Six years later, in Shanghai, the evening breeze blew away the haze of memory. The two people sitting on the edge of Binjiang Avenue watched the ferry on the river in silence.

"Zhuang Bin, you go, don't appear in my life again."

"Give me a chance to explain to you what I was doing. I don't want to force you to do anything, I just want you to let go and let yourself go, you are too tired to live, this is not the Han Ruo I know......"

What is this meeting, he bitterly persuaded her to let go, what to let go? Let go of prejudices against him? But he did all those things himself!

Han Ruo felt ridiculous at his words, and shook his head without anything to say.

Zhuang Bin was still trying to persuade her: "Maybe in your heart, I used to be too a bastard and felt that I didn't deserve to appear in front of you again, but have you thought about my hardships?" At that time, I was for your own good, and I had my considerations......"

"Was it a car accident, a terminal illness, a feud, or was it threatened? Which one? You name it, I'll listen! Her taunts made him embarrassed.

"Neither. But you listen to me, and as long as I say it, you will definitely understand......"

Han Ruo looked at him coldly, as if he was mentally retarded.

"Even if you have a hard time, you chose to hurt me at the beginning, and now you have to explain, who do you think you are?"

"Han Ruo, I know you blame me, blame me for why I didn't break up well, why did you do that to you. I can't help it! Your temper is so stubborn, you will definitely not agree to break up when I mention it, and you will only leave if you let you die. I was so bad at that time, how could I drag you down anymore. I may not be famous for five or ten years, I can't even support myself, how can I support you? You like a stable life so much, you want a home so much, you even said you want a boy in the future......"

"So you and Melinda are innocent?"

Her sudden remark brought his explanation to an abrupt halt. He turned his head weakly to look at the river, and had nothing to say. Because they all know the answer.

"Zhuang Bin, you don't have to act in front of me. Your affectionate style only makes me feel disgusting. ”

"I don't want to see you live so tired, I don't want to see you live in the past. From the time I saw you again, I knew you never came out. I think it's my sin and I have to make amends......"

"No! Whether my life is good or miserable, it's all my own business, and I have nothing to do with you. ”

Resolutely draw a line, and there is no need to have anything to do with her ex-boyfriend who once treated her like a demon.

"You're not doing well, I'm going to feel guilty, I'm going to blame myself."

Missing Han Ruo and hurting Han Ruo is the sin of his life.

In this life, he may never find someone who is willing to spend his life with the courage to love him.

"Then you can blame yourself with guilt, if you really have the heart." She was completely unmoved.

To be merciful to him is to be cruel to oneself. She will never forget the lessons of the past.

"You still won't forgive me!" His disappointment was palpable.

She snorted.

"Zhuang Gongzi, you are serious. My forgiveness has no effect on your life, and if you want me to forgive you, you will be willing to get away. Then I can forgive you, I forgive you for splitting your legs, forgive you for not loving me, but I will never forgive myself! ”

At first, when he heard her say forgiveness, Zhuang Bin's heart was arched like a yellow fluffy duckling, but when he heard her last sentence, with the meaning of gritting his teeth, Zhuang Bin's heart sank again.

"Why? Isn't it good to let yourself go? If...... I said if there was a new opportunity in front of you, wouldn't you want to accept it? ”

Regarding his roundabout and extremely obscure words, Han Ruo was not interested in comprehending the deep meaning behind it at all.

She didn't know how many times Zhuang Bin had restrained his inner impulse since the reunion and did not take the initiative to express his scheming.

Most of the men who have been disgraced, after becoming famous, hope to find the woman who once shared hardships with him but was let down, so as to make up for the guilt and seek psychological balance. Especially for Zhuang Bin, who prides himself on being emotional, affectionate and righteous.

Zhuang Bin does have this thought.

Before returning to Shanghai from Beijing, he imagined that one day he would sit in the car and see Han Ruo, who he hadn't seen for many years, walking in front of his car, his long fluttering hair like catkins teasing his heart.

It was just a chance to visit the Beijing headquarters of Tang Cat Film and Television, and Mr. Wu heard that he wanted to go back to Shanghai, so he immediately recommended Tang Mao's Shanghai branch and let him have time to sit down.

That day, on the list of employees of Tang Cat Shanghai handed over by Mr. Wu, he picked out the word "Han Ruo" from the dense form at a glance.

How did she get to the film and television company? Could it be that the news of her fame made her unwilling to follow him to the film and television industry again?

Han Ruo, Han Ruo, you are so persistent, how can we say goodbye?

He pretended to ask about the planning department casually, but Mr. Wu didn't know very well, so he asked him to go to Shanghai to contact Mr. Li and Mr. Zhang.

Later, everything went according to what he envisioned, and they met.

But she lived a very sad life, not at all what he remembered, what made her so depressed? Did you come back late?

If he can, can he start over with Han Ruo? Especially seeing that she didn't let go of the past, he wanted to write a stroke for the breakup halfway through.

It's a pity that Han Ruo will never give him a chance.

"Why, you ask?"

She turned her head, and in the dark night, under the dim yellow street lamp, her pupils were as deep as a dry well, and she threw him into the bottomless darkness word by word.

"Because my dad died, and while I was tormented by you and heartbroken for you, he died, and I didn't even see him for the last time! So, I can never forgive myself! ”

She bit every word into her stomach and into her blood.

In this life, if she reconciles with Zhuang Bin again, she will be sent to the eighteenth layer of hell!

Zhuang Bin was struck by lightning. It turned out that this was the root of her pain for six years, and this was the gap that could not be crossed between them.

"How so?" He muttered incredulous. wanted to ask her for more information, but was shocked by Han Ruo's silent tearful face.

Han Ruo stubbornly raised her head and closed her eyes in pain, trying to let the night cover her pain.

She could have had the opportunity to see her father for the last time, she could have gone home, and her father must have been at ease when he left......

I can't think about it, and when I think about it, my heart hurts to pieces! It's cruel, it's cruel.

I used to think that love was the whole of life, but later I found that family affection is far more than love.

She would rather never love, and would rather be lonely for the rest of her life than lose someone close to her.

Her tears flowed silently and uncontrollably.

His heart was boiling, and he didn't know how to persuade him.

After a long silence, he said, "I'm sorry, it's my fault. As long as I can make it up to you, I am willing to use everything to ask for your forgiveness......"

"Shut up! I don't want to hear it anymore. She silently wiped away her tears and drove away her vulnerability.

This cry made her forget the past.

"Mr. Zhuang, good love will make people become a better version of themselves, and bad love will make people fall into hell. Thanks to you, I went to hell, but I managed to crawl out. Please don't bother me again! Respect yourself! ”

She got up and walked away proudly.

Once her life revolved around Zhuang Bin, for a man who was not worthy of love, she ruined her life, and she couldn't go back to her home for six years.

Hurt to pieces, a down-and-out walking corpse herself, it took her six years to stick herself back together little by little. But his appearance shattered her again. She has to pick up her broken self again and rebuild it.

It doesn't matter, my own death in the past years.

The former humiliation and unwillingness, the former unbearable, she bravely recalled in front of the parties. Even if she fails, she will have to stand up.

Her life is about to start all over again at the age of 30.