Pei Yao sighed, sat down beside him, and leaned on his shoulder with sleepy eyes.

She curled up her fingers and flicked on the Long Shadow Sword, and said slowly in disgust: "If you don't hold such a living beauty as me, at night, you want to hide out and hold this cold dead thing, is your husband sincere in making me jealous?" ”

Xiao Di was amused by her and smiled, afraid that she would suffer from typhoid, so he got up and took her back to the room.

But the person stood up just now, but she held her hand tightly and pulled her back.

"Don't worry." Pei Yaowei still leaned on him, pulled the cloak, and covered the knees of the two of them, "This is already the case, there is no way to worry about it, it will only hook my heart." Seeing that I am distressed, don't you want to be even more distressed? In this way, we don't have to bother planning anything, we ourselves will be consumed by ourselves first. ”

Xiao Di hugged her, rubbed her warm palm on her shoulder, and didn't speak for a long time.

Worried?

He was naturally worried about an enemy who was worshiped as a god by all the people in the world and flocked to him. It's just that in addition to his sorrow, he also has some deeper emotions that even Pei Yaowei can't persuade.

I don't know how long it took, he turned his head and kissed her lightly on the forehead, and whispered: "It's easy not to worry, but it's hard not to hate." ”

Pei Yao didn't think about it, he only felt that his hatred was aimed at Jiguang.

So she said, "I hate it too." When I just left Butai, my heart was full of hatred - I hated Jiguang, I hated Lou Zhen, and I hated myself even more. ”

As she spoke, she saw Xiao Di look at her nervously.

She understood his worries, and hurriedly smiled comfortingly, "Don't worry, I don't hate myself because I am a tool for him to chase Hua Dushi again." ”

Xiao Di asked her why.

She thought about it, and her sleepiness was almost gone.

"When I couldn't be staged, when Jiguang finished those words with me, there was a moment and a half when I understood him."

A person who tries to destroy the world, you know that you should hate him, but when you listen to his reasons, you unexpectedly understand him.

For Pei Yaowei, this is a terrifying thing. She didn't even dare to think about this understanding—she was afraid that in the end, it would turn into recognition.

She raised her head and asked Xiao Di, "Do you hate me?" ”

Xiao Di was stunned for a moment, then smiled faintly, "Why do you hate you?" Because you understand the light? ”

Without waiting for Pei Yaowei to speak, he shook his head again, and whispered helplessly: "Then I probably want to hate it with myself." ”

She was stunned, and after comprehending the meaning of his words, she was not only surprised, but also relieved.

Hearing her inopportune chuckle in her ears, Xiao Di was a little puzzled and asked her, "What are you laughing at?" ”

She rubbed his shoulder and said calmly, "I suddenly remembered how I felt when I first liked you. ”

Xiao Di was silent and asked her what her mood was.

"You make me feel at ease," she said. ”

"Peace of mind?" He didn't expect such an answer, thought about it, and confirmed, "Do you mean when we communicate?" ”

Pei Yaowei nodded, "Yes." ”

She considers herself a self-aware person. As a person, she is never ashamed of her temperament, but at the same time, she also knows that as a woman, in addition to her description and background, there is almost nothing in her body that meets the expectations of ordinary people for women.

She didn't regret anything, but sometimes she did feel powerless.

- It was a kind of loneliness as an alien, she didn't want to change herself, but she wanted a confidant, a confidant who could make herself no longer an alien.

It was like right now, when she was troubled by her understanding of Jiguang, and suddenly found that he was in the same mood as herself, and suddenly, this terrible was not so terrible.

"You make me feel that I am no longer an alien—" She held Xiao Di's hand and said with a smile: "Or, the encounter between you and me is the reunion of two aliens, and from then on we have the confidence of each other, and we will never be lonely again." ”

Xiao Di liked her very much.

He also sincerely hopes that one day, he will be able to say these words to her as they are.

"Don't worry." After a while, seeing that he was still preoccupied, Pei Yaowei comforted softly: "Jiguang will not get his wish." ”

Xiao Di pondered for a moment, and wanted to ask her if she knew what she hated, but the exit was: "Do you know who I hate the most?" ”

As soon as he said this, she knew that what he hated most was not Jiguang.

There was an inexplicable feeling of uneasiness in her heart, she forced a smile and said, "As long as you don't hate the person I love the most, you can be." ”

Xiao Di showed a wry smile on his face.

"I hate two people the most," he said, "Xiao Jianling, and myself." ”

After speaking, he felt the hand she was holding with him tightened.

Pei Yaowei still heard the answer she didn't want to hear, and for a while, she felt uncomfortable to death.

Although she knew that Xiao Di had a knot in his heart for Emperor Jing, this was the first time she had heard him call his grandfather by name and surname, regardless of filial piety.

