But Lin Zhicheng suddenly stared at me anxiously and said, "No, you go back and rest for a while, and go back to Zhanjiang tomorrow." ”

I changed to a comfortable position and sat down, then naturally pulled the quilt for him, and then said calmly: "Don't go back, I'll stay here, you want to drink water in the middle of the night, I can pour it for you." ”

This ward is a VIP room, and I just noticed that there is a nice sofa next to it, and it is okay to use it for a night.

Lin Zhicheng's pale face suddenly had a particularly complicated look.

He probably thought for a long time before saying: "Zhou Mo, I am not saying these words to you, not so that I can add points when I win you back, I say these things because I owe you an explanation, I think it is necessary for me to explain to you in person." After this time, I figured it out, I shouldn't toss you anymore, you are still young, you have the right to choose your life, your life can be other ordinary or exciting. If you follow me, you will only endure hardship. ”

The more Lin Zhicheng's words came to the end, the lower his voice became, so low that it was like a stone sinking all the way.

I was stunned, and realized that he meant that we were at this point, and my heart was like being trampled by ten thousand galloping horses, and the pain reaction came up quickly.

I squeezed my hands, and they were covered in sweat.

I'll admit that I'm pretty cheap.

I was ready to forget about him a long time ago, but when these words came out of his mouth, I suddenly became scared and cowardly, as if one step further was the abyss.

I found out sadly that instead of entangling and tossing with him again, I was more afraid of not forgetting each other and not getting along.

If I didn't pretend to him, my heart would actually be a bottomless pit, and I wouldn't be satisfied even if I pretended to be dissatisfied with the whole world.

Over the years, my duplicitous skills have been learned with ease and progress, but today, these things are useless.

A little nervously pulled the quilt for him again, and I finally stammered a little and said, "Wait, we'll talk about this when you're well, this, it's not in a hurry." ”

After I finished speaking, I hurriedly got up and found the switch to turn off the light, and when I pressed it, the whole room was shrouded in darkness, and then I groped my way to the sofa in the dark, and when I lay down, I said, "Sleepy, sleepy." ”

When I woke up the next day, while Lin Zhicheng was still asleep, I went to wash up at random, and when I went out to buy breakfast, I asked Zhang Lei to ask him to help me ask for a leave, Zhang Lei asked a few words about Lin Zhicheng's situation, and finally said that he was busy.

I called Li Xianyong while I was waiting for breakfast.

I guess it's still early, his voice is very hazy, I don't have too much verbosity, I only said that I made an appointment to meet, and the phone call was inconvenient.

When I brought breakfast back, Lin Zhicheng was still asleep, so I put breakfast closest to him, left a note, and went out.

I didn't make an appointment with Li Xianyong to eat and drink, so I asked him to go to the mangrove forest.

The mangrove forest in the morning exudes fresh air, people come and go in the morning, I twist my brows and lean on a stone pillar to think about things, Li Xianyong has walked in front of me, and I haven't reacted yet.

In order to avoid the morning luck people, I found the entrance of the promenade that could go down to the sea, and walked without saying a word, until I walked to the lighthouse, and when I saw that there was no one around, I found a stone and sat there at will, and then I spoke: "Li Xianyong, do you think we are friends?" ”

Li Xianyong still had a lit cigarette in his hand, and the sea breeze was a little strong, blowing his hair up a bit, revealing his smooth forehead.

In the past few years, he has been very well maintained, and he does look attractive, but now, as soon as he stops there, I can't stop all kinds of complicated emotions in my heart.

And today, Li Xianyong was a little different, after he glanced at me, he put out the cigarette in his palm, he glanced at me lightly, and said in a particularly loose tone: "No, never." ”

I was stunned, and the rest of the sentence was all in my throat because of his unreasonable answer.

Li Xianyong suddenly squatted down, he picked up a small stone and threw it in the direction of the sea, he threw it very hard, but the small stone fell to the ground in the shallow water not far away, causing a little ripple.

The fog of the morning shrouded him, and I suddenly felt that his back looked very lonely, and all the words of accountability were suffocated in my body, and finally became a simple sentence: "Li Xianyong, why are you helping Sun Qianqian?" ”

Li Xianyong stood up, he clapped his hands casually, stared at me like this, and said, "Because I don't want you to be with Lin Zhicheng anymore." I admit that in this process, I saw you crying sadly, I used to be soft-hearted, but I'm sorry, there is something called selfishness in human nature, some people hide it, some people take it to the extreme, and I belong to the latter. Human nature is like that, and I'm no exception. Believe it or not, I do it all because I like you to the back of the uncontrollable fall in love with you. The kind of love that has nothing to do with desire, I love you not because I want to sleep with you, but because I want to touch it but don't know how to do it. You're not pretty to me, you don't have a good personality, but I like your ambition. I really wanted to compete fairly at first, but I lost at the starting line, and by the time I found out, you and Lin Zhicheng were almost at the point of getting a certificate. Zhou Mo, I'm in my thirties, it's not easy to meet a woman I like, and I don't have so much strength to meet the next one who can make me have the urge to get married. I....... ”

