ACT266: Turbidity self-knowledge

"Of course." Su Lan's expression was determined, his tone softened slightly, and he said seriously: "You and I can't change those things that have happened, and I won't force you to forget the grievances of life and death, but ...... It's just that you still have a choice, you don't have to beware of the walking corpse, you don't have to worry about food and clothing, three years of suffering are over, everything starts again, why not? ”

Ming Junwei listened to her quietly, picked up the teacup and moistened his throat, playing with the taste: "Asu, what do you mean by "starting over"? ”

"What do you mean?" Su Lan narrowed her eyes slightly, and heard something strange.

"Do you know the past and present life of this city?" Ming Junwei gently blew on the rim of the cup, chewed the tea leaves, and said, "In other words, do you know the price paid to build this city?" ”

"I..."

Su Lan was about to speak, but saw Ming Junwei wave his hand, spit out a puff of green cigarette with a smile, and continued: "I believe you know, otherwise you wouldn't be sitting here." ”

"So what?" Su Lan raised her eyebrows, vaguely guessing what Ming Junwei wanted to say.

Ming Junwei smiled bitterly and said, "If it weren't for your so-called 'starting over', then I should have been drinking with Song Jiu and Xiao Wei at the Huandao Bar right now...... Oh yes, Song Jiu is Yaoyao's younger brother, his own brother. ”

Su Lan didn't speak, waiting for his next step.

"Is there an impression of the roundabout bar? Yifan's bar, we have lived there for a few years, do-it-yourself, have plenty of food and clothing, and live well. Ming Junwei sighed, a certain string in his heart was plucked, his brain was a little messy, and he couldn't help but talk a lot, and smacked his lips: "Eh, also, you must not be a stranger to living corpses, right?" ”

Su Lan exhaled slowly, Ming Junwei's hammer in the east and a stick in the west made her a little confused, and when she saw him asking, she had to nod her head and acquiesce to this unpleasant title.

"Because of your 'fresh start,' our 'fresh start' is ruined." Ming Junwei lifted the blindfold, picked up a file bag and fanned the wind, seeing that Su Lan's expression was not very good-looking, he was happy: "Don't be angry, I'm not here to ask the teacher, don't you want to know why I'm so resistant here?" I'm trying to describe exactly how I feel. ”

"Still hatred." Su Lan stroked her forehead and sighed faintly.

"What about hatred? Two fluttering words can't carry our blood and tears, do you understand, Asu? Ming Junwei endured it again and again, but after all, he couldn't control his emotions, and the long-standing resentment and sorrow were surging, and it was difficult to suppress it.

"You can't dodge, you can't run, you can't fight." Ming Junwei smiled miserably, spread his hands and said, "You say we have a choice?" Where is the choice? Those who go along prosper and those who rebel die, this is the choice? ”

Su Lan avoided Ming Junwei's eyes, and her heart fluctuated, in fact, Ming Junwei could guess these without saying it, and she was not speechless, in all fairness, this kind of sacrifice was inevitable, the overthrow and birth of the dynasty, there were a lot of white bones under the throne. The scourge of the walking dead is slightly different from the scourge of history, but the results are not much different, and the living people always have to do something and walk some path again.

However, Su Lan couldn't say these words, she was okay to others, but she couldn't say them to Ming Junwei. Su Lan didn't speak, but Ming Junwei didn't stop, as if he had finally found an outlet and wanted to spit out all the bitterness in one go.

"Actually, we haven't been on the same road since the beginning, and seeing that you're doing well, as a former friend, I'm quite comforted, really. It's better to live alone than to be wiped out, isn't it? As hard as I can understand the relationship between you and that guy, I'm happy to see you safe because we've lived and died together. Ming Junwei's eyes were a little red, and some sighed for a while, and sighed: "Originally, you wouldn't have had a chance to see me again, the last time the roundabout was attacked, I couldn't escape my life, it was Yaoyao who pulled me back from the Hades Palace." ”

"Now I am the same as those people in the city." Ming Junwei slowed down his speech, saw a slight twitch in the corner of Su Lan's eyes, smiled, and said, "That's right, living corpse, I have also stepped into the ranks of living corpses." ”

Ming Junwei's situation is not difficult to guess, so Su Lan didn't show any surprise, Su Lan just didn't expect that Ming Junwei had already understood the truth about this city.

"He ruined everything with the Walking Dead virus, and then he wanted to rebuild with a new virus? On the one hand, killing and trapping survivors, and on the other hand, making more living corpses that are not human or ghostly, what kind of restart is this? Ming Junwei smiled, full of ridicule and ridicule, and snorted coldly: "Who does he think he is?" Creator? Want to change the world on your own? He's a madman, he's a murderer! Asu, wake up, look left and right, this is not a place for budding revival, this is just a self-deceptive cage, outside the city are undomesticated walking corpses, inside the city are domesticated walking corpses, that's all! ”

"That's enough." Su Lan couldn't listen to it anymore, and her initial concern was wiped out by a few words, although she had a friendship, Su Lan couldn't accept these accusations and interrogations behind Ming Junwei, and frowned: "You are just blinded by hatred." ”

"Asu, my biggest irrationality is to talk to you about this very rationally." Ming Junwei's smile was full of too much bitterness, and he didn't speculate for more than half a sentence, Ming Junwei felt that he couldn't continue to talk, otherwise the little friendship he had with Su Lan would have to be consumed.

