I don't know who I am.

When I woke up, the woman waiting in front of the bed was so excited that she burst into tears, she said that her name was Bai Jing, my name was Qin Xu, and she was my fiancée.

She took me to places I used to know, to meet people I used to know, and introduced me to archaeology, which she said was what I was passionate about.

She tried every means to help me recover my memory.

A year later, I can't bear to tell her, and I still don't remember anything.

But I'm really interested in archaeology, especially when I see ancient artifacts and historical materials, I feel a sense of familiarity. Maybe it's because it's a cause I'm passionate about.

The leaders of the unit and my former tutors in the school thought that I was talented in archaeological research, and even though my memory was blank, they did not give up on me, they were not afraid to train me from scratch, and I had a passion for archaeology, so I did not disappoint them.

Two years later, I returned to work at the Archaeological Research Center.

Bai Jing is a gentle woman, listening to Allen, during the half year when I was unconscious, she waited in front of the bed every day, even if I didn't have a certain date to wake up, she still didn't leave.

I could feel that she loved me.

She was always confident and motivated to help me regain my memory.

After all the effort I made, I still can't remember it, and I'm annoyed. She always advised me that it was okay if I couldn't remember, and that I could start over.

She is such an empathetic woman who never pressures me, but in fact she has moments of vulnerability.

Every time she couldn't help but come and hug me, I could feel her encouragement and love. But on several occasions when she left her arms and turned around in a hurry, I would notice that my shirt was wet. But when I walked over and tried to comfort her, she smiled at me again.

I guess I used to love her very much.

After all, such a good woman, what reason is there not to love? And what reason is there to hurt?

Then I met a girl who also had a huge passion for archaeology, and she described herself as an archaeology student.

But to my surprise, when we brought the artifacts back to the institute and opened the portrait, I found that the woman in the portrait looked exactly like the girl.

I immediately looked into it, and there were no female students in the archaeology department at all.

I wondered why she was lying, and I wondered why she was so excited in front of the tomb.

Maybe I really had a relationship with her, and I met her again in Osmanthus Dock that afternoon.

I think that I am emotionally loyal enough, Bai Jing gives me love, I can't remember my feelings for her, but this does not affect me to give her a sense of security.

But when I saw that girl, I always had a strange feeling in my heart, not only because she looked exactly like the portrait, as if there was something else, but I couldn't tell what it was.

I think she is very special, calm and different from girls of the same age, and her intelligence in the osmanthus dock makes me appreciate it a little more.

She said her name was Yun Qixi, and no one knew how shocked I was at the time.

Not only did she look like the woman in the portrait, but even her name was the same as the name of the queen recorded in the emperor's diary?

It's less and less like a coincidence.

She was very interested in the ancient tombs found at that time, and it was for this reason that I had several contacts with her.

I had an unprovoked sense of intimacy with everything I had found in this tomb, unlike any previous archaeology.

I showed her the research materials, and she was in tears when she read them.

When I saw her crying, my heart hurt.

In fact, after reading that emperor's diary, I also felt very embarrassed. Since ancient times, there have been three thousand emperors' harems, and there are indeed not many people who can be so infatuated.

I had someone take a picture of her in the restaurant that day, and I admit that it wasn't a big deal, but I really had too many doubts.

All kinds of signs made me wonder what she had to do with this ancient tomb.

Especially when I saw her lying on the crystal pavilion crying bitterly, I became more and more sure that I might be thinking in the right direction.

I knew that this sounded like an incredible thing, and that this suspicion was unreasonable, so I hid it from everyone and planned to find the mystery alone, and without her permission, I extracted the DNA of the child in her womb.

She ran to the exhibition hall in the middle of the night, and later heard from the security guard that she kept crying while banging on the door, crying heartbreakingly.

She is not very old, but she seems to have had an extraordinary experience.

When I took her out of the police station, she was very pale and looked depressed, and I felt a little distressed.

I don't know why I have such emotions, am I tempted by her?

She was pregnant and drunk that day, and none of us persuaded her.

I always felt that she was in pain, maybe it would be better to get drunk.

She hugged me and cried when she got drunk, and I think she was really drunk.

A woman who can shed tears is always distressing, and I think all she needs is a shoulder to lean on.

As I was leaving, her friend Momoko asked me if I liked her, and I couldn't answer.

Perhaps, I have a little bit of a heart.

When I got the test results, I was very calm, and I had guessed this result for a long time, but now it has only been confirmed.

I took her to the island, hoping that she could give me relief, her reaction was fierce, and she jumped directly into the sea, I chased after her in panic, and she had stubbornness written in her eyes, and I couldn't bear to force her anymore.

