My life has started all over again.

I don't have that much urge to make impulsive decisions again.

What's more, I hate being pitied now, which has to represent how miserable I am, so that I can see the endless pity and sympathy for me in the eyes of others, which is the most hurtful thing, and it is also something I don't want to see.

Pushing his hand away, I sat casually on the ground, and I said, "You go." ”

I just suddenly felt like I was ridiculous.

For the past three years, I've had a ridiculous life every day!

I could even think that he was the kind of person who could do something to his own children, and I thought he was the kind of person who could do something to me.

I walked into a dead end of thinking, I hated someone who wasn't the one who started it at all, and I even laughed that I loved him.

Yes, yes, I may be really in love with him, but this love is so superficial that I feel ridiculous.

Also, even if all the misunderstandings are resolved today, it doesn't mean that I have a reason to go over again, I can no longer hate him for doing something to my child, but I also blame him for swimming in hell for so long.

Like all the fruits of summer that we miss, once we miss that season, there are too many things that cannot be returned.

There's no going back anyway.

I was shaking my mind, Lin Zhicheng suddenly came up again, he hugged me fiercely like this, the force he used in his hand became heavier and heavier, his voice was so weak that it followed the catkins fluttering in the wind, he said, "Don't go." ”

My hatred came back up.

Did he think that if he didn't do it, I could easily forgive him?

Even if it wasn't him, then how could his mobile phone be taken by Sun Qianqian, and where was he when I was treated like this, why he can still keep in touch with Sun Qianqian now, why I need to know so much, but he doesn't mean anything to say.

Of course, even if he says it, I know very well that I don't deserve him now, and I know how dirty I am.

Pushing him away like this, I changed to a cold tone and said, "Get out, get out of my life." ”

With that, I stood up and staggered towards the door, slammed the door open, and I yelled at him, "Get out." ”

I don't know if it's because of the big movement on my side, or if Wu Kaiyu has already woken up and opened the door and waited there, and I just finished yelling and met his gaze.

He saw that I had seen him, so he came out of his room, and looked through the door to see Lin Zhicheng.

Passing me, he walked in, I don't know what to say to Lin Zhicheng, and soon, Lin Zhicheng walked out a little depressed, stared at me for a while, and he finally left.

After closing the door, I looked at the glass that was accidentally broken to the ground by me because of the chaos just now, and suddenly said a little nervously: "Wu Kaiyu, you said that this cup is broken like this, and you can't drink water after repairing it, why don't you take a hammer and break it even more, at least it will be broken into slag, and it can make people break the idea of repairing it." ”

didn't answer my words, Wu Kaiyu went to the bathroom and got a washcloth, cleaned up the scraps and threw them into the trash, he pulled a chair and sat opposite me, he stared at me: "Zhou Mo, don't torture yourself anymore." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and Wu Kaiyu continued coldly: "After I got drunk that night, I brought you back, Lin Zhicheng followed, and we had another fight at the door of Carrefour, and after the fight, we finally had a good chat." ”

I let out a sigh and forced a noncommittal smile.

Wu Kaiyu glanced at me, and suddenly said a little cautiously: "I don't mean to meddle in your private affairs, of course I don't mean to say that Lin Zhicheng is a good person, and I don't encourage you to start over with him without thinking about anything, I just think you should give yourself a chance, and give him a chance." ”

I sighed again, and then fell on the bed like a corpse, and I said, "Wu Kaiyu, do you think that you are a special hero and a special virgin now?" ”

I stared at the ceiling, my eyes still a little hazy from crying, and the whiteness of those gathered together in the orange light was the same as my mood now.

It turned out that he found Wu Kaiyu, and it turned out that Wu Kaiyu told him how sad I had been in the past few years.

If no one says it, people like Lin Zhicheng will keep pretending to be old with me, hehe.

Wu Kaiyu was silent for a while, I heard the sound of the chair being pulled apart, and after a long time, I heard him say: "I don't think I am a hero, and I am not the director of the Political and Educational Department." I struggled with this decision as well. More than my struggles, I want to see you live like a normal girl again. ”

I pursed my lips and didn't respond, I was afraid that tears would fall out of my mouth again.

Wu Kaiyu sighed slightly, and finally he said: "When it is dawn, I will go back to Zhanjiang, you take good care of yourself." ”

I sat up all at once, and my helplessness was in plain sight.

