Chapter 121: The knot in the heart is difficult to solve, and the heart is unbearable
Yang Qinghe shrank his head and raised his eyes to look at Wen Ziran, who was still as warm as jade in front of him, but his back was tightly pressed against the wall, and he stammered: "Son, Wen, Wen Gongzi, but, what's the matter?" ”
Wen Ziran propped up the wall with both hands, frowned, pursed his lips, and said half-loudly: "Why are you hiding from me?" ”
"Why, what is there." Yang Qinghe only felt that his heart was about to jump to his throat, and the whole person was so nervous that he broke out in a cold sweat, exhaled and then hung up a reluctant smile and said: "If, if it's okay, then, then I, I'm going, I'm going to be busy." ”
As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and nudged Wen Ziran's arm, but found that he didn't move at all, so he lowered his eyebrows and said, "You, you tell me to go." ”
Wen Ziran didn't move, the look in his black eyes was indistinguishable, he couldn't tell what the emotion was, he only said in a dumb voice: "Qinghe, you raise your head." ”
Yang Qinghe didn't dare to raise his head, still lowered his head, and said in an urn voice: "You, do you have something?" ”
She didn't dare to raise her head, but Wen Ziran reached out to hook her chin, forcing her to look at herself, her eyes were covered with a mist, her feather fan-like eyelashes trembled slightly, and her pitiful appearance made Wen Ziran extremely helpless.
He sighed lightly and asked into Yang Qinghe's eyes, "What do you think is the matter with me?" ”
Yang Qinghe didn't dare to answer, and he couldn't explain the thousands of feelings in his heart.
Wen Ziran said again: "When you left Kyoto, you said that you needed time to figure it out, but now that it's been a long time, do you understand?" ”
Yang Qinghe lowered his eyelids, becoming more and more afraid to look at him, a pair of small hands tightly pinched the hem of his clothes, did he understand? She didn't know it herself.
When she left Kyoto, Wen Ziran once said to her: "Qinghe, I'm not too young, it's time to be a family affair, but marrying a wife and coming back must be a lifetime, and the one I hope to marry is my favorite." He looked sideways and saw Yang Qinghe's little hand tightly squeezing the burden, and said: "I know you have a pimple in your heart, and you won't be able to solve it for a while, but you have to understand that Yu and the eldest princess have gone, and your life is still long, you can't torture yourself for a person who has already gone, and let yourself suffer for a lifetime." ”
The grievances that Yang Qinghe had accumulated in her heart cried out all of a sudden, how could she not know these truths, but she couldn't get out of it for a while, she also wanted to happily go back to the Yang Qinghe she used to be, but she couldn't do it.
Wen Ziran gently hugged her into his arms, wiped away the tears on her face, and said softly: "Qinghe, I won't force you, I'll give you time, you have to think about it, if you figure it out, you feel that your heart is really let go, then, I have nothing to say." ”
When he said this, there was silence in his eyes, and he gently brushed her back, but it made her palpitate more and more.
Yang Qinghe leaned against Wen Ziran's heart, felt his powerful heartbeat, cried and sobbed, his eyes were red, and his voice was like a mosquito: "I, I will think clearly and figure it out." ”
From Kyoto all the way to Suzhou, she really figured it out, she even imagined the scene when she saw Wen Ziran again countless times, she thought that she should say something to him, and she had to keep a smile on her face, and she must not cry.
But when I really saw him, not to mention that she couldn't say a word, her heart was very uncomfortable, as if a big stone was pressing her out of breath. As long as she thinks that if she speaks, there will be no intersection in the future, he will marry another woman, have children, spend his life with other women, and grow old together, she will feel that her heart is poked with a knife, and she will be bloody, and she will still be alive to suffer that pain.
It's because she doesn't dare to see Wen Ziran, she doesn't dare to talk to him, she deceives herself, as long as she doesn't see him and doesn't open her mouth to tell the truth, then is he still there?
But Wen Ziran didn't indulge her escape at all, he said again: "Have you figured it out? His eyes were clear, with a hint of anticipation and apprehension.
