Stories are deceased, just like deceased people have turned the page. I did think in my mind that I was dead and that the future would be full of joy and luck.

I can't sleep at this point, there are many reasons why I can't sleep, insomnia and cranky thoughts will not be able to sleep, and there is even a kind of being missed, it will be easy to fall asleep, if this reason is estimated to be mistaken for insomnia.

Does anyone miss me? How can anyone miss me in the dead of night? There are so few people who know me, and I'm almost as dispensable as air among the people I know.

So I probably have mild insomnia due to a recent lack of exercise. At this time, the night is extremely quiet, and it is the time to make clear the past.

Even though I already know the reason why I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital for the second time last time, I want to go through it again.

Three years ago, the barber shop opposite my house quit the lease, and then quickly rented it to a mysterious tenant, the year was 2016, I felt bored at home, so I searched for TV series on various video networks on the computer, and it was also that year that "Qingyunzhi" was launched, the protagonist Li Yifeng and Zhao Liying.

Later, "Sparrow" also started broadcasting, in fact, I watched a TV series called "Beautiful Rivers and Mountains Long Song Xing" before, I watched TV series as a person to watch the first episode and feel good and continue to watch it, so I felt that the first episode of the TV series was good-looking and feeling, and the entire TV series would meet my various expectations for the plot of the TV series (including character character, plot, ending, character modeling, suspense points, moving points, Resonance,Some plots can guess the plot of each episode, and it feels particularly boring.,The TV series I like is the kind of TV series that I feel surprised after watching the first episode.,Surprise in the scene of the unearthly beauty of the fairyland,It can be an inaccessible tourist attraction,It can also be a realistic and beautiful wonderland imagined by novelists who are purely late-made,Or it's the kind of primitive or man-made flower sea that really exists like the vast grassland of the ocean.,This gives people a good visual enjoyment.,I will have a feeling of brain excitement.。

Then the character modeling should also be fairy, and it looks like the kind with a sense of story. These two plays, "Qingyunzhi" and "Sparrow", are very good in my heart, and they meet my expectations and needs.

Oops, in fact, when I watched the beautiful country, I felt that the characters in the plot were also very good, so I kept watching it, until I finally saw Yin Lihua's cry, I couldn't help but cry along, and I could especially have a sense of involvement.

Originally, it was nothing, just watching the TV series, but before that year, I had already determined that I wanted to marry Li Yifeng, and I had the idea of wanting to meet him, of course, this idea was just a faint sprout, like a seed buried in the soil and just a little bud emerged, maybe more depressed, I want to go out like those independent and self-reliant people who go out to work, I can earn enough money for travel, at least I can travel poorly or something, this kind of idea is affected by "Tomb Robbery Notes" The influence is very deep, I know that the third uncle of the southern school wrote in the book that as long as unrelated people experience the danger of birth and death, nine deaths and one life, they will be closely linked, and they will become inseparable from each other.

As for why I am depressed, there are many reasons for this, one of which is that I thought that I didn't get admitted to college or even finish high school, which was a failure for people in that era of advocating academic qualifications, even Liu Xiang, who won the world championship, and Yao Ming, who became a star in basketball, continued to go to school because they wanted to make up for the regret of their academic qualifications, and even Jay Chou, who had a very successful career, said: The biggest regret in this life is that I didn't go to college.

And now I find that more and more successful people are very low in education, but they always give people a feeling of high education, because they do not waste time and energy because of school, they step into the society too early, which provides them with a lot of learning space, not only to learn the skills needed for work but also to learn the attitude of life, so their character becomes pure and optimistic, which can ensure that their character is soft enough to survive in this society.

It turns out that experience may really be greater than learning. I can find a lot of benefits about not going to school and not having a degree, like what the third uncle of the southern school said: I can become a pianist by studying piano performance for ten years, I can become a chef in a five-star hotel after studying cooking for ten years, I can make a fortune by learning to do business for ten years, I can become a famous singer after learning singing for ten years, and I have achieved today's achievements after learning writing for ten years, but my life is still so mediocre after learning for ten years.

At that time, I was like most people who worship academic qualifications, because I beat my life to death before I finished high school, and I felt that there was no possibility of any future in this life, and I was destined to be a loser in this life。

Mediocre to chickens, ducks, geese, even a fly is more interesting than me. Just when I felt that life was like this while feeling inferior, I came across the book "Notes on Tomb Robbery" , Attracted by the various never-before-heard tomb robbery legends and deeds in it, I believe that this book has made many people very interested, even if the final ending is not as mysterious as most people think, but a hurried and ordinary ending (the third uncle of the southern school said that this is the best destination he can think of for the characters), even if my mother said that this is not a positive and full of positive energy book, but it has indeed become a stimulant for many people's spirits, it gives readers an extraordinary life full of changes and a story background full of secrets, and many stories involve the last century, the Republic of China, where the Qing Dynasty had just collapsed, there were various warlords and wars, social turmoil, and people ran to avoid warThe people have no means of making a living.