I just looked at him and I said, "I don't know what I can do." ”

Wu Kaiyu's brows furrowed, he stared at me for a while, and finally he said lightly: "It's not that you don't know what to do, you just need time." It doesn't matter, if you can't make a decision now, leave it to time, in short, time will bring you the answer. You sleep. ”

I sighed, raised my eyebrows, and said half-loudly, "I don't know if there will be a future for people like me." You know, my past is a mess. You know, I hate to be pitied for it. ”

The corners of his mouth moved, and Wu Kaiyu said slowly: "As long as you want to, you will definitely have it." Also, I don't think Lin Zhicheng is so superficial. ”

After he finished speaking, he strode towards the door, pulled the door handle, and at the moment he went out, he added: "Zhou Mo, you don't owe me anything, I don't regret meeting you at all." As for me, don't worry, I'm just a layman, my family is in a hurry, and I'll go on a blind date after a while. ”

After Wu Kaiyu left, I lay on the bed tossing and turning, I really couldn't sleep, and finally I opened my laptop to surf the Internet and hung it up by the way.

After browsing the web for a while, Li Xianyong suddenly called me on it.

I really didn't notice that he was a night owl, he said, "Hey, beauty, why haven't you slept yet, miss me, don't you?" ”

I have to say that Li Xianyong occasionally has the same brain twitch as before, but I already know that there is no malice in this, he is just used to eating some tofu on his mouth when he sees a woman.

I really wasn't in the mood to chat, so I sent a random sentence and said, "Wait and sleep." ”

Li Xianyong's phone call came suddenly.

I was lying on the bed with my phone in my hand, the microphone was close to my mouth, and I didn't take the initiative to speak.

Li Xianyong is good, he didn't say anything when he saw me, he didn't say anything, and after the two of them were silent on the phone for almost three minutes, he finally couldn't stand it, he said, "What are you doing?" ”

I don't know if I've been holding it for too long, and as soon as the conversation box is opened, I can't stop it, I thought about it, and then said, "I didn't do anything, I just suddenly remembered the past." ”

There was a sound of rustling over there, and after a while Li Xianyong said, "What is there to think about in the past, it's better to think about the present." ”

I groaned and didn't answer.

Li Xianyong continued coldly: "That Zhou Mo, how about playing golf together this weekend?" I made an appointment with a few friends, and they all brought female companions, and I was alone, and it was desolate to look at, so you should do me a favor. ”

I chuckled, although I wasn't in the mood, but I also said in a mocking tone: "You pull it down, if you want a female companion, you can make a football team with a voice, and you still need to find me." ”

The other end was silent for a long time, and then Li Xianyong said: "But I don't want to find someone else, I just want to find you, okay, give me a word." ”

I really didn't want to go, and my head hurt badly, so I said a little perfunctorily: "I don't want to go, I don't want to be a female companion, I don't do much, I'm afraid of embarrassing you." ”

I don't know if it's because the night is hazy or Li Xianyong drank too much, he suddenly said very abruptly: "If you don't want to be my girlfriend, how about being my girlfriend?" ”

If it had been before, I would have never dared to say anything.

And now, I laughed self-deprecatingly and said, "Brother Yong, do you often say such things to the female friends around you? ”

Li's voice suddenly lowered by eight degrees and said, "What are you talking about, I seem to be very attentive." Tell you directly, I've been single for five years, I'm not as abusive as you think, I can say such things to you, I must want to develop seriously. I've been looking for you for the past few days, but I'm afraid you'll think I'm presumptuous. I originally wanted to send you flowers, but I was afraid that you would smash the trash can, so I'll ask you now, if you think it's okay, I'll chase it. ”

I was directly scorched by Li Xianyong's divine logic, but I still remembered that he knew that I was pregnant with Lin Zhicheng's child, so I hesitated for a moment, and didn't call him Brother Yong again, but said directly: "Li Xianyong, don't you mind my past?" “

I'm just wondering what men think about such things.

He quickly replied: "Who hasn't had a before, I have it too, my predecessor can't count them on his fingers, if you really think about it, you can't finish it in a few days." ”

I let out a sigh and said slowly, "But what if I can't have children?" ”

didn't answer my question, Li Xianyong suddenly asked urgently, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I reluctantly smiled and said in a mocking tone, "It's okay, it's okay, just kidding, I see what scares you." ”

But this kind of ridicule didn't help, Li Xianyong seemed to be really scared by me, I heard the dull sound of the phone falling to the ground, and then stumbled for a while, Li Xianyong's voice came again, a little strange, his throat seemed to be a little dry, he said: "Zhou Mo, you and Lin Zhicheng's child was not born in the end, right?" Did that cause you a lot of physical harm? Can you tell me what the hell is going on? ”