I tried my best to hold back the tears and not let them fall, I just wanted to leave my last trace of dignity in front of Li Fei'er.

Since I came out of the ward, I was kidnapped by Li Jiangchuan, he beat me half to death, and even cut off my life, I never thought about breaking up with Li Fei'er, because I knew that I couldn't live up to Li Fei'er.

However, the love that I have given my life to protect is actually just a bubble that will be dispersed with a wave.

I exhaled, since that was it. There's nothing left to hold onto, forget it, forget it......

I used the last of my mental strength, and finally showed her a gentle smile and said to her, "I'm sorry, everything is because I think too much, and we don't know each other in the future." ”

After saying that, my heart also relaxed, more precisely, dead!

My first love, the first love I felt, even if it was short and fake, taught me a profound lesson.

Perhaps, in the future, I will no longer believe in the so-called love!

Li Fei'er took a deep breath and said to me seriously: "Okay, after this time, we will be strangers, but in the end, I still have something to say to you, in the future, live your little life in peace, don't fight with others anymore, because, if something happens again." Probably no one will figure it out for you anymore, you know? ”

I understand the meaning of Li Fei'er's words, that is, if I encounter any difficulties in the future, she will not appear.

I nodded, and I gave her a response, and she was about to turn around, but she paused again, and said: "By the way, and in the future, you must work hard, you must be a rich man, and you must be a powerful person, so that you can protect the people you want to protect." ”

I don't know if it's my delusion, after Li Fei'er finished saying this, tears were already slowly falling from the corners of her eyes, and my consciousness was gradually hazy, and I didn't see it clearly.

When I was sluggish, she had already turned around and walked away, and when I came back to my senses, I thought that I had misunderstood, how could she cry for me, and the tears I saw were just self-comforting.

It wasn't until Li Fei'er's figure disappeared into my world that I turned around with difficulty, stepped on heavy steps, and left in pain, and at this moment, my tears were like floods that opened the floodgates, surging out.

I am very relieved, at least in the end, I still have a little self-esteem in front of Li Fei'er, I didn't shed tears in front of her, and that's enough.

I stepped out of this affluent area step by step, came to the side of the road, I walked into an alley, and in an instant, a sad gas in my chest jumped out, and I, who had been silently crying, began to cry loudly.

The flood of tears, the sadness, pain and sadness in my heart were entangled in my body.

At this time, suddenly a hand was on my shoulder, trying to give me courage, and I looked up and saw that it was a monkey. Before I knew it, he appeared behind me, looking at me with distressed eyes.

"Alas...... Why bother, I just told you last night, don't get caught up in it, why don't you listen. The monkey shook his head slightly and sighed, and gently patted me on the shoulder.

"Monkey!" I cried out and threw myself into the monkey's arms, I wanted a comfort, a lean.

I don't know how long I cried in the monkey's arms when I held my head up. It was already dark, and there was silence all around, and it was a little desolate, so I exhaled and whispered, "Let's go." ”

As soon as I finished speaking, I took a step out, and I just felt that my world was spinning, and my eyes were dark, and I fainted.

When I woke up again, I was already lying on the bed in the monkey dormitory, surrounded only by the sparse sound of monkeys smoking.

My head was still a little tearing, and it took me a while before I asked, "Monkey, what time is it?" ”

The monkey replied, "The next morning, you have slept for more than ten hours, and you are hungry." There's breakfast there, go eat it. As he spoke, the monkey pointed to the table.

I didn't expect to sleep for so long.

Yesterday, as if I had a dream for a long time, there was too much sadness and pain in the dream, and now in retrospect, my heart still can't help but ache, Li Fei'er has completely left me, my heart is empty, like a walking corpse, I got out of bed, and ate the breakfast that the monkey bought for me.

After eating, the monkey handed me a cigarette, I took a deep breath, and suddenly said, "Monkey." I don't want to read anymore. ”

The monkey's hand holding the cigarette stiffened for a moment, and then said indifferently: "Wang Xuan, it's just one time to fall out of love, your life is still very long, and you may have to fall out of love more times in the future, you can't give up on yourself because of this time." ”

I looked at the monkey very seriously, and said word by word: "Monkey, I didn't give up on myself, I thought about it carefully, and with my current appearance, it is no longer suitable to continue reading." ”

I have no impulsiveness, I have thought it through, this school, there is nothing worthy of my nostalgia, this campus, for me, there is only pain, no happiness.

