And the decision was that in less than thirty seconds of staring at each other, my mind changed so quickly, and I was so quick to convince myself that I was convinced that he was my sweetheart, and that I could have a happy ending with him like all TV shows with happy endings.

Eventually, I nodded lightly and said, "Yes." ”

Probably able to hear the hesitation in my tone, he quickly leaned over and said, "If you haven't thought about it yet, then we'll do it later, I'll bear with it." ”

The loss in his eyes couldn't be concealed at all.

After a long silence, he said, "You haven't identified me yet?" Is it because when we first met, you looked down on me who often went to nightclubs? I'm actually not as attentive as you think, Zhou Mo. I'm actually... Forget it, you will slowly find out that I am also very reliable, not only Zhang Lei is reliable. ”

As soon as I heard him mention Zhang Lei, I instantly understood that he was still struggling with me and Zhang Lei, and he was so jealous that he didn't want to get it.

With an impulse, I suddenly reached over and hooked his neck, and hurriedly confessed: "Of course I like you, I'm fine with Zhang Lei, nothing at all." ”

When I got up in a hurry, I was really numb, and I regretted it after saying that, so I quickly put away my expression and pretended not to say anything just now.

But Lin Zhicheng was used, and he quickly got up, because I hooked his neck and was also carried up.

The two hugged each other in a particularly ambiguous posture, and he suddenly tapped my nose and asked, "What do you like about me, tell me quickly, I'm trying so hard to keep it." ”

How dare I tell him that I liked him because he was cold.

Gao Leng's thing is really attractive, but if two people want to live together, and they still have Gao Leng's words, maybe they will die of cold in three or two clicks.

I rubbed against him without knowing whether he was alive or dead, and I finally said, half-seriously and half-jokingly, "Because you are good-looking." ”

Lin Zhicheng sighed, squinted at me, and asked faintly, "Just because of this?" Do you like so superficial? I thought you liked me. ”

Hello people.

He dared to say this.

When I first met, I defined him as a scumbag and a beast, and the first night he took me out, and if he drank too much, he insulted me.

I thought about it, but when I thought about that night, he reached out and swam over my abdomen, and my face became hot again.

I don't know if it's because my mind is very active when I'm blushing, and my IQ is also high, I suddenly automatically and consciously thought that Lin Zhicheng was insecure in this relationship, he was probably bitten by a snake once, and now he wants to be sure of something.

I don't know what kind of mentality is causing trouble, I suddenly relented, and in order to show that I really wanted to be close, I continued to rub on him.

Because of my body language, Lin Zhicheng is not the kind of hairy boy who has never been in love, he naturally saw it clearly, and when he came over with his backhand, he hugged my waist, stared at me and asked very seriously: "Have you thought about it?" ”

My face must have been as red as a ripe cherry, and finally I bit my lip and said something like "Turn off the lights first." ”

I don't know if all men are like this, after getting my consent, Lin Zhicheng's eyes flashed everywhere, I was hugged by him and turned off the lights in the hall one by one, even if there was only the reflection of the floor, I could see the crazy surprise on his face.

When I was gently placed on his big bed, I was in a trance for a moment.

There are curious, frightened, and some quite complex emotions intertwined, and there is a very strange voice in my heart that keeps saying, I will be different after a while.

Sadness is like a huge wave coming towards me, and the emotions of fear and so on are piled up like a flood that is about to burst the embankment, but I am so unhesitating, naïve and stupid to think that love can move forward bravely if there is accommodation.

I was stunned, Lin Zhicheng suddenly reached out to cover my face, he reached out and unbuttoned my clothes very lightly, my whole body was stiff, and I didn't know where to put my hands and feet.

Lowering his head, his mouth close to my ear, his voice still so charming, he said, "Don't worry, leave it to me." ”

But this comfort was not enough, and my body was still as stiff as ever, like firewood in the forest, and I would not move until I pushed it down.

In the summer, I wore little and my clothes were light enough, but when I was ripped off and fell to the ground, my ears could still catch a hint of sound.

In the dark, Lin Zhicheng's wheezing sound became heavier and heavier, but I was still nervous and clenched my fists, and even thought about whether to pull the quilt over my body.

In a trance and panic, Lin Zhicheng said in a deep voice: "I will be good to you in the future." ”

But this kind of comfort does not help, and all the emotions that accumulate become pain in the body.

Maybe it was because I was too nervous, and the pain was really heartbreaking, and I pushed him helplessly, and I said, "I'm in pain." ”

Lin Zhicheng's body stiffened for a moment, quickly stopped, leaned over and reached out to help me pull my hair, and the pity in his eyes made me very useful.

We stuck to it without any barriers, and he said, "Then let's not do it yet." ”

After he finished speaking, he rolled over, put his hand under my neck, half-wrapped his arms around me, and continued, "I will marry you." Don't worry. ”

I'm not really worried about whether he'll marry me in the future.

I just don't know why I'm nervous like this.

