All night.

Xu Chenyao did not get permission to enter the ward.

He had been waiting at the door of the ward, wanting to go in countless times, but Xiao Su had let Lu Zhiyan block him out, and Xu Chenyao fell into infinite self-blame.

They seemed to say something, and then she fell asleep.

Lu Zhiyan walked out of the ward quietly, looked at Xu Chenyao with disdain and left, giving up the space to Xu Chenyao.

It was already three o'clock in the morning.

When Xu Chenyao finally saw Su Xiaoran who was asleep, there was a trace of surging emotion in his heart that was quietly spreading, and such a miserable white face made his eyebrows twist together and tremble slightly.

I had just experienced the pain of eighteen layers of hell, and the imprint on my body like a soldering iron was still burning hot.

The child is gone! His heart hurts, but fortunately she is still there, otherwise how would he live?

He walked over, leaned over and hugged her body gently, why was she so thin?

Getting thinner and thinner, his face was so pale that he could almost see the transparent blood vessels on his fair face, and his heart ached.

Su Xiaoran, who was sleeping soundly, suddenly felt it at this moment, she felt the hot water stains dripping from her neck, and then she smelled a familiar breath, which belonged to Xu Chenyao, and he cried.

As soon as he wept, her heart ached even more.

Without opening her eyes, she closed them.

She didn't know how to face him. @^^

Is he to blame? Blame him for what?

blamed herself for being careless, blamed herself for not protecting the child well, she was sorry for him! With a throbbing heart, Su Xiaoran closed her eyes and could only pretend to be asleep.

Xu Chenyao hugged her tightly for a long time, his expression was complicated, and he swallowed his tears.

He sat down, stared at her, and muttered in a low voice, as if not realizing that she was awake, he just said, "It's okay if you're okay, it's my fault that I didn't protect you, it's all my fault...... Xiao Su, I always think less for you and do less for you, it's because I'm sorry for you, God will punish me like this......"

Xu Chenyao choked, tears fell silently from his face, reflecting the pain and sadness of his handsome cheeks. "You should blame me, you don't want to see me! I can't even forgive myself! ”!*!

Xu Chenyao's nose soured.

Suddenly felt a feeling of pity overflowing from her heart, his tears fell into her heart so solemnly, Su Xiaoran held her breath, she was afraid that she would not be able to help crying.

Then, she felt that Xu Chenyao's slender big hand had touched her face with pity, gently touching her frowning brow, and soothing her pain.

He felt her pain.

Because, the two of them are the ones who should be the most sorrowful!

The child is theirs!

This baby that he suddenly lost as soon as he knew, Xu Chenyao's heart hurts more than a knife. He would rather cut his heart with a knife than endure such pain!

"Xiao Su, I'm sorry!" Xu Chenyao said in a low voice, afraid of waking her up.

"You get out!" Suddenly, she opened her eyes and took a deep breath, she just looked at the ceiling, she didn't even look at him.

Xu Chenyao turned around sharply and looked up. "Xiao Su, are you awake?"

"Please get out!" Su Xiaoran still said the same thing. "I don't want to see you!"

Xu Chenyao's deep eyes looked at Su Xiaoran's face as silent as stagnant water, and said softly: "Xiao Su, give me a chance, okay?" ”

"I'm sorry." A long sigh

Su Xiaoran shook her head, "Xu Chenyao, you didn't do anything wrong, I know that I was sorry for you, I didn't tell you about my pregnancy, and I lost the baby." ”

"I want you to leave, but I don't know how to face you, please respect me too!" Su Xiaoran said faintly, how could she not be clear, where is Xu Chenyao's fault in this matter. She was like a frightened animal, unable to get out of the haze.

She didn't want to see him again, and she didn't know how to get along with him anymore, although what she wanted to do most at the moment was to throw herself into his arms and cry, but ......

"Xiao Su, no matter what you say, I won't go out this time, let me guard you here and let me take care of you!"

"No, you don't!" said indifferently, she didn't want to give him a chance, never again.

At this moment, how she wished she could throw herself into his arms, that warm and stable chest used to be her most cherished harbor, but now, with the flow of the baby, her heart can no longer recover the beginning of the state of mind! Although I know that I blame him and wronged him.

Seeing her like this, he really wanted to hug her, kiss her, hold her in his arms, and then say sorry.

He wanted to do it, but he didn't.

He shook his hands hanging at his side, and didn't dare to step forward, because he was so guilty that she had suffered so much.

"You get out!" Her emotions looked a little excited, and he was afraid that she would be excited, so he immediately said: "Okay, you don't let me be here, I'll go out, I'll go out immediately, don't be excited, your body can't be too excited!" I'm in the corridor, call me if you need me, I'm willing to serve you as a cow or a horse, please don't drive me too far! ”

His humble tone made her heart even more sour.

Xu Chenyao was helpless, afraid that she would be angry, so he had to be in the corridor.

Lu Zhiyan saw him come out and raised his eyebrows. "She's awake?"

Xu Chenyao frowned, he couldn't get used to Lu Zhiyan caring too much about Xiao Su. "Who are you? It's our thing. Please leave. ”

Lu Zhiyan was stunned for a moment and pursed his lips. "You don't need to know!"

"What is the purpose of your approaching Xiao Su?" Xu Chenyao intuitively felt that he had a purpose.

"Let her leave you!" Lu Zhiyan indifferently spit out five words.

Xu Chenyao's brain exploded, he really had a purpose, and his motive was so not pure, such a confession, he said coldly: "Don't you think about it!" ”

Lu Zhiyan shrugged his shoulders and said defiantly: "At least now she is willing to talk to me, but not to you." ”

Xu Chenyao staggered back a step, yes, in terms of momentum, he felt that he had lost. But he didn't want to admit defeat: "Xiao Su loves me!" ”

"But you seem to love Yao Fei'er! In your heart, Yao Fei'er always comes first, when did you put Su Xiaoran first? Lu Zhiyan's words were like a thunderbolt in a sunny day, and it instantly exploded and shocked Xu Chenyao's whole body.

Yes!

He didn't! He always makes Xiao Su hurt!

Xu Chenyao closed his eyes in pain and shook his head incessantly. He finally sat down on the bench, lowered his head, buried his face in the palm of his hand, and couldn't control his grief.

"Is Yao Fei'er really worthy of your treatment?" Lu Zhiyan dropped a sentence and entered the ward.

What does he mean?

Xu Chenyao repeated this sentence repeatedly in his mind, he knew that Fei'er was already in the past tense, and he loved Xiao Su in his heart, but the things he did were always .........

"Lu Zhiyan, go back!" Su Xiaoran saw Lu Zhiyan come in, and said softly: "Wait for me, I want to hear your complete story!" ”

"Aren't you afraid I'm sexually abused?" He asked.

"You're not!" She's sure.

"Good! Then hurry up and get better, it's too late tonight, I won't leave, let's talk about it at dawn! You sleep now! Lu Zhiyan helped her cover the quilt.