I glanced at Lin Zhicheng in a little surprise, and said in a half-loud voice: "This is not good, it's okay, I'll wait for the rain to light up and then go back." ”

But Lin Zhicheng didn't allow me to refuse and said, "No, you live here tonight." ”

I don't know if people value that little self-esteem and self-esteem more seriously after experiencing some things.

I felt that I could never stay in his house like I had before.

So I said solemnly: "Lin Zhicheng, I said, I will go back when the rain is light!" ”

Lin Zhicheng was finally reluctant to twist his face over, his gaze stayed on my face, he looked serious, and said slowly: "I know you may think that we are lonely men and widows, I don't live here tonight, I will go to my father's house to sleep for one night." ”

I sighed, completely surrounded by him, and asked casually, "Where does Lin Zheng live?" Far from it? ”

Lin Zhicheng raised his hand to look at his watch, and after reading it, he said: "It's close, and it's only ten minutes by car." ”

As soon as I heard this, I was anxious, and said directly: "No, what are you tossing, take care of yourself." Don't run away. I'll go back when the rain is light. ”

As soon as I finished speaking, there was another thunderclap that resounded through the sky, and the light in my eyes suddenly disappeared, and the whole hall was plunged into darkness.

I don't know if this god is playing around or what, the thunder rang several times in a row.

I shuddered, and suddenly I felt that everything in front of me had become hideous.

I was afraid of the thunder in the dark, which would bring back too many unbearable memories, and in such a situation, all the blur of flesh and blood would reappear before my eyes, like a nightmare and scary movie.

I thought I should go to the psychiatric hospital to ask for medical bills, and my psychological defenses easily collapsed, and I screamed even though I squatted down and covered my ears.

A hand touched me in the darkness, and I shook it off like hell, and I tore my throat and said in a shrill voice, "Go away!" Go away! Go away! Go away! “

I completely forgot that I was in Lin Zhicheng's house, I still felt that my feet were full of sticky dust, I felt that my white coat was full of blood, and I still felt that under me was the pouring rain that could never stop.

I threw away the hand that was trying to soothe me, and leaned back against the sofa and curled up in a ball, holding my hand on my stomach, shivering, my tears could not stop running, I was like a madman, I was still insane, I was babbling and I didn't know what to read, I was like a ship that refused to dock.

At that moment, there was a sudden light in the empty hall, and the white coffee table refracted a dazzling light in the sudden light, and I half-squinted my eyes, and finally half-recovered from the terrifying memory.

A little dazed glanced at Lin Zhicheng, the soul I had just been photographed away finally returned to my body, and I hurriedly reached out to wipe my eyes, I quickly stood up, I wanted to pretend to be casual and wanted to say that I was acting just now, but my legs were weak and fell directly on the sofa.

Lin Zhicheng threw the mobile phone in his hand on the coffee table, and the glowing position on the mobile phone was overwhelmed, and it was a little darker in an instant, which just happened to hide my embarrassment, I wanted to seize the opportunity to get up, but I was suddenly dragged up by Lin Zhicheng and hugged into his arms.

His embrace was different from the one he had just had, even more resolute than ever, and I was confined there, unable to move.

The two of them didn't know how long the stalemate lasted, and I suddenly heard Lin Zhicheng's heart-rending cry.

His tears suddenly stretched from my neck to my back like a rushing river, getting colder and colder, making me shiver in such a winter day, I reached out to push him away, but he returned the weight and hugged me, whimpering and said: "Zhou Mo, don't be afraid, I'm Lin Zhicheng, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here." ”

I froze there, and finally gave up the struggle, only to say, "You let me go." ”

But Lin Zhicheng still imprisoned me, choked up and said, "Don't let it go again." ”

Exhausted, I looked up at the ceiling blankly and said to myself, "Don't touch me, don't get yourself dirty." Don't you know how dirty I am, haven't you all watched the video? You've seen it yourself, you've seen it all, you've seen it all. People like me still have the courage to live, and I still have the courage to live alone. ”

Lin Zhicheng's face suddenly leaned over, he stretched out a hand to cover my mouth, he looked at me helplessly, and said helplessly: "I beg you to stop talking about yourself like this." ”

I took off his hand, and I was finally provoked to tears, and in the unbridled rush of tears, I was like a devil who had escaped into the devil's path, and my heart was pulling me to shout wildly, and I couldn't suppress those endless sorrows.

