The hall is cold when I wake up, and I have no intention of sleeping.

I haven't been asleep since I woke up at three o'clock, and I had a grotesque dream before waking up, and after waking up I remembered a lot of the past.

I remembered that when I first came out of society, I worked in the Taihe Caimiao Health Center for three months, and my salary was less than 800, and in the end, I resigned naked, had nothing, and lost my wife and soldiers in vain.

Later, I went to Nanjing, Hefei, Suzhou, Zhenjiang, Changzhou and other places, and I would run away for various reasons after working for less than half a day or a week.

Later, and then later, I returned to my hometown in Fuyang to find a job, when the monthly salary was only 1750, I worked hard and ran around for more than half a year, but I still didn't accumulate thousands of yuan, and even in the end I was devalued by others and left, and then stayed at home and closed for more than three months, but I understood that I could not pay for the same job, and others did the same job as me, but they got several times more money than me, and then I understood that "sycophancy, background" These are essential products for mixed society.

Later, under the introduction of a former colleague and friend, I went to work in another unit in Fudi, and this time the salary rose to 2500, but because it was too indulgent, and because the senior management of this unit was too much, I went to work for a few months and left, and then rested at home for a few months.

Later, not far from now, I went to Ningbo at the provocation of the third sister, and this was an overnight train.

I remembered that when I first arrived in Ningbo, the smiling face of the third sister and my silly appearance were really a stark contrast.

I remember that when I was looking for a job alone in Ningbo, my current leaders interviewed me, were optimistic about me, and were willing to give me a chance to exercise, and then I joined the company.

I vaguely remember that before I joined the company, the leader asked me what I wanted, and I said that I would be given food and shelter, and I would be given 2,500 for the salary during the internship period and 3,000 for me after becoming a regular, and the leader said that I had no confidence, and I didn't even have the confidence to ask for a salary of 5,000...... Then, I turned positive in three months, and I turned positive in a month, and then the leader saw that my life was too poor, so he gave me a rise of 500, which became 3500 yuan, which made me very happy at that time, but I knew that I was not worth so much money at that time, and I always knew that the leader was taking care of me, so I always had the consciousness that I would repay my kindness.

Later, I was transferred to the current department, after a period of tempering, my pay made my salary thousands or even tens of thousands of yuan, the leader showed "I am not wrong about this person, he is a talent" of relief, and then I want to resign now The leader will not let me go.

In fact, what I care about most is not only that my wallet has become bulging, but also that I met a group of friends such as "Little Lover", "Senior Brother", "Brother Mao", "Xiao Ye", "Ah Zhi", "Little Lemon", "Xiao Qianqian", "Xuemei", "Nobita", etc., although there are many friends in Fuyang who want me to go back quickly, because they want to talk to me about the wine and talk about life with me, but I feel that there are too many continuous relationships in Ningbo, and I have not yet reached the time to leave.

In fact, I always knew that I was not good enough, very bad, but I wanted to be better, because I didn't want to be despised by others, and I didn't want the people I cherished to leave me in the future, and I wanted to have a strong enough ability to keep them.

In fact, I have always known that I am not a free and easy person, and I have always been very stingy and picky, but you don't know, I don't know that you have always existed in the future I planned.

In fact, I was very afraid, very afraid, scared to death, afraid of the real appearance and real feelings of this society, I still remember when I was young, or from the mouths of others or my own speculation, in short, the society has a label of "cruel and cruel" for these ethereal things in life, but I am young and frivolous I don't really understand these truths, I think I understand, until I am alone and lonely wandering, I don't really understand; At the same time, I was also very restless and uneasy, because I didn't know who could accompany me through the wind and rain, who would treat me gently, and there were many people who came and went in my life, but how many people did not leave me?

In fact, I have always understood that life is a parting to cherish in front of me......

Don't say more, life is endless, struggle is endless, I have to get up and continue to pretend to be forced.