Chapter 15: Dream of the Red Chamber
Li Yan took her to a room in the garden, the layout is very similar to the meditation pavilion of Han Taishi's house, and the name is also very similar, this is called the Drunken Heart Pavilion.
The two leaned on the chaise longue, looking at the scenery outside the window. There are a few koi swimming around the lake, and there is a wisteria trellis on the small bridge next to the pavilion, and the flowers are in full bloom at this time, which is very charming.
The maids brought a plate of fruit, some snacks, and cold tea, which was very pleasant on a hot summer afternoon.
Qing Huan was drowsy when he lay down, and Li Yan smiled and said, "It's so boring to sleep like this, get up and tell a story." ”
Qing Huan said helplessly: "What story to tell?" ”
"You tell the story, I'll listen."
Qing Huan was stunned, "I don't have any stories to tell." ”
Li Yan smiled and said: "There is no story to make up, let me see how good you are at making up stories." ”
Qing Huan was overwhelmed by Li Yan's miscellaneous thoughts, thought about it, and said, "Okay, I still have a story." ”
Qing Huan used to like to watch Dream of Red Mansions very much, so he gave him a summary of this story and will tell him. Li Yan nodded at times, smiled at times, and interrupted her to say something of her own.
Qing Huan said for a long time, and Li Yan listened to every word. When it came to Daiyu's death, Qing Huan sold a pass, she has always minded Daiyu's death, especially the last good word, what is behind it, the author didn't say, let tens of millions of readers guess.
Qing Huan wanted to ask Li Yan what he thought, so he said: "When Daiyu died, she said Baoyu, hello... I was angry, guess what she wanted to say behind the good words? “
Li Yan pondered for a while, and then asked Qing Huan, "What do you think?" “
"I think it's probably a ruthless word. Baoyu was designed, not willing to marry Baochai, he was also kept in the dark, but Daiyu didn't know this, only Baoyu meant, so Daiyu would say, Baoyu, you are so ruthless, so ruthless, so many years of affection are gone, lose Daiyu and marry Baochai. “
This has always been Qing Huan's idea, Daiyu should hate Baoyu.
After Qing Huan finished speaking, he turned his head to look at Li Yan, he looked out the window and said, "In my opinion, it should be a bitter word." Baoyu also has a lot of unspeakable suffering, if Daiyu and Baoyu really cherish each other, they will not know this. She should have guessed eight or nine points, and she also felt sad for Baoyu, lamenting that Baoyu was living too hard. “
Qing Huan listened, and his heart was mixed. "Is Li Yan talking about himself?" Qing Huan didn't know, and was silent and didn't answer.
When Li Yan turned his head to see her in a daze, he smiled and said, "I also talk nonsense casually, only Daiyu knows what she has to say." Okay, let's go on, what happened? “
Qing Huan continued, and when he said that later, when the land was really clean and white, the story would end. Qing Huan brought herself into the story, and her emotions fluctuated greatly.
Seeing this, Li Yan leaned over and took her hand, stroked it gently, and said, "It's just a story, why did you still deceive yourself?" “
Qing Huan was a little unhappy when he saw that he had no waves, "You can't understand, I have loved Daiyu for many years, and I have regretted it for many years." “
Li Yan smiled and said: "Then why end in tragedy, you make up your own story, why don't you tell it according to your own heart?" “
"This story can only be like this, and it is not this story if it is changed. Just like the cold plum in winter, only in winter when the snow is falling is amazing, if it blooms in summer, it is just an ordinary flower, and there is no amazing feeling. Qing Huan felt that what he said was very reasonable, and Li Yan also nodded in agreement.
Qing Huan sighed: "There is such a sentence in the funeral flower chant, once the spring is full of red and old, the flowers fall and the people die without knowing." Every time I think of this, I feel that life is too short, and my heart is unspeakably uncomfortable. The present situation will always pass away, and we may become strangers in the future, and we will not know. “
Li Yan's smile disappeared, and he just looked out the window and didn't answer.
Qing Huan turned his head to look at him, the angular outline, and the precipitation of the years highlighted a unique atmosphere on him.
He is a gentleman, empathetic, considerate, and it is the slanting sun that shines warmly on people. The usual smile is as intoxicating as a spring breeze.
For some reason, as long as he is there, he feels safe, as if he is the giant of the sky, omnipotent, he can relieve all sorrows, he can hold up the broken sky. But he is fragile like an ant, at the mercy of others.
He is contradictory, Qing Huan knows it very well in his heart. It's just that at this moment, he is this piece of sky, this landscape. This scene is deeply imprinted in Qing Huan's mind, and it will be unforgettable for many years.
Later, he didn't speak again, and Qing Huan fell asleep in a daze.
When he woke up again, he was already in his bed, Ah Gu sat on the chair next to him and sat on needlework, and when he saw Qinghuan wake up, he said casually: "The prince sent it back, and there is an urgent matter in the palace to pass on the prince." ”
Qing Huan sighed, indicating that he understood.
