Yun wants to wear clothes, 'flowers', and I want to look, and my name is 'flower'.

I'm an 'illegal' child, the most unpopular birth, the kind that anyone can step on two feet when they see it.

I also have a twin sister, rare we were born exactly the same, but she is a 'female' body, with this skin, it is overwhelming, I am a male body, with this face, there is only endless hatred, when I was very young, I knew how sinful I looked from the lewd 'obscene' eyes of others.

My mother is a very beautiful 'woman', otherwise with her posture 'color', if it weren't for the low background of the official slave and the lowly background, at least it would be no problem to 'mix' an aunt to be a girl, but she can only be an outer room, raised by a man outside, and can't see the light.

I have seen that man, the face of the Chinese character, not handsome, but he has beautiful clothes, elegant and majestic temperament, once I was afraid of him, now I think that it is the son's natural admiration for his father, but it turns out that this kind of admiration can not withstand a knock, it is like glass, a knock will break.

Until I was thirteen years old, I had been thinking about whether I should let my mother die without knowing it, after all, she was too low-born, and with her presence, my sister and I would have a stain on us that could never be washed away.

When my father didn't come, my mother was drunk day and night, playing sad tunes, and at the end, she was angry and started to make me angry, as for her sister, she was reluctant to start, after all, she was good-looking, maybe she would be able to marry into a powerful person in the future, even if it was a concubine, she was much better than her.

So, I could only leave bruises and pinching marks on my body, and at that time, I hated her very much.

I hated why she gave birth to me, maybe the pleasure with my father was what she enjoyed, and as for my sidestock, it was actually dispensable.

When I hated, I wanted to kill her, and even several times I clinged to her golden hairpin, and when she was drunk and asleep, I wanted to 'insert' the hairpin into her throat, and I already knew that when I had this thought, I could no longer be regarded as a normal sunny and clean person.

The journey of my life is too dark, my appearance is the greatest evil, I want supreme power, only in this way can I have peace of mind, I feel that I can protect myself.

However, when she woke up, she would look at my sister's face and feel sad, and then tidy up her appearance and go out of the 'door', and when she came back, she would bring back some children's favorite gadgets, and my sister and I would have a share.

And she will warmly 'touch' the top of our heads, tell us some small stories in the "Historical Records", and at this time she will be a gentle mother again.

I want to kill her and the desire to kill her will gradually fade, and I will be greedy for the warmth she brings me.

Every now and then, I would lean into the crook of her arm, squinting my eyes, absorbing the body temperature on her body, a warm picture.

In fact, the days of hesitation and entanglement ended very quickly, and when my father came to my mother's side less and less, and finally another decent man came to her 'door' and became her guest of the scene, I knew that this road was coming to an end.

My father soon found out about my mother's 'fornication', and that night, I heard them arguing so loudly, with the sound of things breaking, and my mother's crying, and that night, the first rainstorm was rare.

My sister was scared alone, she ran to my room, I put my arms around her, and I found her trembling.

I know that she has always been timid, even if there are children in the neighborhood who bully her, she will not fight back, she will only cry to me or another child who covets her appearance, and help her fight back, I know that my mother taught my sister.

From the bottom of my heart, I don't want her to be like the second mother, what is the difference between such a 'woman' and a bitch, but as time goes by, I helplessly find that 'Hua' Fu is more and more like her mother, which makes the only warmth in my heart for her instantly cool.

In the middle of the night, my father flicked his sleeves and went away angrily, and I comforted my sister, and when I went to my mother's room alone, I saw that she had blood on her forehead, her clothes were torn, and she was crying.

She saw me at a glance, was stunned for a moment, and then hugged me and said, "Rong'er, remember, you have to go to the 'Hua' family and become the most important son of the 'Hua' karma, he only has such a son as you, I want you to become the head of the 'Hua' family, and then take revenge on that ruthless and unrighteous man!" ”

Her nails were very long, and it hurt me to pinch her, and I didn't nod or deny it, just looking at her and no longer expression.

I won't tell her, in fact, I have long known that I am the only son of the 'Hua' karma, and I have long thought that I will definitely enter the 'Hua' Mansion in the future, and the position of the head of the family is what I want to seize all my life.

Because I've always found that I've always been steadfast in what I want, and I'll do whatever it takes to do that.

If I want to keep myself, of course, I can also protect the 'flower' by the way, so I must become the head of the 'flower' family.

Then, my mother died, and she took my hand, held the golden hairpin, and stabbed herself in the throat, and finally she said, "Actually, I always knew that if you wanted to kill me, I was your stain......"

The idea of hesitation for many years was realized, but I felt sad and couldn't cry, that is, the only trace of softness in the 'chest' cavity completely turned cold and hard, and I never regained my affection.

I turned my head with my hands covered in blood, and there was a bright white lightning flashing, and I saw 'Hua' Fu standing at the 'door' and witnessing everything.

Since then, I have never felt a trace of sadness, as if this emotion was never seen again with my mother's death.

I knew that I was getting more and more abnormal, because that night, I fell in love with the feeling of blood gushing, with a 'fascinated' face, and a warm temperature.

