She was very uncomfortable when she saw this scene, and her hand stroked Sun Dasheng's tombstone.

Di Ying didn't have an umbrella, and let the rain fall on her, just like on that night four years ago, when Sun Dasheng came out of the house with one shallow foot and one foot on his back, he lay on Sun Dasheng's shoulder, and the thin rain fell on them, what Sun Dasheng said to her.

There were only two of them on that road, the road in front of her was pitch black, and she couldn't see the road ahead, but he walked steadily step by step to give her the whole stable world, that dark night, it was the first time in so many years that she felt extremely warm but safe night, listening to the words he said to himself hidden in his heart, Di Ying suddenly couldn't stop tears flowing down.

That morning hazy morning, in the rainy forest, he pushed himself away and left, she didn't see her face clearly, only his voice in her ears, Di Ying, you go that way.

Her hand touched the cold stone stele, and slowly knelt in front of his tombstone, with a neat row of flowers in front of her, as well as wine and fruits, she half knelt on the wet ground, Ji Lingyu stood not far away and looked at her emaciated back, shrugged/moved her shoulders, Di Ying covered her face and cried bitterly, "Sun Dasheng, do you know how much you owe you to me like this?" I can't pay you back in this life, I can't pay it back, what should you let me do...... I really don't know how to continue facing them. ”

She has to face the torture of her conscience.

In the face of those accusations, Sun Dasheng died because of her, she still doesn't know in this life, Di Ying's nose is swollen and painful and she can't speak at all, the clothes on her body are soaked by the rain, Ji Lingyu stepped forward to hold an umbrella for her, and then squatted beside her, "Di Ying, you should go, Sun Dasheng won't want you to treat yourself like this, he saved you in the first place because he hoped that you could live well." ”

"Live well, Ji San'er, how much better do you think I can be now?" It's just the walking dead, Sun Dasheng is dead, the child is dead, and he is alone in this world, clean: "Take me to see Duoduo." ”

It's been a few years, Duoduo should have grown into a big girl, right?

"Okay." Mother Sun lives in a single-family villa in Sijiu City, Ji Lingyu has always asked people to take care of their mother-in-law and grandson here, Ji Lingyu can feel a cold when she gets out of the car, Di Ying's clothes are wet, and the cold air goes deep into it, but she doesn't feel cold, and walks over there with black high heels.

Entering the room, the floor heating was turned on, the heating was full, she changed her shoes and walked inside, and the maid saw Ji Lingyu coming to greet her before saying, "The old lady is resting in the bedroom." ”

Di Ying's steps were slightly stiff, and she walked step by step in the direction of the room, pushing open the door, on the bed in the bedroom, Mother Sun was lying there, although she was well cared for after the stroke, half of her body was still unable to move, the facial features on her face were crooked, and she was drooling, holding a photo of Sun Dasheng in her hand and looking at it, crying while watching.

Di Ying went in and saw Mother Sun, but in the dim light, she didn't dare to move one step further, "Mother Sun......"

Mother Sun heard the voice and looked up and saw that it was Di Ying, Di Ying had come over step by step, she suddenly began to get excited, half of her body moved with difficulty, holding the pillow with one hand to hit Di Ying, but she couldn't move at all and fell under the bed, Di Ying hurriedly went to help her, Mother Sun's hand was very strong, the expression on her face was painful, and her palm was patted on her face.

Di Ying only felt a burst of pain, but did not dodge.

Ji Lingyu came over and grabbed her aside, and at the same time put Mother Sun on the bed again, calming Mother Sun's emotions, "You woman...... Get lost...... Get lost...... Get the hell out of me......"

Mother Sun's speech was not clear, but the words were spit out with all her strength, looking at Di Ying as if she was looking at an enemy, no, they are enemies themselves, she pointed in the direction where Di Ying was standing and roared, "I, you get out of me, you killed my son......"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" Di Ying hugged her head and knelt in front of Mother Sun's bed, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault, that's why you lost Sun Dasheng......"

"Get out—"

After Ji Lingyu settled her, she asked for Ladi Ying, but she shook her head and motioned to Ji Lingyu to leave it alone, "Only in this way can I feel better, this begging me to be four years late, but Mother Sun has been living in torment for the past four years, Ji Lingyu, these are all things I should bear." ”

It was at this time that the bedroom door was suddenly pushed open, and they looked back, it was Duoduo standing at the door with a schoolbag on his back, and there was also gloom in his eyes, with anger that children should not have at all, she ran over and pushed Di Ying's shoulder, Ji Lingyu turned around and shouted at Duoduo, "Duoduo, how does uncle educate you on weekdays?" How can you push people? ”

Sun Duoduo looked up at Ji Lingyu with an enemy posture, and then his eyes finally fell on Di Ying's body, and he raised his hand and pointed at Di Ying, "Bad woman, I don't allow you to come to my house!" It's all because of you, so my dad died, because of you, so is Aunt Jiaojiao, I have no other relatives except grandma, you evil spirit, you get out of me! ”

"Duoduo......" She hated herself like this.