Zhao Hai betrayed, Chen Ya left, Li Fei'er also broke up with me, what's the point of continuing to stay here?

More importantly, I want to be stronger, I don't want to stay in school anymore and do nothing, what's the point of competing with these people in the school for the so-called school boss?

I want to become rich, to be powerful, so that I will no longer suffer from the cold eyes of others, and I want to become strong. Then he appeared in front of Li Fei'er's parents, slapped them in the face fiercely, and told them that not accepting me was the most regrettable thing they had ever done in their lives.

The monkey saw my resoluteness, and no longer persuaded me, but simply said, "I respect your decision, and it's okay for you to go outside." If you can't hold on to it outside and want to come back to study, tell me and I'll do it for you. ”

I went back to my dormitory, and as soon as I entered, I saw that Li Jie and Ma Yuan were there, and they saw me and greeted me one after another.

"Brother Xuan. You're back. ”

"Brother Xuan, are you healed? When to take us to revenge. ”

"Brother Xuan, you don't know, during the time you were away, we couldn't even raise our heads at school."

They were all around me, and I came back and made them excited, but this time I'm going to let them down. I glanced at them and said, "I'm back to pack my things." ”

"Packing up? Why pack your things? ”

They all looked at me in bewilderment.

I responded, "I'm leaving No. 1 High School." ”

Hearing my words, they were all surprised, Li Jie stood up and said anxiously: "Brother Xuan, is Fang Mingdong going to drive you away?" Don't be afraid of him, it's a big deal that our brother will fight with him. ”

I shook my head and said, "No, it's none of Fang Mingdong's business." It's me who has to go. ”

"Why?"

I said in a resolute tone, "I want to go out and make a break." ”

They looked at me, I looked at you, looked at each other, Li Jie's mood also calmed down, and said to me: "Brother Xuan, since you don't read anymore, then it's not interesting for us to stay any longer, you take us away together." ”

"That's right, Brother Xuan, you can take us away." Ma Yuan also followed.

I looked at them seriously and said, "No, you have to read on, you are different from me, and you have to give an explanation to your parents." ”

They still wanted to talk about it, but I didn't give them a chance to speak, so I choked and said: "Don't say it, it's settled, if you keep talking, don't blame me for not recognizing you brothers." ”

They couldn't resist me, so they could only agree, and I asked them to go to the restaurant in the evening and get together, which was considered to see me off.

In the evening, I booked a restaurant, the monkey and the people from our dormitory came, there were only about ten people, this is the closest brother around me, I Wang Xuan, I have nothing, they are left to be by my side.

That night, I drank like crazy and didn't eat anything. I vomited, drank and vomited, and kept circulating, and one night, the monkey helped me to the toilet, no less than ten times.

I don't drink well, but tonight, I'm indulging myself. I want to use alcohol to wash away the grief in my heart, and only in this way can I feel more comfortable.

The next day, when I woke up, it was already afternoon, and I was the only one in the dormitory, and they all went to class. That's fine, at least when I'm leaving, I won't be discouraged by them.

I packed my stuff and only had a backpack. I walked out of the dormitory, before closing the door, I took a deep last look, I lived in this dormitory for many months, and my deepest impression was left here.

I reluctantly closed the door, got off the dormitory building, walked out of the school gate, and before leaving, I took another look at the sparkling four big characters, Binhai No. 1 Middle School!

I said silently in my heart, goodbye!

Next, straighten your back. Take a big step and leave resolutely.

Walking and walking, about ten minutes later, Zhao Hai suddenly appeared in front of my eyes, seeing him, I was uncertain and emotionally complicated.

The two of us slowly approached, and Zhao Hai preemptively said, "Wang Xuan." Are you leaving? ”

I said flatly, "Yes! ”

Zhao Hai was expressionless, he couldn't see what he was thinking, he only heard him say: "I have heard about you and Li Fei'er, and I still hope that you can stay." ”

I firmly said, "Now that I have made a decision, I will not regret it, I have no intention of staying in school." ”

Zhao Hai sighed, walked in front of me, handed me a cigarette, then lit it for me, and said bitterly: "We are brothers, I understand your character, what you decide, even if you can't pull it back with ten cows, I won't persuade you, I just hope that after you leave society, be careful, after all, society is different from school." ”

When Zhao Hai finished speaking, I said directly: "You and I are not brothers. ”