However, the situation is always changing, in front of Su Lan regretted asking more, which aroused Ming Junwei's chatterbox, and now it is Ming Junwei who wants to stop, but Su Lan has something to say.

"Personal grudges aside." Su Lan cleared her throat and said, "Everything today is indeed caused by Cheng Yu, but we have been making up for it over the years, like you said, if it is destroyed, it can be rebuilt, aren't we also doing it?" Compared to the struggle to survive, this place is indeed beginning to take shape, and our efforts have paid off, don't you see? ”

"I can't do anything about bloodshed and sacrifice, all I can do is try my best to gradually restore this place to what it used to be, you must have seen it on the way here, the people who live here don't have to worry about tomorrow, they can live and work normally as before, marry and have children, isn't this a change? Why can't this be the starting point for recovery? Is it right to struggle as precariously as we did back then? Troubled times need leaders, and the broken ones can be put back together, even if Chengyu is heinous, but the two are not in conflict, this is not a cage, not a ruin, not a hell full of walking corpses. ”

"Maybe you're right, but I still can't accept it, I want to live, as a normal person, not as an experiment." Ming Junwei sneered, when it came to this, it had nothing to do with right or wrong, he didn't like to persuade Su Lan, and he didn't want to force himself to change.

"Merit is merit, passing is excess, if you can't look at it separately, then I have nothing to say." Su Lan sighed deeply, a little tired between her eyebrows, and sneered: "I thought you could understand what I meant, it seems that I was wrong." ”

"Then tell me, where is the end of this catastrophe?" Ming Junwei also came up a little angry, propped his elbows on the table, and asked, "If you really want to rebuild, why are there all living corpses here?" Why are living corpse camps set up everywhere to trap survivors? Why is the Walking Dead virus still being developed? ”

"You are arguing with strong words, reconstruction requires a process, and it also requires a price!" Su Lan was anxious, not to be outdone, and said: "What we have built is an orderly new society, not to build a grass platform team, not to put a group of people together and call it reconstruction, do you bring people to the camp all these years?" Don't think about anything else but eat and sleep? ”

"Forget it, Asu, you and I don't need to quarrel about it." Ming Junwei sighed, waved his hand, and said, "Stop here." ”

"Because you know I'm right." Su Lan was unforgiving, and had no intention of stopping.

"What else can I say about flowers blooming in a pool of blood?" Ming Junwei smiled bitterly and hung up the truce card: "Don't say it, it's meaningless." ”

"Doesn't it make sense?" Su Lan's expression changed suddenly, evoked a sneer, and said, "Then what are you doing these things for?" ”

"Huh?" Ming Junwei was stunned, not understanding what Su Lan meant.

"No one is innocent, the merits and demerits are not comparable, if you completely deny everything because of Chengyu, then how much cleaner are you than others?"

Ming Junwei was stunned, Su Lan's speech span was a bit big, it was just a more exciting argument just now, why did it suddenly rise to a personal attack?

Seeing Ming Junwei's expression, Su Lan smiled, with a hint of mockery in her smile, and said coldly: "To be honest, I didn't expect to have the opportunity to ask you in person...... Since you've asked so many questions, you might as well answer some of my questions. ”

"I don't understand." Ming Junwei frowned slightly, unable to understand the meaning of his words.

"It's okay, I'll give you a hint." Su Lan exhaled slowly, lowered her head and opened the drawer, took out an old file bag from it, shook it in her hand, and seemed to smile: "The name Xia Yu, you won't be unfamiliar, right?" ”

Ming Junwei raised his head suddenly, the blankness in his eyes was instantly replaced by Jingguang, and the hands resting on the table couldn't help clenching together, and then relaxed again, looked away and coughed lightly, trying to hide the unnaturalness just now, and said: "She's not here anymore, not long after leaving here, because of the medicine injected in the test site, she died." ”

Seeing this scene, Su Lan knew what she said, smiled, and said, "We have been together for so long, do you think this kind of cover-up is useful?" The Xia Yu I am talking about is not the former establishment agent who left with you. ”

Ming Junwei didn't speak, adjusted his sitting posture, and slowly exhaled a breath, with an inexplicable meaning in his eyes.

"But it's a coincidence that the two Xia Yu are girls." Su Lan smiled with a winning smile on her face, pressed the file bag under her hand, added tea unhurriedly, and said as if she were homely, "I'm surprised, right?" I was also surprised at first, I only knew that you were the backbone of everyone, the omnipotent Brother Ming, but I never expected that the person who hid the most was you. ”