Yang Qinghe bit his lip, but tears still couldn't help falling down his cheeks: "I, I, I don't know, I really don't know." ”
She really didn't know, she was reluctant to Wen Ziran, and she didn't want to see him become a biological child with another woman and grow old together, but she couldn't make up her mind to really marry him.
She carefully pulled Wen Ziran's sleeve, with tears on her face, raised her misty eyes and looked at him, looking pitiful: "Can you let me think about it again?" I, I really don't know. ”
As he spoke, he lowered his eyes again, not daring to look at Wen Ziran again.
Wen Ziran sighed helplessly, cupped her face with both hands, frowned and said, "Qinghe, what you have to learn is how to face it, not how to escape." How long can you escape? ”
Yang Qinghe's tears fell more and more, she was not a person to escape, or she had been crawling and rolling all the way to Jiangnan in the past few months, and encountered many things that she had never experienced before, but she would seriously find a way to solve everything, and never thought that this road would not be avoided if it was not clear. But in Wen Ziran's matter, she became hesitant and cowered, which was very different from the cool Yang Qinghe in the past.
Wen Ziran looked at her like this, he was distressed in the end, he hesitated twice, then lowered his head and kissed the tears on her cheeks, the salty taste made him more and more reluctant to let go.
His kiss was soft and delicate, from the cheeks to the corners of the eyes, and from the corners of the eyes to the lips, each time it penetrated into Yang Qinghe's heart, making her heart pop and beat like a deer, her hands pinched the hem of her clothes tightly, her palms were full of fine and dense beads of sweat, and her back was wet with her underwear for no reason.
She struggled in her heart for a long time, in the end, she indulged herself, did not refuse Wen Ziran's kiss, she opened her eyes and wanted to engrave the image of him kissing herself into her heart, but because she was too close, she could only see a vague outline, but even a vague outline was enough, and her hands that were tightly pinching the hem of her clothes were gently raised, holding his waist and sticking herself closer to him.
But in his heart, he endured his sadness and told himself: "I, I will sink this time, and after this time, I will forget about the rivers and lakes with him." ”
Wen Ziran felt Yang Qinghe's non-resistance and cooperative movements, and the tension in his heart relaxed, let go of her cheeks, grabbed her slender waist with one hand, and pressed her head with the other hand to deepen the kiss.
His tongue slid clumsily into Yang Qinghe's mouth, gently skimming her clenched teeth, priing open the teeth and poking into her mouth, gently drawing out her little tongue.
The two hugged each other tightly, enjoying the sweetness as if no one was around, and they didn't let go of each other until they couldn't breathe.
Yang Qinghe blushed, lowered her head and didn't dare to look at Wen Ziran, in the past, she dared to use force against Wen Ziran, but she relied on her identity as the county lord, and felt that Wen Ziran would definitely be her own in the future, so she dared to be so presumptuous.
But now is different from the past, she is no longer the arrogant county lord she used to be, after having an intimacy with Wen Ziran this time, she is happy and worried in her heart. I am glad that I have a skin-to-skin relationship with him, even if I don't share him in the future, it can be regarded as a recollection for myself; Worried, I don't know if he will be despised because of this, and he feels that he is a girl from Meng Lang.
Wen Ziran didn't know about her joy and worry, and he sighed to himself that he finally tasted the feeling of emotion, growing up so big, the first time he kissed with a girl, he still asked Yang Qinghe to kiss him strongly, and at that time he was nervous and surprised that he didn't feel much at all; This second time is considered to be his own initiative, the person in his arms is Yang Qinghe, and the person who kisses her is also her, the sweetness of the kiss and the feeling of wanting to take it for himself filled his mind, so that he had only one thought in his heart, wanting to melt Yang Qinghe into his own body.
Seeing Yang Qinghe's delicate and shy appearance this time, he was more and more happy, the corners of his lips couldn't help but rise slightly, and the corners of his eyes and eyebrows were smiling.
The two of them stood like this, Yang Qinghe lowered his head and didn't dare to speak, Wen Ziran lowered his head and looked at her, and he didn't want to speak, so he was very quiet for a while.