People started the idea of fighting backwards, and in that era there were still cases of warlords robbing tombs, so it didn't matter whether it was illegal or not, as long as they could make money, they thought of any way, which time was not to sacrifice their lives and walk on thin ice?

However, it was such a dark and cruel and dangerous thing that he, the third uncle of the southern faction, wrote so interestingly.

This is related to the character creation, Wu Xie is a small owner of an antique shop with no social experience, opened an antique shop that has not been open for three years and has been open for three years, and these profitable transactions are also under the protection of his third uncle, the fat man is a person who is happy to be like a Maitreya Buddha when everything happens, but after the death of the beloved girl Yuncai, it is like a changed person, and the stuffy oil bottle is a young man who has lived for more than a hundred years, because of his withdrawn personality and excellent skills, he only has a friend of Wu Xie in the world, and silently protects him, but the experience in the tomb is abnormal and terrifying, causing him to have memory disorders and often forget who he is, and often mysteriously disappear and appear mysteriously.

These people with very different personalities are very closely connected because of a Warring States silk brocade. For a secret that four generations have been searching for, he has worked hard to run through the major dangerous tombs.

Mysteries are more fascinating than money, so Jude Kao has spent his life trying to find this secret, the world's ultimate secret.

But what is the truth of the third uncle in the end? burying one mystery after another, more and more mysteries make people wonder what is going on, but the result is very few conjectures to fill the reader's curiosity, and then there are more mysteries.

Perhaps, he himself does not know how to fill the curiosity of his readers. So I made a few cursory strokes of perfunctory, and then continued to bury the mystery.

Perhaps, in his heart, only by constantly burying mysteries can he capture the reader's curious psychology. Thinking about it, maybe I'm too serious, for some particularly good things, film and television dramas and novels are too serious, and the subconscious is a kind of personality that loves fantasy and association, when I combine the film and television drama clips I see with the plot in the novel, and the subconscious really feels that these are all connected, maybe it's too lonely, people's subconscious will always automatically synthesize some pictures in their minds, even if people are experiencing some unfamiliar environments, they will still feel like they have experienced it, which is the role of the subconscious.

The consciousness may not be aware of anything, and the subconscious mind begins to remember all kinds of inadvertent picture plots, and then quietly makes up various versions of new stories, and then quietly transmits them to the conscious memory, until all kinds of nerves feel that this is really happening, so they make various responses, and then the spirit is abnormal.

I think that's how my illness came about. Now that I think about it, this is one of the causes, and Dr. M. Scott Pike said: Once the cause is found, the vast majority of mental and psychiatric illnesses can be cured by 80 percent.

I think I've found a cause. Now I seem to have roughly figured out some of the causes. Some are related to childhood, and some are related to current experiences, but they are inseparable from the overly serious memory of film and television dramas, and they are always too obsessed when they see good film and television dramas.

When I think life is boring when I'm fine, I always want to watch TV or read novels, and I think it's funny.

Why didn't I think my subconscious mind would play this kind of joke on me? It seems that I have to study psychology hard.

Human exploration of oneself is only a very small part, some people say that after a person's full potential is exerted, the result is absolutely unimaginable, may subvert the entire country, the entire earth, and even the entire universe, but most people's lives are ordinary and mediocre, they think that they are ordinary and mediocre, think that those great inventions and discoveries are created by great people, and those great people only know what they want better than them, and use more time and patience than them to work hard in the field they want, so those great people are actually so humble is also the reason, in the eyes of those great peopleThey themselves are just ordinary like a speck of dust, only in a certain moment they found what they love and have been working hard for it, and they are willing to stop working hard to achieve a goal, so they feel that they can succeed to prove that every ordinary person can succeed, because success is too easy for them, and there are more people in this world who are easier to succeed than them.

Just like when someone is envious of his old classmate's soaring career, he will silently think in his heart: When he was a child, he didn't get as good grades as me, and he even copied my test papers in exams, why is the result more brilliant than me now?

So people who want to succeed, as long as they know what they want, do their best, and do their best for the rest. But the book "Secrets" says that as long as you know what you want and imagine what it feels like to have them, and believe that you already have them, you will really have them, and don't think that you will only get what you want if you work hard.

This is to give readers confidence, to make people firmly believe that what they want will be obtained, confidence is half the battle, as long as you believe that you can become what you want to be, then you will definitely be what you want to be.

The story is deceased, and I think that now that I know the cause, I will continue to explore myself, live well, and believe that I will get better and better, and I can only get better.

Of course, there are some other diseases, and I think most of them are caused by this - subconscious associations and fantasies.