The weather in Fuyang is really like a changeable baby, yesterday it was still sunny, today it is really changed, it has become a cloud, it has become cloudy, it has become cloudy, and it has become more haggard, just like my mood today.

I thought I wasn't an emotional person, but many signs betrayed me;

I thought I was an emotional person, but many situations showed me to be an indifferent and indifferent person.

I don't seem to have heard my inner voice for a long time, I seem to have fallen into a lonely and lonely trajectory, and I have especially sunk in, immersed in a comfortable and comfortable environment, and I have become extremely panicked, panicked, and have lost my spirit since then.

Although I sit and go to work day by day, year after year, I just need to do my own thing every day, but it is really like going to jail. Some friends said that going to work is to go to jail, let alone sitting here for a day, and commuting to and from work is only wandering and walking in the land of projectiles.

But even so, there are still a lot of things worth discussing and documenting here, such as the "toilet" that can apply for the Guinness Book of World Records, for example, many college students here who have not graduated have begun to form gangs, intrigue and exclude each other, not at all like they have just come out of the ivory tower, or I don't understand the reality of today, I really don't know what they are here for, and I don't know what I came here for, as if the more I experience, I will fall into the quagmire of the world, The more I struggled, the deeper I sank, and finally I lost the most important self I wanted to be, and then I began to go with the flow, no longer asking questions, and also began to participate in many, many things that I was not used to, and they said that this is life.

After a period of training, my social experience has gradually increased a lot, and many ideas have gradually become mature, but I am still very lazy, I don't do it, I can't be lazy anymore, I lack the spirit of recklessness many years ago, is this growth or degeneration? The most difficult and best state of life when you are alive is to "be yourself", but if you don't read books, take notes, or improve your experience in the ten directions when you're young, you can't be your true self. Although life gives people both hope and vanity, it is not easy to rely on "one trick fresh, eat all over the world", because this trick is the last trick after thousands of searches, fade out of the lead and become one, it is really not easy for a person to do one thing well in his life, it is not easy......

Maybe you can't get what you want, but you can often get the favorite. Maybe it's because life is sometimes not what you want and you can want, and it's not something you can do if you want to, so we all learn to live a good life, but in the end, we can't change the truth that life is a mess, and then we start to be restless, but after a period of self-healing or hearsay, listening to others say the truest and deepest understanding of life, we silence our hearts, but nothing really solves it. Then one day in the future, these puzzled questions will come back again, like an appendage, to devour people alive.

Many people in life are saying, you can't do this, you don't do that, in fact, you can focus on doing one thing, itself is already extraordinary, it's not that life is not good enough, it's that people can't resist the gossip of the outside world, this is that people themselves care too much, and their hearts are far from strong enough!

In this bustling world, there are many voices, although they sound beautiful, but too many of them are noisy and even noisy, so they cover up the purest voices that belong to a person's heart.

Although these hard days are very miserable, but every kind of life is a success in life, in fact, we sometimes panic, not because we are afraid that the future we create is not good enough, but because we are afraid that we will not be able to compare with the closest people around us; But what we often pursue is actually just what others impose, is what they want to engage in the most life, this is their inner voice, but this is not the most sincere voice in their hearts, so they have been pursuing, listening to the inner instructions at all times, listening to a day to find a day, a year to listen to find a year, as long as you are willing to listen and do, the inner voice will sound sooner or later.

But time can really change a lot, even if it's just two years. In two years, my ex-girlfriend is engaged and is going to get married, and in two years, my younger brother's children will play soy sauce, and in two years... But the only thing that remains the same is still the same self, but if you save a little savings, you don't have nothing! Sometimes you really need one, two, or three like-minded people to change the outcome of nothing, because lonely heroes are no longer the theme of this era, but it is really difficult to find these like-minded people, so I live alone and lonely.