Xiao Di sometimes thinks about it, the competition between the two kings in the last years of Wu Yao is so tragic in the eyes of the world, but in fact?

If you start the game yourself, you lose.

The last picture of Wu Yao's twenty years in the realm of dreams that Pei Yao saw was that Xiao Di came back from Zhaoye Temple that year, and after a night of sleeplessness, he finally stood outside Chongtian Palace. Calculating the time, she has always acquiesced that he was rushing to Chongtian Palace to repent of his marriage. But it wasn't until this time that she suddenly thought of another possibility-

"Back then, you," she choked up when she spoke, and struggled to calm down her emotions for a long time before continuing: "When the news of the prince's repentance of marriage came out of the palace gate, everyone said that because of your disgruntled will to resist marriage, the first emperor was furious and ordered you to be grounded in the East Palace for reflection. I remember that time...... He locked you up for two months. ”

For two whole months, no one had seen him, no one had listened to him, and even he, as the queen's own mother, was not allowed to step into the East Palace.

She didn't even know how she said the next words.

"Xiao Di, you...... No remorse? ”

The arm of the person holding her stiffened, and he did not speak for a long time.

I see.

Reincarnated as a human being, Pei Yaowei knew that she had sighed countless sentences of 'so so', but there was no sentence that could make her so heartbroken.

He did not regret his marriage.

She should have known it a long time ago—even if she didn't know it back then, but since she was reborn, she should have known that she would never be able to resist marriage in the days she spent with him, whether it was looking at his temperament or his mind.

Enyi said on the face, as early as when he was a teenager, he respected Pei Gong very much, he would not know what a shame it was for Pei to regret his marriage, even if he hated Pei Yao very much, but just for the respect for Pei Gong, he would never be so humiliating;

Moreover, it is selfish and treacherous, only for the sake of Emperor Zuo's country, and in such a way that hurts people and harms eight hundred, he treats the first famous family in the country - how much does he have to think about it?

Thinking of this now, Pei Yaowei didn't know how to complain about herself who couldn't understand in the past. But after thinking about it again, what made her think that Xiao Di really dared to do this?

Probably, it was for the voice of 'for the father', for everyone in the country to know, and the first emperor's special love for the king of Chu.

Thinking of this, she took a few deep breaths in a row, her heart was cold and painful, and she didn't know what to say.

Xiao Di suddenly spoke.

"I was deceived by the scene in Zhaoye Temple, and I really didn't want to marry you."

He said, "I went to Chongtian Palace that night, and I told him......"

He stopped the epilogue fiercely, and Pei Yao could hear the sound of his teeth shaking. After a long time, he finished his words slowly: "...... I want to postpone my wedding. ”

It's just postponed, for the sake of respect for Pei Gong and for the sake of shaking Pei's face, he can't say the word repentance.

At that time, his mind was very confused, and he couldn't think of any way to resolve this marriage into an invisible way for a while, seeing that the wedding date was close at hand, the only thing he could think of was to postpone the ceremony and buy himself more time, so as to get together with Pei's family.

But at that time, I listened to my own words, what did that person say?

For ten years, Xiao Di has never dared to recall what happened in Chongtian Palace that night.

"He asked me why I was postponing my marriage."

"I found a lot of innocuous reasons to prevaricate, but he didn't buy it, as if he had made up his mind, he had to force me to tell the truth."

Saying that, Xiao Di shook his head, "No." Not like. He just made up his mind to let me say the words of repentance for my marriage. ”

"But you didn't say that." She said softly. This sentence is no longer a question.

In the neck socket, there was a sudden dampness.

Xiao Di cried.

He shook his head first, "I didn't tell the Son of Heaven. With that, he laughed again.

Laughing helplessly and self-deprecatingly.

He said, "I told my son." ”

That day, at the end of the stalemate, the first emperor insisted on asking him for a word and asked him if he didn't want to marry Pei Yaowei.

"He calls himself 'Father', he used to tell me that there are monarchs and ministers in the Lingyun Palace, and there are fathers and sons in the Chongtian Palace. He called himself 'Father' to me, as he had done every time he was a child...... Pei Yaowei, he called himself 'father', and at that time I only regarded him as my father. ”

So I told him...... I said 'yes' to him. ”

Confusedly expressed, like a trapped beast in a cage, for ten years, he tried everything, but he couldn't find a way out.

In the twenty years of Wu Yao, when he thought that he had been betrayed by the person he loved, he turned back to his father and wanted to find even the slightest comfort, he never thought that what was waiting for him would be another betrayal.

"I didn't expect this 'yes' to cut off something."

The Road to Kings.

With Pei's kindness.

Also, the love of father and son.

Pei Yao rubbed his back at once, and could only try to give him a little comfort in such an ordinary and useless way.

How can there be such a father?

How is such a father...... Could it be the first emperor?

“…… I don't understand. After a long time, she asked, "Why did he do this?" ”

Are you dissatisfied with Xiao Di?