I lowered my head, and my tears became a river that could not swim across me, lingering in my life, no matter how turbulent it was, it could not cross my shore.

I went back to my own world and said self-deprecatingly: "Whether I say it or not, I know what I am, and there are some things that are rooted in my body and can never be removed." I used to think that the nightmare would be dawn when I woke up, but Lin Zhicheng, why do you say that it can still be dark when it is dawn, just like those nightmares have been done again and again, I can't escape, I used to think I could, but in fact I was wrong, I was ridiculously wrong, my self-confidence is just based on excessive inferiority, I vainly try to use those insignificant things to cover up my heart weakness. I was afraid of being pitied and pitied, and I often did, and I felt sorry for myself. For a woman like me, who is no longer psychologically and physically normal, what qualifications do I have to harm others? ”

Lin Zhicheng didn't seem to hear my words, he said to himself: "Zhou Mo, let's get married." ”

I finally broke his hand with a lot of effort.

After I sat down, I looked at his somewhat blurred face in the faint light, and I said slowly, "Lin Zhicheng, you let yourself go." Don't think that I'm doing this because you're harming, it has nothing to do with you at all. On the contrary, it is you, you don't dare to jump like you did before, it is my fault. Lin Zheng is right, I am really a broom star, I can't protect my aunt, I can't protect my children, you are still in trouble because of my car accident, even my only good friend Wu Kaiyu is in constant trouble because of me. I'm just a broom star, I'm still a troublemaker, I don't do anything but cause tragedy to others. ”

But Lin Zhicheng's hand was wrapped around like an octopus again, and he hugged me fiercely like this, as if he hadn't heard a word just now, and said nonchalantly: "Zhou Mo, let's get married, marry me." ”

My tears are still running down my face, and I think I want to make another Yellow River.

I don't know how long I tossed and cried later, anyway, when I woke up from a sleep that I was so tired, my body was covered with a heavy quilt, and Lin Zhicheng was sitting on the carpet and leaning on the sofa with a coat, his hands were clenched into fists, and his brows were all twisted into knots.

Without much hesitation, I carefully pulled the quilt over and tried to cover him, but I didn't move, and he immediately opened his eyes in a daze and looked at me and said, "Awake?" ”

The rain had not stopped outside, and I could still hear the sound of dripping, so I quickly sat up and said, "I'm going back." ”

Lin Zhicheng stretched out his hand and pressed me and said, "Don't leave yet, do you have your household registration book with you?" ”

I pretended I didn't understand and muttered, "Where's my bag?" ”

Lin Zhicheng continued: "Let me ask you again, did you have the household registration book with you?" ”

I must have been brainless to run around with that household registration book, right?

Of course I didn't say this, but took Lin Zhicheng's hand away, and I really cared and wanted to divert the topic, so I said fiercely: "Who let you sit on the carpet?" The doctor said you have to take care of it, you won't sit like this all night, right? You're crazy, aren't you? Don't know how to go back to the bedroom to sleep? ”

Tearing off the coat on his body, Lin Zhicheng raised his eyebrows, and said bluntly: "I'm not all injured, I can't hold you, let you sleep here alone, you have been kicking the quilt all night, I want to go in and sleep who will cover you." ”

I admit that I fell so much three years ago that it is inseparable from Lin Zhicheng's ability to open his mouth and hit my heart.

And now, I don't know if it's funny or funny, even if my heart is full of holes, I also think that his casual but warm love words are a thousand times more beautiful than those I love you, I love you very much, I love you to death, I love you so much that I love you to death, I love you so much that I can't do without you, it sounds a thousand times ten thousand times more beautiful.

But the more he moved me like this, the more unbearable I became.

The more I felt that I could not force my obscure life on him, he could meet a better woman, who was psychologically and physically normal, and his life could have other surprises.

And the person who can accompany him through the long and long days that follow will not be me.