"Duoduo." Di Ying was also very uncomfortable, in addition to the accusations of those people, she also had her own inner criticism, Ji Lingyu squatted down and held her head, "You calm down, Di Ying didn't mean it, some things are not what you think, understand?" ”

"You like her?" Duoduo quickly calmed down, pointing in the direction where Di Ying was lying on her stomach, obviously she was very young and should laugh wantonly, but she had a kind of old heaviness, "So you are speaking from her standpoint, it is not your relatives who die, of course you don't care, it is my father who died, it is my relatives, do you know the feeling of loss?" You don't understand. Other people's children have mom and dad, but what about me? I don't have anything! I don't have anything! I'm not without a dad! Because of her, I will lose, why do you want me to forgive her? ”

It is too cruel for a child to forgive a man who killed his own father.

Sun Dasheng didn't kill himself, but he died because of her. What qualifications does she have to ask her to forgive herself, Di Ying grabbed Ji Lingyu's clothes and shook her head, "Don't let her forgive me anymore, I killed Sun Dasheng, do you want her to accept me again?" Why? ”

Di Ying shook her head and sneered.

Duoduo snorted, "It's good that you know, you're not welcome here, you guys should get out of here now!" Walk! ”

"Duoduo!" Ji Lingyu shook his head, "You don't have a father anymore, but you still have us, don't you?" Isn't Uncle treating you badly? ”

"I told you no." Duoduo said, Ji Lingyu is very good to her, but she needs her father more, and looked at Di Ying coldly, "Di Ying, what you owe to our family will never be clear!" It's never going to be paid off, don't think you'll be able to get better if you ask for forgiveness, I'm going to let you live in the abyss of self-blame for the rest of your life, and you will never be able to get up! Now get out of here—"

"......" Di Ying sat on the cold ground, a little girl who used to be obedient, but now she was full of hatred and talking to herself, she swallowed saliva with difficulty, "Okay, I'll go, I'll get out of here." ”

She stood up lonely, her gaze reluctantly moving over them, and then walked out.

When Ji Lingyu chased out, Di Ying's body was staggering in the rain, he pulled Di Ying into the car and wiped her hair with a towel, Di Ying shook her head and told him to stop, the strength of the whole person seemed to be hollowed out, like a rag doll lifeless.

Leaning on the position, Di Ying looked up at the front and said, "Ji Lingyu, you don't have to comfort me. ”

"Di Ying, something has happened, let's continue to look forward and don't look back."

"How can you say that if you don't look at something, you won't look at it?" She shook her head, "I still have to watch, I've been comforting myself that it's okay, how can it be okay?" Many people always like to comfort themselves after an accident, and then say that others are overly worried, but in fact it is not, in fact, it is self-comforting and wanting their conscience to be placed, but it is just covering their ears and stealing the bell. ”

He was still holding a towel in his hand, feeling that the inside of the carriage was stuffy, and he slid the window down and played with the cigarette case.

Di Ying saw his side face from the rearview mirror, and at this time he turned around and called Ji Lingyu, and suddenly his heart trembled and some bad premonitions rose, "What's wrong?" ”

"Thank you." She said.

"Thank me for what?" He subconsciously wanted to interrupt the topic, "It's not too early, we should go back, let's go home." ”

"Ji Lingyu!" Di Ying raised her voice and pressed her hand on the steering wheel to stop him, "You know what I want to tell you, right?" I think there's something I should have made clear to you. ”

Di Ying...... Don't say. He shook his head, his palms pinching the steering wheel and pleading, "Please, don't say it." ”

"Thank you, you have been taking care of me and protecting me for the past four years, so I can wake up, in order to be able to make me live well, so you have been protecting me and trying to keep me from harm." She smiled and tilted her head, "I can live better if I forget the past, but I am not my complete self when I forget the past, and I can't live like this." I have a lot of things to do and waiting for me to do. ”

"......" Ji Lingyu went to hold her hand, and didn't look at her eyes again, he was afraid that he would be soft-hearted, "Di Ying, I told you before, as long as you promise to marry me, I won't let go of your hand!" You also promised me, as long as you promised you that you would not leave me, do you want to go back? ”

"I ......" she remembered that she had promised Ji Lingyu.

Four years.

He accompanied himself for four years.

One by one, how does she pay off those debts?

"Ji Lingyu is sorry, but I am a person who does not deserve to be happy......" She is still carrying Sun Dasheng's feelings, that person died for herself, how can she be happy with peace of mind, shaking her head, she said bitterly, "I'm sorry, Ji Lingyu, I'm sorry......"

She opened her eyes and suddenly hugged Ji Lingyu's neck, closed her eyes tightly and kissed his chin.

For many years, he had no other woman.

As soon as Di Ying touched him, it was as if a fire had been ignited in her body.