Zi said: "Food and color, sex also." Love between men and women is always an undefeated flower, always so fascinating, lingering, and never endless, or an endless story of life, or beautiful, pure and noble, or sweet and warm, or lingering and touching, or tear-jerking and crying, or desolate and complaining, or sighing and regretting through the ages.

The love between men and women has become the main life of some people, and it has also become a boring talk for others. For me now, my love for Yang Yuyan is nine-tenths of my life, and it is the main position of my fighting life. I can't let go of this hot love, I can't let go of this thick lovesickness, and I can't let go of this complex that can't be dissolved.

Before Yang Yuyan, I also loved a few girls, even married women, maybe it was the restlessness of youth, maybe it was the precociousness of physiology, I plunged into the sea of women's love, tumbling and sinking, lost and intoxicated, sinking and rolling, intoxicated and lost. As I get older, the level of my love for women is also changing and improving, and the girls and women I have loved in my heart are more beautiful than the other. Speaking of which, Director Shang, Brother Wucai, do you think I'm a very dirty, shameless and lustful person?

But this is the true portrayal of my heart, the world of my heart, the window of my soul. I was an angry teenager, a paranoid, angry, self-explanatory, loner, and a loner, who never cared about walking on my own, paying no attention to the howling of dogs and the neighing of wolves.

When I was in the third grade of private school, I fell in love with my class flower. The class flower is shining, gentle and lovely, with clear eyebrows and beautiful eyes, and has excellent grades and is very good in mathematics. Every time I walk into the classroom, my obsessive eyes, fiery eyes will always habitually cast to the seat of my sweetheart, see her beautiful shadow, I am very relieved and comfortable, sometimes lucky, the beauty also throws a sweet smile to me, whenever then, my heart is always happy to fly; The love of childhood turned out to be so sultry. Banhua is a native of the next village next door to me, and her family background is better than that of ordinary people, so Banhua is also one of the best dressed in our class, with a pair of black braids thrown behind her head, long to her waist, tall figure, snow-white face, bright eyes and bright teeth, bright smile and charming eyes can make me lose my soul for several days. Thinking about her when I sat in my seat and listened to the lecture, thinking about her on the way out of school, and thinking about her when I went home for dinner, I deliberately restrained my behavior in the class, for fear of leaving a bad image in front of the class flower. With the love for Banhua, I feel that my heart is full and meaningful, my life is happy and fulfilling, and even the hatred for my classmates who have conflicts with me will automatically dissolve because of Banhua's love. Isn't it? Beautiful scenery can make people forget their troubles, quiet scenes can arouse people's holy and lofty feelings, and sweet love can dilute people's poor misery and sorrow and impulsive anger.

Although Banhua has only spoken to me a few times, each time it has become a classic memory that I have not forgotten, and the taste of happiness often lingers in my heart involuntarily. Six years have passed, and I still remember the scene when Ban Hua swept all the books and stationery boxes on my desk to the ground, her coquettish demeanor of anger and shame, and even the schadenfreude and harsh laughter of several of my rival classmates. I still remember one time, when I was so full of love and affection, I deliberately dropped the broom at her feet as I passed by the Banhua seat, stained the hem of her white dress, and ran away as fast as I could. I ran from the classroom to the playground, and then from the playground to the sand pit long jump, Ban Huajiao finally caught up with me, I was also so tired that I knelt on the sand, my hands propped up into the thin white sand on the ground while panting, while pouting my buttocks, and smiled at her: "I am a worm, I surrender, I admit punishment, I like it...... ......Before I could finish, she kicked me in the ass, and then Ge Gejiao laughed and ran away, leaving a string of silver bell-like laughter echoing in my sweet heart for a long time. I was kicked by a beautiful woman on a little ass that didn't have much fat and lean meat, and I was very happy on my knees, and I was very happy with a happy smile on my face. Later, in the second semester of the fourth grade, Ban Hua moved her family to a distant city, Ban Hua went away, and my broken heart went to a distant place with her. Fresh and lovely love suddenly slipped from the stage of my immature life, and the young man's heart that I was looking forward to every day was extremely lost. Young man who has just fallen in love, you are so innocent, with green colors and the light of infatuation.

After Banhua left, I lived a period of loneliness and depression, my heart was bored to the extreme, my original colorful spring bright days suddenly lost color, my life became gray, life has no hope, the soul has no sustenance, the soul has lost its home. I am like an empty shell of life, walking on the road to school and home. The school is still the same school, the fourth-grade classroom is still the same classroom, but there is no beautiful woman's shadow and laughter, as if all of a sudden lost aura, remembering a poem: "The mountain is not high, there are immortals, the name is good, the water is not deep, there is a dragon is spiritual." Looking at Zhang Sanzhu, who was originally sitting on the seat of a beautiful woman, is now sitting on a nasty boy and nicknamed "Pig Head Three", my heart feels desolate and sad: Beauty and beasts, the contrast is really too great! The beauty is gone, the beast is entrenched, how can I be embarrassed?

I closed my eyes, listened attentively to the voice of the beauty, felt the sweetness and warmth, I held my breath, meditated on the beautiful woman's shadow, let the love through time and space, touch the muddy path, soothe the green riverside grass, paddle across the clear river of forgetfulness, fly over thousands of rivers and mountains, fly over the five lakes and seas, fly over the vast starry sky, fly over the ethereal universe, to pursue my unforgettable, love-loving young boy's feelings and sweet love memories.

In the sea of lust, I struggled and rose and fell several times, and died and came back to life several times, until the second goddess of my life stretched out her hand to me. With her delicate jade hands, she pulled me out of the bitter sea of bitter lovesickness and made me get the second spring of my life.

As a poem wrote: She, walking by the shore of Yunshui Lake, left me a tall shadow. Her gorgeous and peerless face is a clear dream that separates the red dust. When the fate came, it came, and when the fate went, it went. Just like her pure and gentle smile and no makeup, just a slight look back, she taught the world to turn white.

She, like a class flower, is more like a class flower that has suddenly grown ten years old, and she is a woman who is loved by me forever. She is my sister-in-law, a very beautiful young woman next door.