Ah Gu came over to serve her and freshen up, and said, "The prince said that if she doesn't come back in the evening, the princess will eat by herself." ”
Qing Huan nodded. Li Yan really didn't come back, Qinghuan finished eating by himself, practiced calligraphy, joked with Agu for a while, and then it was time to go to bed again.
At this time, Agu went out to inquire, but the prince still did not come back. Qing Huan said, "Then go to sleep." ”
Agu packed up his things, turned off the lights, and the two lay down and chatted, and gradually fell asleep.
At this time, someone pushed the door in, and Ah Gu was so shocked that he got up, lit the lamp and saw that it was Li Yan who came in, did not speak, and sat on the chair. When he saw Agu getting up, he waved her hand and motioned for her to go out.
Agu obediently went out. Qinghuan didn't react as fast as Ah Gu, and when Ah Gu went out, she got up in a daze, lifted the tent and saw Li Yan sitting on the chair.
Seeing her poking her head out to look around, Li Yan didn't smile, and said in a serious tone: "There is a place that has been flooded, and the disaster relief ministers sent before have not made any results. The emperor ordered me to go. ”
Before Qing Huan could react, Li Yan continued: "After I left, the princess will be bothered by the palace, and Manager Li will assist the princess in handling the affairs of the palace." ”
Qing Huan reacted when he heard this, and asked in a daze, "How long are you going?" ”
"I don't know, maybe I'll be back soon, maybe I'll be back for a long time. In my absence, the princess must take care. I still have to deal with some things, and I'm going to leave tomorrow morning, so go to bed quickly, princess. After saying that, he smiled at Qing Huan and went out.
Qing Huan lay back on the bed and thought carefully about what Li Yan said, before he was completely awake.
Li Yan was sent to disaster relief? I'm in charge of the house? How long is Li Yan going?
Many questions lingered, disturbing Qing Huan's thoughts.
At this time, Agu came back again, and she said to Qing Huan: "The prince left again in a hurry, and called me back to serve the princess." Seeing that the prince looked in a hurry, I don't know what happened? ”
Qing Huan repeated what Li Yan said, and Ah Gu didn't have any shocked emotions, but said calmly: "Then the princess will be busy in the future." If you have to leave tomorrow, you should leave very early, and the princess will go to bed quickly, and she will be able to get up to see off the prince when the time comes. ”
As soon as Qing Huan heard that it was reasonable, he thought about it and fell asleep.
Sure enough, it was very early, and before dawn, Qing Huan was called up by Agu.
"The people outside are busy, it is estimated that the prince is leaving, so the princess should get up quickly."
Qing Huan didn't dare to delay, so he quickly got up and washed up casually, and went out to see Li Yan.
The family members perform their duties, although they are busy but not chaotic. Qing Huan walked through the crowd of people coming and going and walked to the front yard.
Li Yan hasn't come out yet, but the salute or something has already been loaded outside, and there are a few of Li Yan's personal guards who want to go together, and they are also preparing horses and packing up their things.
Ah Gu accompanied Qinghuan to stand in the corner and wait, she didn't want to go to the front, for fear that she would get in the way.
Li Yan didn't go out for a long time, but I saw that Mr. Li called a few small people to look for it. After a while, I saw Li Yan striding out, and Qing Huan hurriedly greeted him.
When Li Yan saw her, he smiled, "I just went to the house to find the princess, and I never thought that the princess had already come here." I'm about to leave, and the princess is going back to the house. ”
Qing Huan took his hand, a little reluctant.
Li Yan smiled, combed the hair around her ears, and said softly: "I will send someone to send letters back regularly, the princess does not have to worry." The affairs of the palace will be handled by Manager Li to assist the princess, and I have arranged them. It's just that during the time I'm not at home, the princess must take care of herself. ”
Qing Huan nodded, still a little reluctant, Li Yan said patiently: "I will come back safely, princess, don't worry." ”
After hearing this, Qing Huan let go of his hand.
Under the guidance of Manager Li's eyes, Ah Gu stepped forward to support Qing Huan and persuaded her to go back to the house in a low voice.
Qing Huan watched Li Yan go out, and before getting into the carriage, Li Yan turned around and smiled at her, and said loudly: "Go back, princess, I'll set off." The words got into the carriage and disappeared into Qing Huan's eyes.
Qing Huan was still reluctant, leaned out of the gate, and watched the carriage move forward, gradually moving away.
When he was about to lose sight, he saw Li Yan open the curtain, poke his head out and smile at her again. Then the carriage turned a corner and vanished. Qing Huan still looked at it and refused to move.
Ah Gu persuaded in a low voice beside him, and Manager Li also stepped forward and said, "It's time for the princess to go in." ”
Qing Huan slowly walked back. Now her head is blank, and Li Yan is really gone. They have been married for almost a year, and they get along day and night, and they have never left for a day.
This time Li Yan left, I don't know when I will come back, thinking of this, Qing Huan felt uncomfortable for a while.
In fact, Qing Huan still likes Li Yan in his heart, but because he is a ruthless person, he buried his feelings so deep that he thought it didn't exist.
But as soon as Li Yan left, this feeling came out and disturbed Qinghuan's heart. Qing Huan felt sad and didn't know how to spend the next few days.