But this silence made Yang Qinghe very uncomfortable, and she forgot all the words she had thought about with Wen Ziran in her heart, she wiped the sweat on her palms in embarrassment, hesitated in the end, and said: "I, I still have something to do, go first." With that, he pulled out his legs and ran.
She didn't care about everyone's beautiful appearance at all, and quickly fled the scene, running away and her heart was still popping, she covered her heart and regretted that she didn't have an image to run.
Wen Ziran saw her fleeing in embarrassment, and did not chase her, only reached out to cover her lips, and a smile on her lips that she had never noticed doting.
He only thought that Yang Qinghe did not refuse his own kiss, that is, he had already figured it out, but later Yang Qinghe still avoided himself, and he also felt that he was shy.
But after only two days of this incident, Yang Qinghe found Mu Mingshu and said that he wanted to return to Suzhou.
Mu Mingshu looked at her as if she was joking, and asked, "What's wrong?" Wronged? ”
Seeing that she squeaked and couldn't say why, Mu Mingshu guessed that it was only related to Wen Ziran.
This courtyard in Zhenjiang is only how big it is, and now it is full of eyeliner, and the small things that happened in the yard only came up after a while. Wen Ziran was as mobile as Yang Qinghe that day, and he couldn't avoid those eyeliners, but someone came to report it as soon as he breathed.
Mu Mingshu laughed when he heard it: "My brother is a wood opener." ”
It was only when the matter between the two of them had a result, but he didn't expect Yang Qinghe to suddenly propose to return to Suzhou.
Yang Qinghe bit his lip for a long time before he spoke: "Suzhou, although the shop in Suzhou has hired a steward, but in the end it still has to be watched, I can't stay in Zhenjiang for too long." ”
This is just an excuse, how could Mu Mingshu not hear it, she looked Yang Qinghe up and down with her eyes, and then asked seriously: "You are honest with me, but my brother bullied you?" ”
"No, no, no, nothing......" Yang Qinghe hurriedly waved his hand, but his face was flushed, and he opened his mouth, but he still bit his lip and stopped talking.
Since she didn't want to say it, Mu Mingshu didn't want to ask too much, so she thought for a while before she said: "I don't have anyone available around me now, and there are still a few days to go to Zhenjiang in spring, summer, autumn and winter, why don't you stay for a few more days and call them here, can you go back to Suzhou?" ”
Yang Qinghe didn't refuse, nodded and agreed, although she wanted to leave here immediately, but in the end, thinking of her love with Mu Mingshu, she could help her at this moment.
This incident reached Wen Ziran's ears, and it made him angry, except for only asking Mu Mingshu for pulse every day, he only nested in his own room to read, and never went out of the yard to wander around, and he didn't think about even medicinal food.
Yang Qinghe couldn't see Wen Ziran, and he was relieved, but he was a little sad, and he always felt that he had lost something.
In late June, Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter and the two mothers-in-law sent by the Liu family arrived in Zhenjiang, when Yang Qinghe packed his bags, he had a smile on his face that was more ugly than crying, and asked Zhilan to persuade him: "The girl is reluctant to stay." ”
Yang Qinghe bit her lip and shook her head, cheering up and trying her best to make herself look fine, but when she got into the carriage and saw Wen Ziran, who had been avoided for many days, she couldn't help it.
Tears dripped down his face and splashed on the hem of his skirt, and he asked in a trembling voice, "You, why are you here?" ”
Wen Ziran was angry when he saw her uncompetitive appearance, and as soon as his arm was fished, he took her into his arms, and didn't answer her, just gagged his mouth and said......
Yang Qinghe walked for less than two days, Zhao Yizheng, who was wandering around in the south of the Yangtze River, fell ill in Huzhou, and the messenger came over quickly, with a body full of dust and said: "The doctor said that he was only afraid that it would be bad, and the princess asked the servants to come to find His Royal Highness King Rui." ”
Zhao Yiheng frowned tightly when he heard this, although he felt that it was a coincidence, but in the end, he still said to Mu Mingshu and rushed to Huzhou.