She closed her eyes.

Ji Xiaoyao saw the figure, and his hoarse voice had already broken through his throat: "Di Ying! ”

Hearing that familiar voice, Di Ying looked down and saw the person standing next to the car, Ji Xiaoyao walked quickly to the door, Di Ying saw the person turn around and go back to the room, Qi Weilan just came out of the bathroom, and saw her close the curtains and walked to the sofa to sit down, holding her head as if she was desperate.

She walked over to take a look and complained, "Why haven't you left yet?" ”

"......" Di Ying slowly came back to her senses, and after a night's rest, her face was still very pale: "Did he come last night?" ”

Qi Weilan didn't hide it, but she was still afraid that she would be soft-hearted: "Yes, he came here last night, he deserves it, he deserves to be ...... like this."

Di Ying tilted her head slightly, just now she just glanced at the people downstairs, it rained so heavily last night, could it be that he had been waiting in the rain? No, how could someone like Ji Xiaoyao wait in the rain all the time? She didn't believe it, the more Di Ying thought about it, the more sad she wanted to be in her heart, she still couldn't stop crying when she held her face.

"Qi Weilan, what do you think I should do next? Is it a divorce? Or should I ......" she really didn't know: "Last night, I thought about countless possibilities, thought about the future, what would I do without him...... I really don't know, why would God play such a joke on me when everything could start all over again? ”

Her whole body is in an inexplicable helplessness and fear, I can't tell what that feeling is, one is the person she loves the most, the other is a good friend, she feels uncomfortable in the middle.

"Di Ying......"

"Qi Weilan, if it were you, what would you do?" She felt like she was in the dark, unable to find the way out.

"I ......" Qi Weilan also hesitated, and finally hugged her and said: "Frankly speaking, when Ye Qinglin betrayed me at that time, I was also in this mood, you know how long I spent on Ye Qinglin, but if you can't die, don't you have to live well?" Di Ying, some things will always pass, and if you can't die, it's enough for us to break our bones and live well again. ”

Qi Weilan patted her on the shoulder and said, "Di Ying, give yourself some time to think clearly, you are still young, after accumulating failures again and again, are there some things that you still can't see clearly?" Something...... In fact, you already know in your heart that you are not willing to recognize it clearly. ”

Yes, what Qi Weilan said is not wrong.

There are some things that I don't want to recognize the status quo.

I have known Ji Xiaoyao since she was five years old, and from childhood to adulthood, she loves such a person, that person has been deeply rooted in her bone marrow, and it is not easy to forget.

is also different from Qi Weilan's experiences, if you don't have it, you may be able to let it go easily, but if you already have it, you are unwilling.

She closed her eyes and collapsed her head on the sofa weakly: "I don't know......"

Ji Xiaoyao was still waiting downstairs, when Ji San'er pushed the door and came in, he saw her shrinking her head and burying herself in the sofa, he wanted to be angry, he wanted to make her sober, but everyone has a healing period, Di Ying heard the footsteps and asked, "Hasn't he left yet?" ”

"No, ......" Ji San'er shook his head.

Di Ying looked back at the window, what was he waiting for here? She got up slowly, Qi Weilan saw her walking out and asked, "Where are you going?" You're going to see him? Di Ying, do you want to go back with him? Have you forgotten what the hell he did to you? ”

Qi Weilan hates that iron does not become steel.

Di Ying knew that Qi Weilan looked down on her in her heart, and she also looked down on herself, but in the end, she still needed to make a settlement.

"I'll go see him, and if I don't, he won't leave."

Ji San'er stopped Qi Weilan and asked him not to say any more, when she appeared in sight, Ji Xiaoyao's heart suddenly jumped suddenly, Di Ying slowly walked to the iron gate, Ji Xiaoyao took a few steps forward and stood there, and only said after a long time: "Are you okay?" ”

The sun fell on her face, Di Ying looked at his crumpled clothes, there were some stains on the white clothes, she lowered her head and didn't look at him, only said, "You go back." ”

Separated by a door, such a close distance, Ji Xiaoyao felt as if he was as far away as the sky.

"You don't ...... Come home with me? ”

Family?

Hearing this, Di Ying just smiled faintly: "Do you think we can still talk about the word home?" Ji Xiaoyao, I'm tired...... I don't want to see you now, we actually need a time to think about it, Shen Manman is back, you should be hesitating, I will give you such a chance. ”

She said it very indifferently.

Ji Xiaoyao waited at the door of Ji's house all night, he had never been so embarrassed, his feet were all discarded cigarette butts, at this moment Ji Xiaoyao felt that he was extremely tired, and finally waited for her to come down and get her sentence.

