233, lonely life
My father recalled Zhang Du's past and said weakly: "Zhang Du has been touching this thing since he was seventeen years old, and I know that this thing is so powerful that once it sticks, it is difficult to get rid of it, so I tried every means to stop him from quitting." ”
"But it's useless, once he leaves my sight, he will secretly suck, I am the head of the family, there are countless things waiting for me to do every day, I can't supervise him all the time, I am responsible for him sticking this thing, I have not done a good job as a father." Speaking of this, my father's eyes were moist, and there were already tears rolling in the corners of his eyes.
Father choked up. He continued: "Later, he became completely addicted, and I knew that I had to use some special means, so I sent him to a drug rehabilitation center, where he stayed for a year. After coming out, I still couldn't quit, and then I tried all kinds of methods, but he not only couldn't control it, but his addiction became bigger and bigger, and he is now completely useless. I don't know when he's going to die, I can only slowly suppress him and let him live one more day. ”
After speaking, the father's hand holding the cigarette began to tremble slightly, and the tears could not stop flowing, running down his cheeks, across his neck, and into his chest.
This is the first day I met my father, but in a short period of time, I saw my father's love, and saw my father's anger, and finally saw my father's fragility as a biological father.
Although his father was very disappointed in Zhang Du, and even desperate, he was still sad for Zhang Du, no matter how depraved Zhang Du was, no matter how scum he was, Zhang Du was always his son and his own son.
There is no child who does not love his father without love, his father is the head of a huge family, he is destined to be different from ordinary people, but the most important thing is that he is still a father, he is a father.
His heart is the same as that of ordinary people, he has flesh and blood, and in his heart, his relatives will always come first.
I leaned next to my father and gently patted him on the back in an attempt to comfort him.
At this moment, the father does not have the fortitude of the head of the family, but is just grieving and crying for a son who has fallen into the abyss.
At this time, suddenly a bodyguard came over and said respectfully: "Family master, the eldest young master is back." ”
The father was shocked and wiped away his tears in a panic.
He can show his vulnerable side in front of his son, but in front of his subordinates, he must always maintain a majestic appearance.
The father took a deep breath, straightened his back again, and did not turn away. His eyes were still a little red now, and he didn't dare to let others see him crying, so he could only say in a deep voice, "Okay, I know." ”
After the bodyguard turned to leave, my father groaned for a while, his state recovered a lot, his face changed back to resoluteness, and he said to me: "Let's go, go find this eldest young master, your eldest brother." My father was also a little irritated as he spoke.
My heart suddenly burst and I followed my father's side, and I couldn't help but ask: "Dad, big brother ...... him too" I didn't say the next words, in fact, I don't need to say that my father can guess what I want to say.
The father shook his head and said with some reassurance: "He doesn't suck this, he is still quite sensible, and he knows that this thing can't be touched, but he is a gambler." ”
I nodded thoughtfully. If even the eldest young master in the ranking sucks that thing, the Zhang family is really going to be doomed, and his father may not be able to stand such a lot of pressure and collapse, but fortunately, he is just gambling. There was no poisoning.
The Zhang family is rich and generous, and he can let the eldest young master gamble for a lifetime, at least he still has a way back, but the second Zhang Du is completely finished. There is no way back in this life.
The father suddenly sighed and said: "Even if he only gambles, he can't do without gambling, and if he wants to be the head of the family, he can't have any flaws." You must not be addicted to anything, so do you know why you were chosen to be the future head of the house? ”
I nodded, just now I thought my father was too hasty, now I know why my father was so sure of me, because he didn't see any hope in the other two sons.
The head of the family is a vital position. He didn't feel at ease about handing it over to his other two sons, he couldn't let the inheritance that his ancestors had worked so hard to save be ruined.
However, I am still a little weak, and I am also afraid that the family will be ruined on me, then I will be the eternal sinner of the Zhang family.
The father continued: "Son. Your father and I are incompetent, I can manage such a huge family, but I don't have the ability to manage my own children, my two sons are both losers. One was so defeated that his life was almost gone. ”
As he spoke, his whole face became haggard, as if he had unconsciously aged a lot.
The father's words changed again, and he was a little relieved: "It's okay, Dad still has you." There is still hope for the Zhang family. "My father really seemed to regard me as the only hope for the Zhang family, and I suddenly felt the pressure on my shoulders increase dramatically.
My father and I went to a compound, and in the middle of the compound sat a bespectacled young man, who also looked to be about twenty years old, and I thought he was probably my father's eldest son.
Father shouted lightly: "Zhang Gu." I was away from home for a few days, and I went to gamble again. There was a hint of blame in his father's tone, but for Zhang Du, it was more gentle.
I suddenly discovered that the names my father gave the three of us, one after another, were lonely lives! There are very meaningful names, and my father gave us these names, what is the meaning of them?
Zhang Gu was originally tapping on a laptop when he heard his father's words. Immediately raised his head, smiled indifferently, and said, "I just came back from Macau, so I can go and have fun casually." ”
His father sat down next to him and said, "How much did you lose this time?" ”
Zhang Gu replied indifferently: "Not much." 10 million only. ”
Hearing Zhang Gu say that he lost 10 million, I couldn't help but take a breath, 10 million only? How do you feel that this 10 million is as simple as eating a bowl of noodles for Zhang Gu.
I've never seen so much money in my life, and I vaguely remember the first time Li Fei'er's mother came to me. said that I should take out 10 million, and she agreed that I would be with Li Fei'er, at that time, 10 million was an astronomical amount for me, but I could say it in Zhang Gu's mouth. Ten million is not money at all.
This is the real rich second generation, this is a big family! Lose 10 million casually without blinking an eye.
And his father didn't express surprise, as if he was used to it, but told him to let him restrain himself in the future, and there were still a lot of companies waiting for him to take care of at home.
Zhang Gu also nodded, and said a few simple perfunctory words.
"Come, I'll introduce you, this is ......"
"I know, his name is Zhang Ming, and you often mention it these days." Without waiting for his father to finish speaking, Zhang Gu directly interrupted his father's words, raised his head to look at me, and said to me: "You are my third brother, and I am your eldest brother." ”
Zhang Gu smiled at me. Stretching out his hand to me, I hurriedly greeted him and shook his hand, feeling that he was quite polite compared to Zhang Du.
Zhang Gu held my hand tightly. With a smile on his face, he said: "I heard my father mention that he wanted to give you the future head of the family, so there is such a thing." Zhang Gu said, the smile on his face became more and more intense.
I don't know if I'm wrong, Zhang Gu's eyes showed a hint of ruthlessness, but it soon flashed.
Looking at Zhang Gu's harmless expression, I thought I was suspicious, and said, "Dad just decided temporarily, it's still too early to determine the head of the family, maybe it will change in the future." ”
Zhang Gu pursed his lips and said, "Dad really loves you, I just returned to Zhang's house, so I can't wait to make up my mind." ”
I vaguely felt that Zhang Gu's sour tone even had a hint of unwillingness.
I suddenly found that Zhang Gu's scheming was much deeper than Zhang Du, Zhang Du's mind had been completely soaked in poison, but Zhang Gu's heart was still full of ambition, his father was standing next to him, but he had no scruples, he could say whatever he wanted.
I was afraid that I would accidentally offend Zhang Gu, so I said: "Big brother, don't be joking, Dad attaches more importance to you, your ability is much better than mine, besides, haven't you decided yet?" What might happen in the future, who knows, right? ”