I have to say that this gap made me sad when I was only five years old, and I was sadder than when I knew that "my mother" didn't like me.

I wondered if it was because she didn't understand me that she would do this to me.

I thought I should give her a chance to get to know me.

After all, her mother snatched "my mother's" things, I don't blame her, she can't hate me.

It wasn't until I was seven years old, and I worked hard for two years to hope that she would understand me and not hate me.

But in two years, I not only succeeded in making her hate me, but also hated me even more......

Although I am sad, I always think that as long as I persevere, I can always understand me and have no prejudice against me.

It's just that I didn't know at that time that I didn't have a chance to ...... from the beginning

After I persevered for three years, I realized that it was never her mother who snatched "my mother's" things, but "my mother" who stole her mother's things.

Not only that, but it also caused her mother to linger on the sickbed, almost disappearing the fragrance of jade......

From that time on, I stopped actively appearing in front of her.

Because there is no qualification.

It's just that......

She used to hate me, but I was able to see her.

And now, I can't even see each other.

I miss her so much.

Of course, at that time, I didn't know what I thought about her.

Later, when I was about ten years old, I learned why that woman didn't like me because I wasn't her child in the first place.

And my own mother sold me who had just been born for the silver taels.

I'm worth fifty taels of gold.

I thought I would still be sad somewhat, after all, even if she didn't like me, I still treated her as my mother, but I didn't ......

Not only was it not sad, but it was also relieved.

At that time, my first reaction was that fortunately she was not my real mother.

At that time, I didn't understand why I was so happy.

Until I grew up, I was actually still young......

For so many years, I have been reluctant not to see her.

But there are still occasional encounters, and every now and then, my heart beats indescribably fast.

But I still didn't dare to come up and talk to her.

If I had known what had happened earlier, I think I would have stayed by her side as hard as I could, no matter how much she hated me.

When she was fifteen years old, I was sent out to the capital to run errands.

I regret this, but I think that she definitely doesn't want to see me, a nasty guy, on such a happy day, and I don't have to be there, so as not to make her unhappy.

I still like to watch her smile, even if it's not at me.

It's just that at that time, I didn't expect that if I didn't see it this time, I wouldn't have a chance to see it.

When I came back from my errands, it was already fifteen days after she arrived.

I came back with a lot of novelties, and even though I knew she wouldn't accept them, I always thought that maybe, maybe someday, I would be able to give them away......

However, the first big thing I learned after I returned to Beijing was that something had happened to Yefu.

It was beheaded by the whole house.

Yefu is her grandfather's house, her mother's mother's family, how important to her is that I came out of the epidemic.

Something happened to Ye Fu, she must have been very sad, my thought at the time was that I was going to find her, even if she didn't like me, but ...... It's okay for me to stay with me silently.

Or maybe she could vent her dislike for me.

I like it, she likes to laugh and never likes to cry.

And for so many years, she has been forbearing, so she will only refrain before great joy and sorrow.

But......

If you bury such a sad thing in your heart, you will get sick.

However, before I could go to her, the next man told me again......

She's dead.