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I am a technician in a small machinery factory, and my monthly salary is only 3,000 yuan, which is not bad in a small county. The year before last, my father suddenly fainted, was hospitalized and spent all the family's savings, and sold my marriage house in the county seat, my father finally survived, but he couldn't do heavy work from then on, and he still needed to be taken care of by his mother.

Because of the sale of the house, my wife almost divorced me, I begged hard, and finally my wife relented and followed me back to the countryside, a family of four crammed into three dilapidated old houses, but life has to go on, every day when I get home from work, I try to do all the housework, because I feel ashamed of my parents, but also ashamed of my wife.

This year, the baby was born, which would have been a happy thing, but I couldn't be happier.

My wife can't work while breastfeeding, my father needs to be taken care of, my mother is old, and the children are waiting to be fed, and all the burden of the family falls on me alone, and I only have a salary of 3,000 yuan a month.

Frugal, 3,000 yuan a family can still survive in the countryside, at least not starvation, but never thought that my wife had no milk, when I saw the child crying hungry, I took all the money from the family to the county seat, and bought back a box of Feihe milk powder, although it is likely that there is a problem with domestic milk powder, but I can't afford imported milk powder.

The child finally stopped crying, but the four of us adults were dumbfounded, because the family could no longer open the pot, and in the end, it was the mother who had the cheekiness to borrow a thousand yuan to get by.

That night, after my parents, wife and children slept, I sat alone in the yard crying, I thought about death, because I felt that I couldn't hold on, the salary of 3,000 yuan a month was just enough to buy milk powder for the children, what did the four of us adults eat, I felt that I was a wreck, a wreck that even my parents, wife and children could not support, what was the use of living.

I found a bottle of pesticides, before drinking to the room to see the baby, she seemed to be dreaming, laughed in her sleep, saw her smile, when my tears flowed down, I can't control it at all, you may not understand this mood, I quit the room, took the pesticide and ran to the river to cry all night.

The next morning, when my mother found me, I was already full of gray hair, and my thirty-year-old self had turned gray overnight.

Watching my hair turn white overnight, my mother hugged me and cried, while I had already dried up my tears.

I can't die, if I die, who will take care of my parents and who will raise my baby?

Comforting my crying mother, I slowly helped her home, looking at my white hair, the old father wept, saying that he had no ability, sorry for me, it was better to die early, and the family cried together.

After crying, I adjusted my mood and continued to go to work, because the days still have to go on, but God may really not want to give me a way to live, when I came back from work in the evening, I found that my wife was gone, I began to call her like crazy, but I couldn't get through, until three days later, she sent me a message: "I'm sorry, I can't hold on." "I haven't heard from him since, and it's been almost three months now.

I felt like I was going crazy, I would burn down the old house with a fire, and then the whole family would die together, and I wouldn't have to suffer in this world anymore, but I didn't, I silently endured everything, and now I don't blame the woman.

My mother took care of my father and my baby when I was just a month old, and I began to go crazy looking for all kinds of ways to make money.

So, please readers, fathers, support me, there are two more chapters after work tonight, and at least two chapters a day in the future, I'm kneeling down like this

...... There is also a little red envelope here, please accept it