Zhou Muyun's nurse wiped her tears, she fixed her mind and said to the camera: "Thank you Xuexue, thank you for always thinking about my game friends." I'm Zhou Muyun. Kindness......... Ahem, I'm sorry......... I was a little out of shape just now, I'm really sorry.

Two years ago, due to ill health, I quit the live streaming platform and let go of my favorite gaming world.

I owe you an explanation, and I believe everyone is about to forget about it, and I didn't want to mention it again, but it is about the reputation of a Grand Slam player, and on the day he retires, I must clarify this matter.

This incident is about my retirement stage and the subsequent dispute with me in Chang'an Night.

I didn't think I was a public figure, nor was I a big celebrity, after all, I insisted on rejecting the packaging and marketing of the team and the company, and pushed my partner out, thanking him for protecting me through so many years of ups and downs, and thanking him for so many years. There are so many enthusiastic friends who care about me and take care of me, which really makes me feel very warm.

I'm sorry everyone, but I've been hiding that I'm a patient with congenital renal insufficiency, and this matter is indeed true, not groundless by the paparazzi. ”

There was an uproar under the live broadcast platform, the black powder that Zhou Muyun had saved during his retirement in those years didn't dare to beat overnight, seeing her skinny body and pale cheeks, the solemn and white ward on the other side of the live broadcast perspective and a large number of incomprehensible electronic radio frequency instruments, no one would suspect that Zhou Muyun's confession was fake.

Zhou Muyun's old fans finally couldn't help but pick it out and shouted on the barrage: Sit back and wait to see Chang'an slap in the face at night!! Give back justice to my goddess!!

Zhou Muyun took a sip of water, took a deep breath of oxygen and continued: "When I was four years old, I received a kidney transplant, and if it weren't for the angel who donated my kidney, my life would have been less than 10 years. What makes me different from other healthy children is that I always know what I have to face when I grow up, and every day I hope that there will be a time when my fate will be reversed.

When I was 12 years old, I met Liao Xinyu on the live broadcast platform. The first time we met, it was one afternoon when I was 14 years old.

Ahem,............ I was actually two months younger than him, and I looked a little younger, right, I was the captain of the seeded players at that time, and I wanted to have a say, so at that time I lied to him, saying that I was older than him, so that when it came time to be a seeded player in Chang'an, I still lied about my age.

I did lie about my age............ But Xinyu didn't, I didn't violate any competition system because of my age, but I don't beg everyone to forgive me, a mistake is a mistake, I face it calmly.

Getting down to business, clarifying the issue of age, now let's talk about what happened in the year I retired............ Ahem

When I was 21 years old, I had pneumonia once, and the doctor said that because my kidneys were transplanted, every cold would increase the burden on my kidneys, because I experienced an unprecedented serious illness, and the index of kidney function tests was about to break through the critical value of kidney failure, so I was bedridden for 2 months in order to save my life.

What kind of feeling is it to have poor kidney function, that is, when you are sick, you don't have the slightest strength in your body, you can't grasp things, you are weak to do anything at that time, and your whole body feels lazy.

When I was 21 years old, the doctor told me that I couldn't afford any high-intensity esports and co-training, and that as long as I could retire and recuperate, maybe I would have 10 years to live, and if I didn't retire, then I would only have 2 years left at most, and in those 2 years, my error rate would be very, very high.

If you want to save your life, it is best to go to a professional institution for long-term recuperation immediately, it was the height of summer, I was recuperating at home, and I left the house after half a year, when I saw the green leaves again, I intuitively felt that I was alive again, I wanted to use the little time left to experience the world, to see a different scenery, after all, life and time are too precious.

So I immediately decided to retire.

In the winter of the year when I was 22 years old, I went to Fuso and South Korea to recuperate, and met the first person in "StarCraft" in Busan, South Korea, Huang LAN, and because of a momentary itchy hand, I took my little apprentice to have a fight with their team, but because I was away from the arena for a long time, my mental state was depressed and I lost the friendly match.

At that time, the fans who were grateful to me have always firmly emphasized that I went to steal the teacher, I really didn't have any other purpose, and I didn't want to anger the other party at the critical moment of Xinyu, I really didn't expect that incident to have such a big impact on e-sports.

I thought I had achieved all my goals in the world of esports, and in order to take care of my family's emotions all the time, I decided to retire, but I forgot that I should have the responsibility and position of a Grand Slam player, and no matter where I go, I will represent the Celestial Empire esports career, my former partners and teams.

