"For so many years, I know that you have never let go, you were young at that time, and the aftermath was not well thought out, and even if you thought it through, you didn't have the ability to deal with it. When you grow up, you may think that I will handle it for you, but the truth is not what you imagined. You have not dared or been unwilling to come back all these years, but I have been waiting for you to come back, there is something...... Maybe...... I think it's time for you to know. ”

This time when he came back to H City, He Fangjing came to the dilapidated church that had been in disrepair for a long time, mainly to visit Pastor Hua Feng.

Before that, she also prepared some fruit meals and paid respects at the grave of Granny Su's youngest son. Since he was not a registered priest, his real name was engraved on the tombstone: Kim Seung-yong.

Regardless, the man died at her hands, although for many years, she has never regretted the incident. But after all, this person is dead, in order to comfort his soul, at least he hopes to be safer, He Fangjing sometimes thinks too much, and is really a little worried that this person will turn into a ghost after death, and the resentful spirit will come to the door.

When she was a child, Jin Shenglan had grown into a big girl, and He Fangjing was so amazing, Hua Feng turned a blind eye, just stared at it for a moment, the wrinkles on his face rippled, and a sincere smile like a child floated, he was older, and his voice was more low and mellow: "Xiaolan, you are finally back." ”

He Fangjing was taken to the back of the church, sandwiched between the kitchen and the toilet, a place where the parishioners were emotionally disturbed, to pray alone or to confess to God, to atone for their morals.

The two talked about the past, and began to return a word to me, and then He Fangjing simply stopped talking and stopped talking, she found that Pastor Hua Feng had a distinct change, that is, he became more verbose, and when it came to anything, there was a feeling of endlessness, and all kinds of worries were introduced.

This reminded her of Xiao Fan, if Brother Lizi is old, he wants to take care of everything, and he must be so long-winded.

But she really wanted to hear Xiao Fan's rambling......

She curled the corners of her mouth involuntarily at the thought and smiled. Then I noticed that the pastor's topic had already circled around to her at some point, and He Fangjing's expression was solemn, and she finally wanted to talk about it, which was also the purpose of her visit.

"You ran away and didn't even look for me, and when you came again, it was three days later, and his ashes were buried. I know you must have panicked, anyone...... Don't say that a child like you, even an adult, when this kind of thing happens, it is easy to get in a hurry, and it is difficult to think it through, so you missed two days, and you didn't see him for the last time......"

He Fang stood up quietly and exclaimed, "The last side!" What's the last side? ”

"I told you at the time that he had already recognized his sins, and dying at that time was also a relief for him, and he refused me to treat him, in fact, I could also see that he was seriously injured, and I couldn't save him except for being sent to a big hospital for first aid."

"That is, he didn't die on the spot?" He Fangjing's voice trembled, and the whole person trembled.

"No, when we found him in the afternoon, the blood on his head had stopped flowing, but the back of his skull was shattered and he had to be taken to the hospital, maybe saved. But he resolutely refused, saying that he was wrong, that he had done wrong all his life, that he should not have come to the church to volunteer in the first place, and that he should not have evil thoughts about you later...... Since Kim Seung-yong thinks that all his choices in life are wrong, I also agree that if it is so painful to live in the world, maybe heaven will have a place for him......"

Pastor Hua Feng was speechless, and He Fangjing interrupted: "But the sect believes that people cannot control their own life and death, because God has given life to human beings, and suicide is against God's will. ”

The priest shook his head and said, "Kim Seung-yong did not commit suicide, he died of natural causes." He believed from beginning to end that the gods and the deities were waiting for him in heaven, that he needed to find his answers, and that living or dying was only the way and means by which he could find them. ”

This kind of religious and philosophical rhetoric is reasonable no matter how you say it, and no matter how you listen to it, it feels plausible, and He Fangjing is neither clear nor willing to refute it.

But this news is too shocking, this is a barrier that has been pressed in her heart for more than eight years, this is the reason why He Fangjing has become the current her, the key foundation of her innate existence, her world view, outlook on life, and values have been laid by this, and it is absolutely difficult to shake, her style of acting, the priority choice of dealing with problems, the change of mind, and the abnormal emotional characteristics are generating a strong impetus from the murder.

That incident was no longer just a passage in her life, it was her life.

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After bidding farewell to Pastor Hua Feng, He Fangjing left the church and walked in a trance in the mountains, walking in the narrow or winding paths. She felt that her whole body was fluttering, but she was weak, and finally walked to the place where she parked.

Sitting in the driver's cab, I hesitated for a long time, I couldn't figure out what I was thinking in my heart, my mind was confused, and I couldn't figure it out at all.

The sunset is falling in the west, the winter sunset, the rainbow color of the western sky is dim in the blue sky, He Fangjing suddenly remembered something, took out the newly bought mobile phone, and dialed Xiao Fan's number in the depths of her memory...... This indescribable confusion.

But the phone prompt told her that Xiao Fan's previous number had been cancelled, He Fangjing suddenly felt anxious, and hurriedly left a few voice messages on Qianqianjie, holding Qianqianjie firmly in his hand, but he didn't receive a response for a long time.

Presumably, Xiao Fan is in the Demon Dao, and for a small toy between couples like Qianqianjie, the player who is in the Demon Dao will not give any system prompts. As night fell, He Fangjing was driving all over the streets, with no destination and no idea where to go.

finally decided that she should go to Xiao Fan's house, she thought that she was very thick-skinned, as long as Xiao Fan was no longer angry with her, even if she was not reserved enough as a woman, she was not afraid to take the initiative to find her.

On the way, the mobile phone vibrated and received a strange call, it was a young man's voice, claiming to be a friend of the hermit without a trace, He Fangjing woke up and returned to normal.

Although the man was full of nonsense, talking about money and money, all kinds of promises, and the content of what he said was inevitably full of loopholes in He Fangjing's ears, but in the end, he said the real identity of the hermit without a trace, and it was obvious that it was not an outsider who indiscriminately entered.

The agreed meeting place is still in the deep alley, in the warehouse building of the trading house, it seems that Zhuo Langyi has not given up on this den.

It was half a block away from Xiao Fan's community, He Fangjing hesitated again and again, and asked Zhuo Langyi to answer the phone in person, discussed for a while, and determined that Zhang Ping and designer Li Yangming would also meet in person, and finally decided to meet him.

(End of chapter)