But he is the prince he chose since he was a child, and he became the crown prince at the age of six.

After she finished asking, it didn't take long for Xiao Di to slowly let go of her.

Pei Yaowei took out a handkerchief to wipe his tears.

He kept looking at her, and gradually, her movements stopped.

Xiao Di's eyes are too complicated, but they are too easy to understand.

Guilt, pity, powerlessness.

In such a look, she understood everything.

“…… Is it for," she closed her eyes, trying to smooth out the tremors between her lips and teeth, "for our family?" ”

"Pei Yaowei, I'm sorry." He said.

From the time when the first emperor intended to make a big deal about his regret of marrying Pei, he understood that his own father was borrowing his own hand to calculate Pei's.

"He trapped me in the East Palace for two months, removed all the guards in my palace, and ordered the Dark Guard to take care of them. For two months, I lost all contact with the outside world, and I waited until ...... By the time I stepped out of the East Palace, it was too late to do anything. ”

It's too late to mention Pei's, and it's too late to arrange a penny for himself.

"On the night of Chongtian Palace, when he thundered and was furious, I already understood that I was his outcast."

He said: "Junxin wants me to lose my position, I can't do anything, I can only follow his wishes, and seek a preservation for myself under the situation at that time, otherwise, the last trace of father-son love will be gone, and my people and my mother will not have a way to live." ”

Therefore, two months later, when he stepped out of the East Palace, he did not give a word-by-word explanation for the matter of repenting of his marriage to Pei's family.

He took this black cauldron, followed the will of the first emperor, did enough to do the state of incurability, and also followed the will of the first emperor, to be his knife, fighting with the Pei family, fighting with Xiao Zhu, and in the end, he got a result of losing both with the Pei family, so that the first emperor could feel at ease.

"Yes...... Heh," Pei Yao's eyes were stunned, and his eyes were wet, "Emperor Xian - he is really, he is so smart!" ”

In ancient times, emperors were jealous of their ministers, and they always fought and killed, but what about the first emperor?

From birth to death, he was clean in the eyes of the world. He just borrowed his son's hand, divided five by two, and caused the first family building in the country to collapse, but he himself was famous and not fishy at all.

"I understand now why when the palace sent someone to Pei's family to take back the dowry, he only left the pair of phoenix head earrings of Empress Dexiao to me." She looked at Xiao Di fixedly, and for a moment she realized that she was in disbelief for a while, "I'm sorry for the Pei family's affairs, you did it, he was innocent, and he was coming, and he made me, the daughter of the Pei family, who had no family to rely on, the queen of the new emperor......"

"The world says that Emperor Cheng values love and righteousness, and I always thought that he was affectionate and righteous......" She crashed into his arms, her eyes closed, and two strings of tears fell down, "Xiao Di, I always thought that he was affectionate and righteous!" ”

She felt that she was a stupid person.

In those two years, she lived with herself, but she felt that she hated Xiao Di like this, and Xiao Di should hate herself like this - hate to the point of being hot-headed, and hating to the point of being self-willed. Even in the end, Pei's and Donggong were both defeated, and Duxiao took advantage of the benefits one by one, she never thought that this would be a trap for the snipe and the clam to compete and the fisherman to profit.

In her ear, Xiao Di was still telling her that she was sorry.

"I'm sorry. I've really done my best. If I don't follow him...... I don't even have a chance to lose with Pei, I and Pei will only lose, and there will be nothing left. ”

"Don't tell me you're sorry anymore." She shook her head and cried bitterly, "What do you have to be sorry for?" Don't you know who suffers the most? ”

"Since the first emperor moved his heart to eradicate the Pei family, he will get rid of the Pei family no matter what. Even if it wasn't for borrowing your hand—" She took a deep breath, shook her head, and said, "Xiao Di, can I blame you for following his wishes and keeping them safe for the queen mother, for himself, and for the East Palace?" ”

Not long ago, she asked Xiao Di how could there be a father like Xiao Zhu in this world, who did not hesitate to sacrifice the lives of his unborn children for his own luck.

Now, she got it.

How could there not be a father like Xiao Zhu?

Even a father like Xiao Jingze really exists, is it worth mentioning anything else?

But after a while, Xiao Di still said sorry to her.

"I relied on his last idea of guilt and fatherly love to save my life. Even you once asked me, why even the queen mother didn't know that I had no intention of treating Pan Tian, that is, I had to take over the black pot in order to fulfill his innocence.

Only if no one knows the truth - only if he thinks that I am sensible and cares about the overall situation, only if I am aggrieved enough and have no complaints, he will give me a way to live.

I don't hate or resign, I'm extremely filial, so he spared my life. ”

"But Pei Yao, I'm sorry for Pei."

He said: "Qi Gong's matter, I am one step late.

I am also one step late.

Even Pei Yaoge, he-"

Pei Yaowei frowned, and said suspiciously: "What's wrong with him?" ”