Come to think of it, if there was no evil cause planted by Xiao Jianling back then, how could there be today's evil consequences? When he did whatever it took for the country, he probably wouldn't have thought that this mess of the aftermath would continue to this point.

She thought about it for a moment and asked him: "Emperor Jing's words, hate it." But can you not hate yourself? ”

It's always easy to blame someone else, but blame yourself...... It is often painful to shake the bones.

After a while, she heard Xiao Di say: "Over the years, the queen mother, the son of Xian, and the silent words, many people have persuaded me to pay attention to the number of Xuanmen techniques, and also save a few people who can be used by my side, in case of emergency."

But I never let go of it.

Now that the enemy is present, there is no one around me who can be used...... Even the lives of my beloved, I have to rely on the enemy to help me preserve. If you have any accidents, if so......

Pei Yaowei, I not only hate myself, but I regret not being at the beginning! ”

After his words were finished, Pei Yao was distressed, but also relieved.

At least she knew how to comfort him.

She smiled wryly and patted him on the back and said softly, "Okay...... What is there to regret? It's not that I have the ambition of others, but you also think about it, even if you listen to the words of the queen mother, you really have a lot of talented people by your side, what use can it be?

How many people can be useful to the upper light? ”

Xiao Di's eyebrows moved.

After a moment, he turned his head to look at her, and a determined light gradually gathered between his eyebrows: "I will find him." ”

He took her hand and said earnestly, as if promised: "I will definitely find Wen Yan." ”

Pei Yaowei smiled slightly and nodded soothingly.

Wen Yan.

Only Wen Yan.

The man is their greatest hope.

In fact, not long after returning to the dust capital a while ago, Pei Yaowei asked Qiongnu to deliver a message to Fangyue, and asked Fangyue to secretly go to find Wen Yan, but there was no news so far.

She also understands in her heart that looking for nature is to be found, but if a person like Wen Yan doesn't have the intention of being present one day, it is estimated that it will be difficult for others to get anything no matter how much they dig into the ground.

But if she is so frustrated, she will not say it to Xiao Di.

At this moment, Xiao Di held her in his arms, and his strength was so strong that he seemed to integrate her into his bones and blood, Pei Yao felt a little pain, but he didn't say a word, and blindly held her.

She knew he was scared.

"Jiguang once said that he lived to destroy the country, but Uncle Wen Yan lived to protect the country." She comforted him and said, "Don't worry, when you find Uncle Wen Yan, everything will be fine." We will definitely be able to pass this hurdle. ”

Xiao Di nodded, but the strength in his hand did not relax.

Suddenly, he asked, "Pei Yao, do you remember what you said?" ”

She was slightly stunned, and then smiled: "Which one do you say?" ”

He immediately said, "You said you would never go again." ”

“…… I remember. She pondered for a long time, and wanted to give him a word of comfort, but in the end she was reluctant to say something against her heart to him, and finally could only say: "Death will die by your side, and I will never act behind your back, okay?" ”

To her surprise, Xiao Di looked at her deeply for a moment, and finally nodded: "Okay." ”

Immediately afterwards, he said, "I have a word for you, and you must remember—

If anything, I'll die before you. ”

"Xiao Di ......"

After she was stunned, panic flashed in her eyes, and it seemed that endless words of persuasion were about to bubble out, but Xiao Di held the top of her head, and with a long boo, her mind was confused.

He said, "My words are true, and even you can't persuade them." Pei Yaowei, I will never give you a chance to leave me again in my life, life and death, we will do our best, if the personnel is not satisfactory, then take a step back and ask for a life and death to accompany you. ”

She buried her head in his arms, her lips slightly open, stunned for a long time, and finally, silently closed her eyes and hugged him tightly.

At dawn the next day, after breakfast, the two set off early. Less than a moment after the carriage went out, Pei Yao was on a whim, and suddenly told him that he wanted to go to Zhaoye Temple.

Xiao Di didn't say anything, so he ordered, turned back to her and asked, "Feeling uneasy?" ”

Pei Yao's first reaction was to shake his head, but under his gaze, he felt that there was nothing to hide, and after a long time, he sighed and nodded.

"Speaking of which, I really wasn't a good man or woman before, but now ......," she sighed, "I don't have a sustenance in my heart, I always feel empty, ask God to worship Buddha, it can be regarded as a driftwood, and my heart can be more or less stable." ”

Xiao Di was noncommittal about this, but he was always happy to see her feel at ease.

After a moment, he remembered something, so he mentioned it to her more: "By the way, Mr. Yiyuan's wife and youngest daughter both live in Zhaoye Temple, I heard that you have already met?" ”

Pei Yao bowed her head, and then thought of Mrs. Zhao and her daughter, and with joy, she also had something else in her heart.