Li Sumiao ...... to you, "I can't help but sigh, what kind of bad relationship is this," he said, knowing that you hate him, and admitting that he is very despicable and should not take advantage of you. ”

"Actually, I don't hate him, I'm numb, but I can't face him anymore." Yu Meng was faintly resentful, "It is a happy thing to have someone to love, but I can't bear it." Whether it's the people I love or the people who love me, they have hurt me deeply, and my life has been a failure...... Why is this happening, and why? ”

I couldn't answer, just hugged her tighter as tears welled up in my eyes. Yu Meng, she used to be so simple, so kind, full of hope for the future, and full of love for life. But now, I don't know what fate has planned for her in the future!

"The first time I met Yu Meng was in the preliminary examination room of the dance school, when we saw a soft ruler on the long table in front of the examiner, and she quietly asked me what the soft ruler was for." The night before New Year's Day, I snuggled up in Xiao Se's arms and told him about the time when Yu Meng and I first became involved in ballet. At this time, the place where we are is the home of Senator Ye of Yejia Village.

Xiao Se was going to visit his grandfather before going abroad, so I accompanied him as soon as the rehearsal was over in the afternoon, and it was already 7 o'clock in the evening when he drove to Yejia Village.

Senator Ye saw that I was going with Xiao Se, not as fierce as before, and asked me if I had eaten. I heard that there was no, he immediately cooked noodles for us, watched us finish eating, and offered to say that the mountain road was not easy to walk at night, so we could stay for one night and come back tomorrow morning. Xiao Se happily said that it was my light.

Senator Ye was originally going to clean up two rooms, but Xiao Se said that one room was enough. At that time, Senator Ye's face was slightly gloomy, and he cast an inquiring glance at me. I nodded a little awkwardly, which was kind of acquiescence. He didn't say anything, turned and walked away. Xiao Se asked me to sit in the living room, and he went to help.

This room is quite large and boxy. The walls were whitewashed and the red-brick floors were washed clean. There were pale green curtains hanging from the window, and by the window was a desk with a small lamp carved out of bamboo, apparently by hand, and very delicately carved, covered with a lampshade made of green gauze. Against the wall was a wooden bed with neat sheets and brand new bedding. The room had an electric heater on and it was very warm.

We were half-leaning on the bed, and Xiao Se asked me, "What is the soft ruler for?" ”

"From head to toe, a ballet begins with a ruler." I told him that the soft ruler is used to measure the proportions of the children who take the test. The legs must not be less than 12 centimeters longer than the upper body, which is enough to declare that countless children have no chance of ballet major. The selection of ballet materials is demanding, and there are many criteria for judging, the proportion of each part of the body, muscular quality, flexibility, coordination, temperament, ability, musicality...... People who engage in ballet will not have the word "perfect" in their eyes in their lives.

"You are too yourself, and in my eyes, you are perfect in every aspect, especially ...... Stature. In the end, there was a hint of ambiguity in his tone.

"I'll be serious with you." I'm disgusted.

"I'm serious." Xiao Se laughed and suddenly jumped out of bed.

"Where are you going?" I asked curiously.

But he didn't answer directly. "You wait, I'll be right back."

He soon returned, with a soft ruler in his hand.

"What are you doing?" I was surprised.

He smiled. "I'll also be an examiner and measure the length of your body and legs."

"Childish!" I snorted, "You think kids are role-playing." ”

"Just play with me, okay?" He pulled me out of bed, turned the heater on the highest setting, and began to unbutton my pajamas.

I grabbed his hand. "What are you doing?"

"With so many clothes, how can I take a ruler to measure." He was serious.

I couldn't help but laugh. "I really think of myself as an examiner."

"I'm stricter than the examiner, I want to measure the net ratio, that is, the proportion that is not wearing clothes, and there will be no error at all." He stared at me with burning eyes.

I finally realized what he was thinking. "I don't want to play with you!" The heat rushed to my face, and I stood in front of him with my whole body for him to measure, and I panicked when I thought about it.

"If you don't play, you have to play!" He began to play the scoundrel, forced me into a corner in a few steps, and grabbed my lips with his bow, and kissed me so domineering and urgent, that I immediately collapsed in his arms, and let him caress my body wantonly, and untie my clothes.

When I stood naked in front of Xiao Se, his eyes were like the starry sky in the dark night, deep and bright, and I easily sank into them.

"Your body is so beautiful, like a beautiful work of art." He admired, pulled open the soft ruler, and began to move down my neck, where he was carefully measuring, clearly full of provocative meaning, the soft ruler slid down little by little, sliding over my chest, waist, belly button, lower abdomen, and then down...... It was so light and gentle, like a feather brushing over my bare skin, causing a tingling shiver. His movements are gentle and restrained, but the intense and dangerous possession is like an undercurrent. I was shaking and my back was pressed against the wall, almost untenable.