In fact, I regretted it a little afterwards, and it may have been a disservice to her that I did this.

That winter, a TV series based on the Emperor's Diary aired.

I'm not a fan of romance dramas, but I've seen this TV from beginning to end, and I always feel that the world it tells is not far away.

The scene where the heroine gave birth under the cliff was also inexplicably familiar to me, as if in the depths of my memory, there had been a similar scene.

Although I breathe the breath of the same sky, I can't hug you, and if I change my identity and name, I hope I can recognize your eyes......

I seem to have heard this song somewhere, and it feels like I feel heart-wrenching when I listen to it.

Maybe I'm a sentimental person in the first place.

Later, she suddenly became Xiang Xun's assistant, but I think she has other purposes.

She would rather look for Xiang Xun than me, and I was a little lost.

Xiang Xun is a prodigal man, and I was worried that she would suffer from him, and I tried to persuade her to give up the job, but she was very stubborn.

She was almost bullied by Xiang Xun that day, and although I saved her, my emotions were a little broken. I always felt like I wouldn't be able to accept it if she was hurt.

I have a strong desire to protect her.

She said that she wanted to guard him, and I think the relationship between her and the emperor should be very deep.

I'll help him.

But she said she wanted the jade wrench.

She actually said in front of an archaeologist that she wanted a certain artifact, and I thought that jade wrench might be hiding a mystery, and I didn't know how to help her, but I knew that no one could stop her, because she was stubborn.

I watched her secretly and knew she was planning and that she might be moving soon.

It's a risky thing to do, I don't know if it's going to work out, I just don't want her to get hurt in the slightest.

She appeared in front of me in a period costume that day, and I can't describe how I felt at that time, I felt amazing, I felt familiar.

I think she's going to do something.

Listening to her explanation, I had a more three-dimensional impression of that era, and the sense of familiarity became stronger and stronger.

I don't know what kind of person I used to be, but listening to my friends and family, it's probably pretty good, at least a law-abiding person.

So what I did that day was probably the craziest thing I've ever done in my life.

I still couldn't bear her to fight alone, and I was still afraid that she would be hurt, so I helped her.

Why is this happening? I think it's probably because I had some relationship with her in my last life, so I can't rest assured about her in this life!

At that critical moment, I even felt that if the bullet flew towards her, I would be willing to get in front of her.

That jade wrench really took her away, it should have taken her to where she wanted to go, right? She should be able to meet the people she wants, right?

I'm happy for her, but I'm also a little unreasonably disappointed. It's as if something in my heart has been sucked away.

The secret of the jade wrench became an eternal secret, and she said that cold research and data could not be compared to a sincere relationship.

She loves very hard and hard, and she is also very stubborn, she fights with the sky, fights with fate, and she refuses to admit defeat.

Bai Jing appeared in a panic, worry and fear all written on her face.

I suddenly realized that I seemed to be ignoring her these days.

In fact, she is also a stubborn woman, who has been giving without asking for anything in return, and sometimes even loves without self.

I felt guilty about her, and I said, let's get married.

It dawned on me that life is only a few decades in the world, and there is not much time to waste. Forget what you have lost, give up what you can't get, and cherish only what you have now.

Five years later, we have changed from a family of two to a family of four, none of our children are like me, and my friends and colleagues have teased me a lot, I just laugh.

Although the two children are not like me, they are so beautiful, and I think they must be the most beautiful children in the world.

Maybe that's my prejudice as a father, because everyone thinks their children are the most beautiful babies.

On a hot summer day, we would go to the island for a while.

Bai Jing and I sat under the parasol to cool off, and the two children ran around us, laughing like silver bells.

When they got tired of running, they came back to us. My brother pounced on Bai Jing, and my sister pounced on me.

I picked my sister up and sat on my lap and peeled the grapes for her to eat.

The sea breeze blew on Bai Jing's hair, a movement of pulling her hair behind her ears, and a look that looked up at me, a different kind of charm and gentleness.

I think that such a day is probably the best interpretation of happiness!

I'm just a little sad every Qixi Festival.

Yao Yao raised her glass to Mingyue and said "Happy Birthday", maybe she could hear it.

If you want to ask me what year I am and what day I think of her, I don't have an answer.

I am most fortunate to be able to help her.

Tanabata is like a dream of mine.

And Bai Jing and a pair of children, but now they are more tangible to me.

Qixi Festival, I once loved her like my life, and I loved her for a whole youth.

Now that I am not confused, I should take on a responsibility.

Bai Jing, she is really a good woman with an intellectual and kind nature.

Maybe I won't be able to let go of it for the rest of my life, but it's only a little secret that I keep in the deepest part of my heart.

Everything is arranged in the dark.