I entered the 'Hua' Mansion with 'Hua' Fu, which was after the death of my father's main wife, and before I entered the mansion, I heard the name of 'Hua' Jiu, my eldest sister, and many people said that she 'killed' the Yang family.

I scoffed, it's good that Yang is dead, but who 'made' the death has nothing to do with me.

However, when I first saw Hana Jiu in daylight, I knew that she and I were enemies, enemies that I could no longer avoid.

'Flower' Fu is stupid, and thinks that she can 'deceive' everyone in the 'Flower' Mansion with her little trick of not pretending to be weak on the surface, but she doesn't know that she is a clown in the eyes of others, 'Flower' Fu offended 'Flower' Jiu, I am very angry, I am angry not because of 'Flower' Jiu, but 'Flower' Fu, she actually faced 'Hua' Jiu when I was not yet able to gain a foothold.

I warned her, and she was fine.

In fact, in the 'flower' mansion, the first person I want to deal with the first is 'flower' Mingxuan, the man who was born with a genius reputation, his aura is too dazzling, if I want to be the head of the 'flower' family, he is bound to be my biggest threat.

However, 'Hua' Mingxuan and 'Hua' Jiu have a good relationship, and there is a tacit understanding between the two, which makes me feel tricky.

Suo 'sex', in the whole mansion, 'Hua' nine enemies, I easily caught up with 'Hua' Zhi, and colluded with Yang Mansion through 'Hua' Zhi, I thought that this time I didn't say that I completely 'messed up' 'Hua' Mingxuan and 'Hua' Jiu, and it was good to be seriously injured, but I still underestimated these two people.

Even if the reputation of the same surname ** is placed on them, they can finally turn the tables.

I know that I have lost an opportunity, and I have completely opposed myself in front of 'Hua' Jiu and 'Hua' Mingxuan.

Then, on the day of 'Hua' Jiu's wedding, I stabbed a sword into 'Hua' Mingxuan's body in front of 'Hua' Jiu, and I saw that 'Hua' Jiu's face was like ice water, and I no longer had any expression, at that moment, I knew how powerful my opponent was.

I met the enemy of my life.

'Hua' Jiu cut my fingers, which almost ruined my 'Hua' family master's road, I actually don't hate it in my heart, my own calculations are not as good as others, failure is failure, but the pain of broken fingers will be repaid sooner or later.

And 'flower' Mingxuan, after this experience, completely closed the hospital, which just gave me time to develop, the person behind me gave me a broken finger, which is no different from the real thing, and also gave a few pages of fragments of the 'jade' formula, I relied on this fragment to quickly break out of my name in the capital.

Living up to expectations, the aura of 'Hua' Mingxuan was replaced by me, and I became the best candidate for the position of the next head of the family in the eyes of 'Hua' Yefeng.

At this time, news came from Zhaozhou, and the incense shop of the 'Hua' family had collapsed.

Almost immediately, I thought of 'Hana' Jiu, the 'girl' who was more ruthless and indifferent than anyone else, and I was sure it was her handiwork.

Very early on, I felt that she had an incomparable hatred for the 'flower' family.

When I arrived in Zhaozhou, the situation here was even more serious than I imagined, if it weren't for the incense guild controlled by the 'flower' family, the 'flower' nine would almost cover the sky with one hand.

What I was most frightened about was the incense made by the 'flower' nine, the style of the incense was exactly the same as the style of the 'jade' fragment in my hand, I was ecstatic, if I got all the 'jade' recipes, a small 'flower' family head would be no problem at all, and I could even climb to a higher position.

Everything I ever dreamed of, I could come true.

I planned wholeheartedly, step by step, I expected all the process, but what I didn't expect was that in the end I still lost, still defeated under the hands of 'Hua' Jiu, just when I thought I was sure to '' the victory, 'Hua' Jiu pulled me from the clouds to Huangquan at once.

I hated my appearance again, whether it was a man or a woman, I could have evil thoughts when I looked at it, I took it upon myself, looking for someone to coerce me to 'force' and 'flower' nine, trying to get the formula, but in the end it should be on my own body.

'Hua' Jiu kept saying that I was still so impatient.

I thought she might be right, and as soon as I was sure that the 'jade' formula was in her hands, I rushed in.

When I was pressed under the boss of the 'gang', I thought of my mother, the 'woman' who 'forced' me to kill her with a hairpin, in fact, I always wanted to ask if she had ever been her son.

In this world, what mother uses 'force' to do such a damned thing for her son, or is it just like she said when she was dying, asking me to take revenge for him for 'flowering' karma.

I know I'm damned.

I envy Xi Zixiao, who is also an 'illegal' child, and also does things for people of that status, why can he be so calm, and even get the recognition of 'Hua' Jiu, and have the feelings of a normal person, I have been deeply jealous.

In fact, I have never hated anyone, including the 'flower' Jiu who tortured me so much, because, if Xi Zixiao doesn't come to save her, my fate will be the fate of 'Hua' Jiu, and I will not be soft either, because I have a grudge in my heart, and I already have to hold this grudge and this poison in order to live step by step.

Live and pursue what I've always wanted to get.