When LAN asked me why I was retiring at my peak, if I was afraid of losing, or if I wanted to maintain my unbeaten record in the ring, I just told him that I really couldn't play anymore.

I was also stunned by LAN's confession to me, and I replied to him that there was absolutely no possibility between us, and from then on I made up my mind that I must be a good coach and not go abroad for recuperation.

What everyone doesn't understand the most is that I had bought out my future and left Chang'an Yexia to form the strongest team on the earth, but I terminated the contract with the strongest team on the earth before retiring and signed back to Chang'an Yexia.

In fact, the combination between me and Shin Woo at that time was not broken up because he became a national team player, I was not disheartened by being the strongest on the planet, and I didn't want to compete with him for the right to speak in the team, let alone because I had an affair with a Korean player, but because I wanted to buy out "Nebula" and "Cosimo" and bring back to the best team on earth.

At that time, when Xinyu and I left the Chang'an Yexia team, our people were free, but the account was not free, and my wish was for them to return the "Nebula" and "Cosimo" accounts to me and Xinyu, on the condition that they would be allowed to play for Chang'an Yexia for a season and a half.

I did sign the contract, and it was true that I broke my promise, it was true that I breached the contract, and it was true that I did not do well and disappointed everyone.

I finally survived until the day I was discharged from the hospital, and Chang'an Yexia (the name of the game team) threatened me with a contract extension to let me return to the game arena............ At that time, Chang'an Yexia thought that I would definitely be able to go back to revive the prosperity of Chang'an Yexia, so I secretly signed a lot of endorsement companies.

Some of the sponsors who were particularly strict with me knew that I was going to miss my appointment, so they slandered me on the World Channel, saying that I was not trustworthy and that I was the most tainted player in the history of the Grand Slam.

Although my parents were able to help me terminate my contract from the team and put down all the rumors, I felt that it was pointless to explain more, so I might as well let this matter end.

I haven't done anything to shame my conscience, I just can't fulfill my promise, it's that I'm sorry for Chang'an. Now I know that everything in life is not forced, that two character avatars are not a big deal, and that reputation is just as important to a Grand Slam player.

At that time, Xinyu had been training with the national team, and whenever he had time, he would sneak out to the hospital to see me. But I was very depressed at that time, and I didn't have the confidence to live, so he promised me to play games with me until the day I left.

I wanted to tell him that I saw that he seemed to have a new beginning, a new goal, and that I didn't just want to play games, I wanted to have a whole life.

You can get married and have children, and you can accompany your loved ones to old age.

However, for a child like me who is not in good physical condition, it is really a luxury to want to fall in love, and it is also a delusion to grow old, because my lifespan is limited, and I cannot take full responsibility for a relationship.

Since then, I feel that I am the least qualified person to talk about Shinwoo, and I am not qualified to like him.

He is so kind that he is always easy to be bullied.

But these things have been bothering him in the past, and they may affect him in the future, and I will explain all your doubts clearly on the occasion of his official announcement of retirement.

I hope you treat him well, don't always slander him, don't always be jealous of him, don't always spray him, maybe he is a little arrogant, but his skills are undoubted, he has come to this position with his own strength.

Over the years that I have partnered with him, he has always insisted on helping me hide the secret of my congenital renal insufficiency kidney transplant, and Daode kidnapped him, and it was he who has always accompanied me, supported me, and encouraged me, so that I can persevere in the world of e-sports.

He doesn't care about any high status in the world of gaming or esports, or how many awards he has won, or endorsement money that makes everyone jealous.

He's just a passionate teenager obsessed with the world of games, he's my most important partner in the world, and I think that's enough. ”

Zhou Muyun finished all the words she wanted to say in one breath, she was afraid that if she paused, she would choke up and couldn't continue.

What she said was never a tasteless thing, but a secret that stirred up a thousand waves with one stone.

Netizens have completely turned on Zhou Muyun's side: go to the fucking Chang'an night!! Who was squirting black on Tieba and Weibo??? EXO ME？ Now they all apologize for my corpse!!

Yu Feixue in the live broadcast room was already crying silently, and Liao Xinyu had been listening silently, crying while listening, the tears couldn't stop like beads with broken threads, and no one would dislike it was a man shed.

Zhou Muyun wrote a suicide note at home before going to Switzerland for recuperation, because she knew that every day after arriving in Switzerland, she could die, she didn't want Liao Xinyu to see her most ugly appearance before she died, she knew that she had to say goodbye as soon as possible, otherwise it would be too late when she didn't have the strength to open her mouth.