Hugged by him like this, I finally said, "I want to put on my clothes first." ”

Lin Zhicheng nodded my nose naturally, and finally reached over and groped the edge of the bed, and quickly smoothed my clothes for me.

I grabbed my clothes and said, "Can you turn your face away?" ”

I finally hurriedly put my clothes on my body, I was a little embarrassed, and I also felt that Lin Zhicheng's excitement had been swept away, and I was afraid that he would be angry, so I leaned over and hugged him, and I dared to say after a while: "I'm sorry, I'm ...... Why don't we wait, let's move on.... ”

Before he finished speaking, Lin Zhicheng had already reached out and put it on my mouth, he still leaned on me, slowed down his voice and said slowly: "Why are you so stupid? I like you, so I want to be like you. I'm already very happy that you're willing to give it to me. This proves that you trust me. ”

He suddenly got up, took a sheet and draped it casually, and then pulled the bedside lamp, and said, "I'll go get you some water to drink, you must be thirsty." ”

I was indeed thirsty.

But this is not what I care more about.

As soon as he walked away, I struggled to my feet, facing the light to look at the sheets beneath me.

However, the place where I had just laid was still dazzlingly white, and there was nothing.

My head exploded with a thud.

Didn't the Internet say that girls will have some blood for the first time?

We had already done that, so why didn't we see blood?

A lot of questions are snowballing in my heart, and I'm not the kind of person who is sick about what to do, I'm just afraid that Lin Zhicheng has thoughts in his heart.

was complicated and turbulent in his heart, Lin Zhicheng came over with a glass of water in the morning, handed it directly to my mouth, and said, "Drink it, it's warm, I've tried it, the temperature is okay." ”

Probably seeing my abnormality, Lin Zhicheng followed my gaze and also looked at the sheet I was lying on just now, but he quickly withdrew his gaze and continued without any abnormality: "Drink a little, good." ”

Shrewd.

It sounded very lovely, and it was the first time he had done so, but my heart was full of mixed feelings.

After drinking the water, he said that it was late and said that I was sleepy, so he turned off the light and hugged me.

But where can I sleep?

He didn't mention what had just happened, and I didn't know how to talk to him.

I really can't take the initiative to tell him, it's my first time, but I don't know why I didn't fall red.

I'm afraid I'm getting darker and darker.

What's more, our first acquaintance was in a place like a nightclub, and he may have thought in his heart that I had experienced countless men.

If that's the case, he might have thought that I was crying out in pain just now, and that I was pretending to be forced to do nothing.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt wronged, I couldn't sleep more and more, and my tears were almost about to fall, but Lin Zhicheng was really tired, he fell asleep quickly, and he was asleep to the extent that he could play mahjong with Zhou Gong.

His hand was still on top of me, and he said something that broke my heart.

He said, "Sun Qianqian, don't make trouble. ”

No matter how muffled his voice was in his sleep, this sentence was like a nail, so quickly embedded into my heart, and the side effects were not only pain or pain, but even a thousand times more painful than a few hours ago.

Just as I was suddenly confronted with the fiercest world war, my heart was like a stream of ammunition, and all the sweetness in my heart that was sealed by my imagination was instantly blown to ashes.

My hands and feet were like the hardest snow in the world, and I shivered from the cold.

Getting up, as if I didn't dare to believe my ears, I gently pushed Lin Zhicheng and asked softly, "Lin Zhicheng, what did you say?" “

But all I got was the man's more confused whispers in his dreams, and these confused voices, like the seaside plants that grew wildly on the beach in summer, soon spread across the sand of my heart, and I wanted a place to breathe, but I didn't want to suffocate all that was left.

And he, who smiled so gently in his sleep, was still unbeatably handsome, but why did he make me feel so uncomfortable.

He probably dreamed of Sun Qianqian.

It seems so happy.

Well, she was his deep love. I've been reminded a long time ago that I forgot when I heard it.

What about me, what am I? Can I elevate myself as a perfect stand-in?

I got out of bed in despair, I didn't even have shoes on, so barefoot, I ran lightly to the room where I was staying with tears to pack up the few clothes I had.

I felt like I had to go, and this was the last shred of humble dignity I could give myself.

At three o'clock in the morning in Shenzhen, it turned out to be really raining.

But even in a place as tall as the Côte d'Azur, without an umbrella, people look particularly embarrassed.

Just like feelings, even if I find a particularly good person to fall in love, even if I am so accommodating in love, I may still not be able to get so wholehearted love, I am still so embarrassed to escape, even more heartbroken than when I had a crush.

What could be more painful than this, first give me a sweet hug, and then drag me down from the clouds and feed me this yellow lotus.

As the rain became heavier, I finally sat under the eaves of a house in Houhai New Village, holding the bag of clothes.

It was the first memorable storm of my life.

When the first bus came by, there was a splash of water, and I sat on it shivering, and finally pulled out my phone to check the time, only to find that the battery was loose and turned off again.

Hurriedly signaling the battery to turn on, the text message has been deafening.

I clicked on it, and before I could look at it, my phone squealed.

I don't know if I should be disappointed or rejoicing, the person who called me was not him.