[Essay] 13: It's hard to look back on the past, so I have to Sauvignon Blanc
Preface: Before writing the main text, it is absolutely necessary to mention the issue of "discrimination", which stems from the fact that I went to the night market last night and saw all the faces of all living beings, and saw that no one cared about the stalls of those grandmothers, but this was sold in front of the stalls of those beautiful girls with rich breasts and fat buttocks, and it was indescribably bitter; It also stems from the fact that this morning, the person who came to the department to exchange and learn began to say that those who chatted on the Internet for less than three or two sentences were neurotics, and my heart was surging! Damn, although the base is only on the Internet, but when others suffer from diseases and have unspeakable concealment, they discriminate against others, others begin to dislike others when they are physically disabled, and others start to insult others after chatting without speaking, this is okay if you complain, the key is too red fruit! In today's society, people have gone crazy for money, this is not forced by others, it is personal nature! Whoever is not sick, who has not suffered an accident, is a piece of in the eyes of some people, because such a person is a person, so everything is gray and yellow! (Forgive me for being a literate person!) Don't worry, I won't speak foul language!)
When it comes to discrimination, it is necessary to say a few more words. There is no greater tragedy in this world than being discriminated against, and this cannot be avoided. People without dignity are worse than dead, and no matter those decadent and lazy people and those who pretend to be decadent, even those worldly people who work hard for life diligently cannot escape this strange circle. It is said that dignity is earned by oneself, but in fact, dignity is given by others, even the saints of Confucius and Mencius and the five thousand Buddhas in the misty clouds and smoke cannot break free from this shackle, because intelligent life has likes and dislikes. Sometimes, when we are casual or self-righteous to say a joke or tease to others, we don't think that we will have this experience in the future. It is said that the high place is unbearable, but in fact, the more ordinary people are, the more they love to discriminate against others, or to cover up their humble truth, or to attract the attention of others, or to find a way to adjust for this ordinary life, people, always discriminate against this and that, but do not think about how small they are: dwarves watch the field, learn alone, do not learn and have no skills, people, always can't keep their hearts, and can't see themselves clearly!
Maybe it's Valentine's Day in China and Qixi is coming, or maybe it's seeing couples in pairs, so inevitably, as expected, I miss the past again, in fact, it's not that I can't let go of this relationship, but I can't let go of you. During this time when it was just me, I figured out a lot of things and knew what I wanted - it never changed, all I wanted was you. Although we have broken up, I know that I still love you, and you have been thinking about me, so why not be together again? Although I know this truth, I still didn't go to you, let my thoughts destroy you and me, think about it, I really have no shame to see you again, because I hurt you so deeply, and I left you without saying a word, and I didn't hurt you well, and sent you to someone else's arms, I regret it, I regret it, I hate myself, but I want to find you again, in this real reality, not in that ethereal dream. I still remember the poems I wrote to you, which contain my full emotions, they are all here, they have never changed.
【Sauvignon Blanc, Difficult to Meet】Difficult to meet, gone forever. Goodbye, no chance. It is a dream that her peach blossoms are like fairies, and she is transformed into a blue bird. Thousands of years, thousands of years, how many years.
Looking at the moon alone, but He Qing has a grudge. Looking at the moon again, I miss it. The night is dark, but he never sleeps. Tossing and turning in front of the bed, the air in front of and behind the body is also scattered. Where is it now, the east wind blows, in the world.
【Sauvignon Blanc, Old Time Thoughts】Old time thoughts frequently appear in this world. Sauvignon Blanc, missing. The red and green peach blossom shore, smiling like a fairy. A few people walked, a few people groaned, and a few people felt.
It is also unpredictable, and the faint gathering is also scattered. Who would have thought that he would cover his eyes. It's easy to get old, and it's a pity. The stars are hiding in the sky, and the moon is hiding in the clouds. The old feelings, the reason is still messy, and the cutting is constant.
[Sauvignon Blanc, Lonely Years] A little eyebrows, a flirtatious, a lovesickness. Play all the charms, but the end of the world is a guest.
Thinking of the past, the past is gradually lost, and yesterday is full of clouds. Looking back, I was speechless, and listened to the love songs all over.
【Don't part】Don't part, don't part
Farewell, parting, gone
Don't part, don't part
Seeing each other is also lovesick, parting can break the bowels
Don't part, don't part
Don't leave the unknown period, and look forward to the knowing period
Don't part, don't part
Leave him, leave him
It's going to be together, don't part
PS: These poems I created two months ago still feel the same when I read them, and my emotions are still the same. Actually, I've been thinking about you all the time. Think about the original two-year appointment, now go most of it, I feel that time flies, the years are too hurried, even if my heart is the same, my heart has not changed, and it has changed too much, the past is difficult to look back, I have to Sauvignon Blanc, I miss, in fact, I have been looking for you in this city, and I have been following your traces, but this city is too big, I have never been able to find you......
Postscript: At eight o'clock in the morning on May 25, 2014, I left a city because of you, and made a promise that I would come back on the same day in 2 years, and now more than half of the time has passed, but do you remember me at the beginning, in fact, I have not changed, at least my heart is still the same as before. I know you're still the same person you used to be, but can I catch up with you again?