[Essay] 102: You are the little luck I want to keep the most

Do you remember what I said to you two years ago in Yingshang Thirty Miles, maybe you should have forgotten, but I still remember.

At the beginning, you asked me not to bother you in Yingshang, so I waited for you in Fuyang City, because this is the closest city to your Yingshang County.

In the past two years, I have been silently following the news screen about you, I am afraid that I will miss everything about you, of course, there are many, many that I can't really know.

It's been two years, I still remember that I was a teenager with nothing, at that time there was nothing but you and me, although in the end you still left me, but I don't blame you, I only blame myself for being too willful, making you uncomfortable and hurting you, but two years later, I have made do with the material foundation I should have, and the house at home has been built, and my work has gradually heated up, although I am still in the medical industry.

In the past two years, I have never forgotten you, and I have been making a new appearance to make you better, although it is not satisfactory enough, although I still have a lot of shortcomings, although you are probably indifferent to me, but I still love you.

When you came, Mom remembered you, and when you left, Dad talked about your name all day long, and they remembered you.

In the past two years, I have only had you in my heart, I still remember that you once said, let me not hang on your tree, many people around me also began to persuade me not to wait for you, saying that it is not worth it to say so stupidly, but I have always only had you in my heart, I still love you, I have always known this answer, what if I like to hang myself on your tree, what should I do, what should I do!

I know your situation, and I don't want to bother you, but I have always had you in my heart, and I don't want to make my life regret so easily, and let me spend my life in chagrin, because you are not married.

You said before that if I had a job you would wait for me for a few years, and I always remember what you said, but now I don't know if you still remember what you said, in fact, it doesn't matter if you remember it or not, the main thing is that you are not married, which is better than anything.

Once in college, my scumbag brother taught me a little about the experience of pursuing happiness, that is, as long as the other party is not married, it is not known who will die, even if the other party is married, there is no guarantee that there will be no divorce, as long as I still have the heart and feelings, I am not afraid of waiting.

Now there are not many days left until May 25, 2016, because I left Yingshang County on May 25, 2014, on this day I gave myself a deadline, not to forget your deadline, but to prove my own deadline, I don't want me to miss you when I can, and you are not married, if you miss you in this situation, my life and your life, you ask yourself if you will really be very happy?

In the past, my youth was full of traces of you, and now my life is still your shadow of you, so I always look for your back in some supermarkets in Fuyang City, such as Wal-Mart Supermarket, Wanda Plaza, Xingmei International Cinema, and even in the railway station, bus station, bus station, bus station, etc., I have seen people who are very similar to your back, I am always inexplicably excited, I thought I had found you, but every time it was a lonely ending, because they were not you, and no matter how similar the back was, it was not you after all.

I still remember the first time I knew that you left Yingshang County to study in Fuyang, how happy I was, because I saw that you sent a photo, on which appeared the words "male god, goddess, XX optical store", I was really happy, but I was also so uncomfortable, because I didn't want me to bother you beforehand, I was not the ignorant teenager before, so I can know that you are still safe, I am already very satisfied.

I still remember the grand occasion when Wanda Plaza first opened, I knew you loved to be lively, so I deliberately ran to Wanda Plaza that day, because I wanted to meet you, but there were too many people, so I didn't find you, but I knew you must be somewhere inside, but I didn't find you. And in the end, you really ran to Wanda Plaza alone, and I didn't guess you wrong at all.

Although there are many more examples like this, I still haven't met you, and I was embarrassed to add you at the time, so I had to take a stupid approach, thinking that I would meet you this way.

Although Fuyang City is not very big, it is by no means so small to find someone, let alone a girl, which is tantamount to looking for a needle in a haystack.

But as long as you are safe and you are not married, I will not sit still and wait for you, after all, I have waited so long, I don't want to miss you who are unmarried like this, because my happiness needs to be fought for, and you are the luck I want to keep.