His tone was sometimes thick and sometimes light, and the loss of control that I had finally suppressed was like a calf that had been locked up for too long and could run out now, it was rampage to control me, my tears fell, I interrupted him like this, glared at him and asked, "Li Xianyong, are you love?" You're dragging me to hell! ”

Li Xianyong threw the half of the cigarette in the palm of his hand on the ground, he suddenly helped me on the shoulder, and said, "I regret it, Zhou Mo, you forgive me." I really regret it, I've been annoyed for the past few years, I don't dare to tell you, I don't dare to take the initiative to find you, I'm afraid that you will find out the clues, I'm afraid that we can't even be so-called friends between us. ”

But how could I forgive him so easily!

I used to thank him for accompanying me home when I was in turmoil, I was grateful to him for helping me take my critically ill aunt to the hospital, and I was even more grateful to him for lending me money to give my aunt a beautiful funeral, but now I think these thanks are so ridiculous!

He is Sun Qianqian's accomplice.

He is an accomplice like Old Man Zhou.

So if it was because Old Man Zhou spread rumors that led to the death of my aunt, then he Li Xianyong would not be able to get rid of it.

The cruel fact that the man I am thankful for, as an accomplice to the murder of my dearest, is as devastating as the bombs of the Second World War, and has plundered and burned away what little sanity I have left.

I really want to review my own life, I don't want to provoke people I can't control, my life has rotted like a long-standing orange from that moment, and I have gathered around me a lot of people who I used to think were good friends, but they always used their actions to tell me that I was careless in making friends, they are just cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods in human skin.

I must have a bad character and blindness, what a painful realization.

Wiping a handful of tears fiercely, I took a step back and sneered, I pointed to my stomach and stared at Li Xianyong and raised my voice and shouted: "You regret it, don't you?" You seek forgiveness, don't you? Do you know how I lost the baby in my womb? Do you think my aunt's death has nothing to do with you? And do you know why I didn't even dare to fall in love in the past three years? “

Without waiting for Li Xianyong to answer, I stepped forward and raised my hand to slam it on his face, and then slapped it down on his chest, I just raised my face and yelled at him: "What are you good to do, you have to be an accomplice, and you have to play a good person in front of me when you are done!" You ruined my life, you make me forgive you, you fucking make me forgive you! ”

Li Xianyong grabbed my hand and dragged me into his arms, he pressed my hand on my back and imprisoned me, his voice suddenly became hoarse, he said, "Zhou Mo, I was really wrong." I have been living in guilt for the past few years, I hate that I shouldn't have listened to Sun Qianqian's instigation, and I hate myself even more for telling her your address in Zhanjiang for a while. It's my fault, I didn't know at the time that I was blinded by what lard, and I never thought about ruining you from beginning to end. I didn't know at the time that I was going to lose a loved one, and I didn't know that it would make you lose everything. I went to Zhanjiang so many times later, and every time I wanted to call you out to confess to you, but I was a coward, I couldn't open my mouth, I didn't dare to say it. ”

Unlike the hug Lin Zhicheng gave me, I was particularly resistant, so that when I pushed away, Li Xianyong was so red by me that my hands turned red, I desperately let my out-of-control emotions stabilize, took two steps back, and continued to ask: "Okay, I just thought you really regretted it, but why did you run to the hospital and tell Lin Zhicheng that you would take good care of me, why did you not say anything when Lin Zhicheng asked me where I was going later!" ”

Li Xianyong's eyes suddenly dimmed, he took out his cigarette case, took a cigarette, lit it slowly, took a puff hard, and in the smoke, he said coldly: "I just regret it." Why should I help Lin Zhicheng. He has no ability himself, he is a bad seed, he can't protect his own woman, why should I fulfill him. ”

My clenched fist slammed into his face as soon as his words fell into his ear, and I glared at him fiercely, "What kind of calf is your uncle!" ”

He was in pain, but he reached out and stroked it casually, and finally he said, "Then I can't bear to talk about him?" Hehe, since you can't let go of it so much, then what are you still holding on! ”

If I was like a balloon full of gas before I went out, now I feel like I have been deflated, I suddenly feel a little discouraged, and I always feel that I am wasting time, so I clapped my palms, glanced at Li Xianyong, and said word by word: "In the future, we will return to the road and the bridge to the bridge........" ”