So she wrote in a letter to Liao Xinyu: "My most precious experience in the world is not the moment when I stand on the podium as a Grand Slam player, but the moment I met you on the live broadcast platform. I would like to thank the angel who donated his kidney to me, and the family who has always given me the best care to take care of me, without whom I would not have been able to live my full life.

Thanks to the online world, it provides us with a platform where we can use our technology. Thank God for allowing me to meet you.

Maybe after reincarnation, time has passed, vicissitudes of life, and the stars have changed, but as long as you close your eyes, I hope you can still remember the joy of playing when we were together.

No matter how difficult the future is, even if the world is completely engulfed in darkness, I want to thank you for illuminating me and my life with the most sincere feelings.

Maybe I'll never hear your call again, maybe despair makes me hate the world, but as long as you're in this world, I expect the world to be bright.

I will continue to live tomorrow morning, and even if we are separated, I will recognize you at the first time, no matter where you are......

God, I really want to live two more days, I love you so much, is it okay to say such words?

I don't have any particularly good writing, I hope that when you receive this letter, you will not be too sad, I hope that it will not be too late, and if possible, then wait for me in the future.

Zhou Muyun who loves you forever. ”

Liao Xinyu waited for Zhou Muyun to clarify the rumors that happened at the other end of the camera before he took the initiative to reply to netizens: "I think, I must keep this confession until I see her, okay?" I'm going offline!! ”

Netizens and fans are no longer very rational, and they are desperately brushing in the message area of the live broadcast platform, so that Liao Xinyu has to confess to Zhou Muyun in front of the whole network, and there are many Liao Xinyu's irons online, asking him to give an explanation to the masses first.

But Liao Xinyu is the kind of person who must do what I want, even if it is against God, I must insist on my own ideas.

Liao Xinyu handed over the letter to Yu Feixue in the live broadcast room, and asked Yu Feixue to express Zhou Muyun's feelings clearly on his behalf, he said: "No, I can't rub it anymore, Xiaoxue, the live broadcast room is handed over to you, I want to withdraw quickly!" ”

He wants to buy a plane ticket for the last flight to Switzerland.

In fact, before Zhou Muyun set off for Switzerland to recuperate, Liao Xinyu already knew that Zhou Muyun was going to Switzerland, and after reading the letter, his biggest wish was to hope that Zhou Muyun could live a few more days, so he pretended that he didn't know about the letter.

He is a stubborn and willful person, in the past 3 years, he has to fly to Switzerland 3 times a month to accompany Zhou Muyun in the world's top nursing home in Montreux, even if he flies hard for 20 hours, he can only accompany the other party for less than 1 day.

He definitely did not bow to fate, and the day before he decided to retire, he saw Zhou Muyun's decaying face under the chat video of Zhou Muyun's brother Zhou Jinxi, he was also desperate, he was also crushed by reality, and he had to rush to Zhou Muyun's side as soon as possible.

He immediately explained to the national team to apply for retirement.

Yu Feixue was a little stunned, she saw the letterhead written, "From now on, if I am gone, I firmly believe that I will see people." And she began to cry.

The relationship between them has long been better than the relationship between men and women, and they are also relatives and friends, sharing weal and woe.

He has always insisted on not retiring because once he retires, there is no way to maintain the income that only active players can have, and he participates in the international e-sports gambling held by the top chaebol, just because he promised to control the financiers behind the top medical institutions and play for them, so that Zhou Muyun can always cut the team to get the injection.

Originally, in the last season of the year of retirement, he still had a private individual competition to play, but on the morning of the day he decided to retire, Zhou Muyun's brother Zhou Jinxi called him and said: "Your Mu Mu is in a very bad state today, she just had a dialysis yesterday, she won't let me tell you, the original 3 dialysis times a week has been added to 5 times a week, and there was a serious immune reaction after the white blood cell transfusion today, she said she couldn't wait."

In the future, the number of dialysis will be more and more frequent, and she does not want to become a burden to the world, nor does she want to be a vampire, if you don't come again, I will agree with her to go to Basel for sodium pentobarbital (euthanasia). ”

Liao Xinyu insisted until Zhou Muyun couldn't wait anymore to end his e-sports career, he was an e-sports overage player, and he persevered until he was 26 years old with perseverance, and he didn't know whether he was trying his best to make more money and use all his strength to keep the other party.