"You...... What does that mean? ”

"I mean it very clearly and clearly, I don't want to see you right now." She said calmly: "I know that if I don't come, you won't leave, you are here now just to get my forgiveness, you want me to forget that thing lightly, I don't care about what I do, and I even think I'm unreasonable, but Ji Xiaoyao, I am really tired of retreating again and again, and I can't even think of what will happen in the future." That's it. ”

After saying that, Di Ying turned around and walked inside.

She left resolutely, and did not leave him a chance to speak.

His legs were numb, and when Ji San'er came out, he saw that he was still standing at the door, and his eyes were also disappointed, "Ji Xiaoyao, you will regret it sooner or later, Di Ying is here, I will take good care of her, you don't need to worry, you go back and think about what to do next." ”

He waited at the door for a long time, with a splitting headache, the sun above his head shone straight down, his head was dizzy, and he was top-heavy, and finally sat in the carriage or Shen Manman's car came over, she nervously walked to the side of the car, saw his haggard face through the window, reached out and touched his forehead, Ji Xiaoyao began to talk nonsense, squinted his eyes and opened them to see, hazy and thought it was Di Ying: "Di Ying......"

Shen Manman clenched his fists, his eyes were full of hatred, if it weren't for that incident at the beginning, how could Mrs. Ji's position be Di Ying now? Shen Manman hated, Ji Xiaoyao was already burned in a daze, and reached out to hug Shen Manman's waist: "Di Ying......"

Her thin body carried Ji Xiaoyao out of the car, most of Ji Xiaoyao's body was pressed on her body, and Shen Manman persuaded in a low voice: "Ji Xiaoyao, I'll take you away." ”

She helped people into the car, Ji Xiaoyao hung her head slightly, she looked back and saw the direction of the door, raised her head and deliberately put it on his face, after seeing the door slam shut.

The corners of Shen Manman's mouth hooked a sneer, Di Ying wanted to rob her? is too confident, but all the women who appear next to Ji Xiaoyao, she will clean them up one by one, and will not let them become any obstacle that prevents her from standing by his side.

She took Ji Xiaoyao directly to her apartment and invited a doctor to come over, and Ji Xiaoyao had a high fever for several hours.

He has always been in good health, if he hadn't been in the rain all night and stood for so long, he wouldn't have gotten sick, Ji Xiaoyao had been calling Di Ying's name in his dreams.

In the past few years, Di Ying has been so important in his heart?

So what is between them?

Ji Xiaoyao still has feelings for her now, but most of them are guilty, using the man's so-called guilt, she will definitely be able to get people back.

……

Di Ying had been paying attention to the movement at the door.

Ji Xiaoyao didn't leave, just waited at the door.

Her heart softened, and she wondered if she should go with him.

As soon as he opened the door, he saw Shen Manman helping him up, and the two hugged each other intimately, looking from her direction, it seemed to be close together, kissing very intimately.

This is at the door of Ji San'er's house, Ji Xiaoyao and Shen Manman......

When she saw this scene, Di Ying's heart ached, and she turned around and closed the door.

What she thought was that if Ji Xiaoyao insisted again, she would definitely not be able to help it, she was not a cold-hearted woman, but Ji Xiaoyao was so close to Shen Manman.

What will be the future left between them? Is it to the abyss or to the sun?

Ji Xiaoyao...... Will you continue this marriage?

She sat in the bedroom with her legs crossed, her head buried in her knees and crying all the time, the darkness hanging all around, and she felt safe in this way.

Ji San'er and Qi Weilan were both by her side, no one slept, just stood at the door, and then went back to the room when she couldn't help it.

She got up when she heard the footsteps disappear, walked out, opened the door, and watched the house slowly walk out......

She didn't know where she could go, and the driver was startled when she stopped the car at the intersection, and in the middle of the night, a woman in white was standing on the side of the road, how could she feel oozing.

The driver asked, "Girl, where are you going?" ”

Di Ying looked out the window, the night outside was dark, casually reported an address to the driver, the driver glanced at Di Ying from the rearview mirror and paid more attention, the car stopped on the road by the sea, Di Ying gave him money, closed the car door and walked along the side of the road to the sea.

The temperature in the early hours of the morning was low, the sea breeze was raging, and the cold was blowing on the body, and there was a cold moonlight on the sea, and the lights not far away fell on the plane.

Her steps stepped on the soft sand, looking at the sea in front of her, and suddenly she felt calm in her heart, and she stepped forward step by step.

Her heart trembled when the cold sea water overflowed her instep, but then she continued to move forward with the second step, and the sea water kept pushing her back, and she moved forward step by step, feeling the cold water spread around her.

The cold water ran over her chest, over her shoulders, over her chin, over her lips, and over her nose...... Finally she closed her eyes and sank herself in the cold water.

That's it, she thought, so be it.

And so it is liberating.

Ji Xiaoyao, if I disappear like this, will you be a little sad?