waved her hand after hearing this.
"Then don't let me take a nap here! Go, go, retreat! Lu Yao put her head on the table, intending to close her eyes and recuperate.
"Hey, don't you sleep, haven't you noticed that Anna and you have been getting close lately?"
"What do you mean?" Lu Yao raised her head with half-open eyes.
"Don't pretend to be stupid, Anna used to look down on you with half an eye, but now, I love to stick to you when it's okay."
"Really? Why didn't I pay attention? ”
"At noon the day before yesterday, I sat across from you when I ate in the cafeteria, and I walked out of the gate side by side with you after school.
Yesterday morning at school, I saw her arrive at the school building first, and waited for you at the door of the building for several minutes, just to say hello to you.
As soon as you entered the classroom today, she lent you her English notes. ”
"I saved her once, maybe it's because I'm grateful!" Lu Yao disagreed.
"I think so, why didn't I be there that night? There must be some spectacular scene I didn't see, why did you tell me to go home so early? ”
"What can you do if you stay?"
"I can cheer me on!"
"You've got it, you're not as worry-free as Anna! Go, go. ”
"Eh, you guy! You don't need me anymore, do you, fall into the ground! Zhou Yinyin muttered dissatisfiedly, but returned to her seat.
Lu Yao lay on the table, but suddenly lost sleepiness.
In the future, at school, it is better to have fewer ideas, maybe it is because she has this kind of nosy hobby before her death, which will lead to the disaster of killing herself.
But whether it's her own business or not, a person wandering around with a ghost on her back, she is annoyed to look at, not to mention that the ghost wants to harm people, she can't ignore it.
It's better to simply walk blindfolded in the future, out of sight and out of mind.
But if she is really hard-hearted enough to turn a deaf ear to the evil and injustices in the world, I am afraid that Lord Huhe will not favor her.
It's not that she doesn't know that Lord Huhe loves her heart, like herself back then, just like she admires Lord Huhe's open-mindedness, but also because she agrees with this approach.
She has been pursuing, hoping that she can let go of everything, let go of grievances, let go of hatred, and be free.
However, even if she can let go of everything, she can't ignore the people around her, presumably Lord Huhe is the same, he can let go of old hatreds regardless of previous suspicions, but only he can't treat the things of Lord Yama equally.
Find Fang Nuo, the matter will be understood, and Li Zhen will go to Qingzui Mountain and never set foot in the red dust again.
And what about the man who killed Fang Nuo? Just let him get away with it without paying any price? Another voice asked.
Of course, there is a price, and it is ten times more painful.
What if this has something to do with your death? Do you want to track it down? The voice pressed on.
Do you want to just give up your hard-won clues?
Check it out, of course you have to check it out!
That's right, since we've come to this point, it's a pity to give up! Another voice giggled.
That's right, she lingers on this self-question almost every day, and finally rejects the decision she made at the beginning.
If you want to ask how difficult it is to let go, it is actually very simple, the difficult thing is that the feeling of weight in your hand will make you feel tired, and the feeling of being empty after letting go will make you regret it.
You are exhausted from constant choices and constant changes, and in the end you still choose to continue to move forward with weight, let go, can't let go, not only in a thought, but also after making a decision, don't look ahead!