When Liao Xinyu rushed to Switzerland, he had already begun to regret it when he saw Zhou Muyun's pale face without any blood, and he didn't know if he should retire earlier and spend more time with her.

Zhou Muyun shook his head when he saw him: "I don't want you to come to see me like this at this time............"

Liao Xinyu is still so handsome, because other e-sports players have been sitting in front of the computer and keyboard for a long time, their bodies will be more or less fat, and they will have serious beer bellies, how can anyone have a thin waist and long legs like Liao Xinyu? Retire and go directly to be an idol in the entertainment industry?

Zhou Muyun was full of gray hair because of severe kidney failure, she was wearing a wig in front of the live broadcast camera, and when she saw Liao Xinyu, she didn't want to take it off, she looked at Liao Xinyu's thin face and said, "Why don't you eat well?" ”

She knew that Liao Xinyu had eaten like a kitten since he was a child, if he hadn't forced him to drink soy milk every day after knowing her, he would definitely be just a bean sprout in his life, but Liao Xinyu is such a seedling raised in the dry land, and the pampas grass that can be raised with a little watering, who would have thought that such bean sprouts would grow 10 cm a year after drinking soy milk.

Liao Xinyu grabbed the railing on the hospital bed and said, "Anyway, in your eyes, I have a yellow face and thin muscles............ What do you see I've brought you? ”

How can he eat when Zhou Muyun is not in front of him? How could he be embarrassed to say such words that he couldn't think about the day and couldn't sleep at night?

He was afraid that he would not be able to receive a call from Zhou Jinxi at night when he slept too soundly, and Zhou Muyun died in the emergency rescue.

At that time, he was thin and distinct, except for being able to play video games, his body was actually useless and couldn't even lift a bucket of water, he compressed his quality of life to the minimum, and every penny he saved was invested in Zhou Muyun's treatment project.

Zhou Muyun took the longevity charm specially invited by fans from the Nanhai Guanyin Temple, and sniffed it close to the tip of his nose, and a trace of refreshing sandalwood fragrance overflowed.

looked at her hands, withered as thin wood, the back of her hand was connected to the clavicle with a green tendon buried in a catheter needle for venous clavicle puncture injection, and her skin had no luster for a long time, so she was worthy of the other party's love?

She turned her face away from being sad, first sobbed, and then began to twitch irrepressibly, she now, she couldn't even shed tears properly, hoarse pain, but couldn't squeeze out two tears.

Liao Xinyu shook her hand, pinched her hand and asked her to pinch the longevity charm carefully: "When you see me, you still want to squeeze the golden bean?!" Don't cry anymore, don't just ............ me just because I'm your fan."

Zhou Muyun's hand was wrapped in Liao Xinyu's warm palm, and his fingertips gently pinched the small cloth bag, which contained a hard thing, and girls who knew a little bit understood that there was a ring in it.

Zhou Muyun's heartbeat began to accelerate, she shook her hands, carefully took out the ring in the longevity talisman to see, the moment she took it out to see, her heart was half cold, she found that this was not a diamond ring at all, but an emerald ring like a small green jelly bean, if it was on her fingertips, it would definitely be cute.

Zhou Muyun asked with a smile: "What are you...... Coaxing a child!? …………”

The emerald gemstone given to her was like a small green jelly bean, what was this meant to do with her? Comfort her? Have mercy on her? Or do you encourage her?

Liao Xinyu has been deliberately holding this suspense to hang Zhou Muyun, this suspense is like a rope tightly dragging Zhou Muyun's spirit, this is her lifeline, her biggest hope for the rest of her life, if this answer is not revealed one day, she will have to wait day by day.

She really couldn't wait any longer, and at this moment, she accepted her fate.

She looked forward to the stars and the moon and waited for Liao Xinyu to see her, but he sat down solemnly, came, and gave her an emerald jelly bean-like ring, which already said everything, she once thought that even if he was deceiving himself, he was a person who was about to die anyway.

But no matter how coquettish he tried to test him, he endured it, and took out all the savings he had saved to treat her, no matter how she stopped it, her disease was not cured at all, this is fate.

Forget it, if a person loves each other to the bone, this kind of love has already been sublimated beyond the love between men and women, then even if he has no love between men and women with herself, she should admit it.

After all, this guy has not had a clear understanding of his gender since he was born, and it is difficult to say whether he has feelings or not.