"Are you comfortable?" His voice was hoarse.

"Don't measure it, I'm so uncomfortable." I'm shaking out of tune.

He dropped his ruler and stood up, and I grabbed his arm, barely holding on to my body.

"What's the discomfort?" His breath was hot on my face, and every breath pressed against me.

"I ...... I ...... "I snorted, so weak and ethereal, and my heart was like a boat in the clouds, rippling in the sky."

He smiled softly. "Lift your legs up and do leg control."

I lifted my eyes in astonishment, and met his warm, sparkling, longing eyes, and swallowed back the words of rebuke that had reached my lips. Anyway, the separation is imminent, I'll accompany him crazy for a while, and burn happily! I breathed deeply, trying to adjust to my restless mood, my feet steady, my eyes looking ahead, my breath sinking. The left leg is wiped out and slowly lifted, shifting the center of gravity from the center of the foot to the right leg, while the left leg is raised above the head.

My whole body felt like it was on fire. It was the first time in my life that I had made such a humiliating gesture in a completely naked posture and in front of a man. My body was so thoroughly exposed to his eyes that I could see even the most visible parts.

"Hold this position and don't move!" Xiao Se swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and the Adam's apple rolled on his neck. He struggled to suppress himself, trying to maintain a steady tone. His breathing intensified, and his ribcage rose and fell violently. After staring at me for a long time, he suddenly began to take off his clothes as fast as he could.

He hugged me from the side and invaded like a storm. A strong irritation spread through my body, and I was both painful and pleasant, and he slashed quickly and wantonly, forcing me to change the direction of my legs, forward, sideways, backward...... I closed my eyes and moaned uncontrollably, my body opening up as I moved towards the top.

He picked me up and walked towards the wooden bed, and the two of them fell on the bed together, and he pulled out a small plastic bag out of nowhere, unwrapped it, put the condom on and then continued his fierce attack, he sprinted faster and faster, and the moment we reached the summit together, the avalanche of tremors swallowed me up and drowned me, and I trembled for a while, and my whole body swept by like lightning.

We hugged each other tightly, as if we had collapsed, and we couldn't move. After a long time, when we had all calmed down, he pulled out, peeled off the cover, wrapped it in toilet paper, and threw it on the floor.

"Where did this thing come from?" I asked weakly.

"The night you went to the Blue Mountains to find me, Yuan Jiapeng gave it, I didn't plan to use it at the time, but it was difficult to be kind." He looked at me and chuckled, "Besides, for the sake of a man's self-esteem, I have to laugh too, right?" ”

I looked away from him in shame, and he lay down beside me and put his arm around me. "The first time, at the Garden of Time, I was completely unprepared. Later, I thought that I might use it at any time, so I kept it with me, and today it really came in handy. ”

I snorted. "What do you mean you can use at any time?"

He turned my face and pressed my dark eyes against me. "Answer me a question."

"What's the problem?" I felt a fluster.

"Me and Zhao Junning, who is bigger?" He asked.

I was stunned for a few seconds before I realized the meaning of "big", this cautious, sometimes naïve and cute man! I'm so angry and funny, I can't do it if I don't answer, I can't hide from it. "Yes, of course...... You're big. "I'm half-perfunctory, half-serious, slurred speech.

"I didn't hear you." He wouldn't let me go.

"You're bigger, much bigger!" I cheekily shouted.

He smiled with satisfaction.

We're finally back to the beginning. I told him that when Yu Meng and I were in school, the topics we talked about were always inseparable from dance, for example, we had to practice for a long time a day, which was easy to get bored, and our shoes were always worn out...... But when it comes to the pain of practicing dance, it is also a cheerful expression. We compare the pain with each other, saying that ballet is bitter first and then sweet, that the sisters who dance ballet have fallen off their toenails at least twice when they first put on their pointe shoes. We discussed each other's insteps and said that the insteps of ballet are more important than the faces. Once I analyzed her little instep and said that it was not good enough, and asked her to practice the forefoot more. So she practiced hard for a long time, grabbing a towel, or walking with the forefoot on her back......

As I spoke, my eyes were already wet, and my voice was slightly choked: "We are used to looking at others and ourselves with a critical eye, and we have had this kind of scrutiny since childhood, so there will never be the word 'perfect' in our eyes." ”

Xiao Se caressed my back. "So I'm imperfect in your eyes?"

"It's not perfect, of course, but it's real and it's lovely." I answer frankly.

"How does it compare to your partner?" His careful eye came up again.

"There is no comparison." I say it seriously.

"Why?" He asked.

I squinted at him. "Because I love you, I don't love him, and the way I look at you is naturally different."

He bowed his head and kissed me deeply, blending into the most sincere affection.