I sat down on the ground, I don't know if my tears were dry, or if my heart was dead, but not only did I not have a single tear, but even the tears on my face were dry. I stared at the tightly closed door, which blocked out the sunlight outside, and the sunlight in my heart.

He left, resolutely, without a trace of nostalgia. He was gone, leaving me in a cold darkness. He's gone, and he's taken all my hope with him. I really don't have anything now, no mother, no flywheel, and I'm left to live alone.

It turned out that I was not that important in his heart at all. It turns out that he will lie to me too, so who else in this world can believe it?

I don't know how long I sat on the cold ground until someone opened the door, and when I saw the blinding rays of sunlight that jumped in outside the door, my heart, which had stopped beating at some point, slowly began to beat again.

Let's go, let's go, I'll be left alone, it's good, there will be no more worries, no more hope, no more illusions, no more sadness. Okay, if you don't go, then I'll go by myself. I'm going to get out of here alone, out of this nightmarish place. A person finds a place that no one knows to live, alone tasting the wind, frost, rain and snow, tasting the sunset and the beginning of the month, tasting the ruthlessness of the years, one day I am tired of it, so I sit on a deserted hillside, do not eat or drink, let the natural wind,, no longer add a little trouble to this chaotic world.

"Little Moon girl, why are you sitting on the ground!" It was two people who came in with the sun, and when they saw me, they rushed in and scrambled to help me up.

I looked at them in a trance, "Who are you?" ”

"I'm Youlan, Miss Xiaoyue, don't you even know me?" "I'm Xianghui, Miss Xiaoyue, what's wrong with you?"

"Youlan, Xianghui?" I looked at them stunned, "They're all gone, why don't you leave?" ”

When the two of them saw me like this, they looked at me in horror, and their voices were crying, "Miss Xiaoyue, what's wrong with you!" Don't scare us! ”

I laughed maniacally twice and struggled to break free from their support, "You let me go." ”

They seemed to be frightened by the madness in my eyes, and they couldn't help but let go of my hand. I walked slowly towards the door, the man behind me following me cautiously. I slammed the door open and walked outside like a ghost, until someone blocked my way with a scabbarded saber, "You can't go out, lord. ”

I looked at the guards standing at the door, and shouted angrily, "Get out of here, I'm going out!" ”

The guards also seemed to be taken aback by my appearance, but none of them flinched, "I'm sorry, county lord, you can't go out!" ”

"What if I have to go out!"

"Then we can only ask the county lord to go back."

"Haha!" I laughed so much that tears flowed from my eyes, and now I can't even get out of the door, do they want me to die in this little room? I turned around slowly, and the moment I entered the door, I couldn't hold it anymore and fell to the ground......

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In this way, I was placed under house arrest in this remote compound. I kneel in front of my mother's spiritual seat every day, not wanting to eat, not wanting to sleep, not even wanting to breathe.

These days, except for Princess Yuanhe and Meng Shaoqing, who will come to see me, no one comes to see me, as if I have really been forgotten in this small courtyard. Princess Yuanhe persuaded me a few words at first, but when she saw me like this, she no longer persuaded me, but just sat quietly with me for a while and left silently. Meng Shaoqing often came to see me at the beginning, but then he came less and less, I thought maybe he didn't want to see me anymore, maybe he was busy as an official and didn't have time. For me, it's better if he doesn't come, I really don't want to see him, every time I come I want to drive him away, but I don't even have the strength to drive him away.

I felt that the days were so difficult, kneeling there every day, watching the incense in the incense burner shorten little by little, and turn to ashes little by little. The heart, like the ashes of the incense that has been reduced to ashes, dies in the censer, buried deep underneath by the new ashes.

One morning, I woke up from a dream and watched the warm sunlight shine through the window on my bedside. I suddenly figured out that in this world, there is no one to rely on except myself. When he loves you, he will hold you in the palm of his hand, but if he is ruthless, no matter how good he has been to you and loved you again, his heart will be more ruthless than anyone else.

My mother exchanged her life for my life, why should I waste it, I have to live well for my mother. No one cares about me, it doesn't matter, I still care about myself, and I'll be fine by myself! I'm going to get out of here and live on my own.

From then on, I ate what I should eat, drank what I should drink, slept when I should sleep, and the rest of the time I was thinking about how to escape except for keeping filial piety for my mother.

I haven't been out for a few days, this day my mood calmed down a lot, I want to go out to see, Youlan and Xianghui are very happy to see me return to normal, happily dress me up, afraid that I will be cold and put a thick coat on me, Youlan helped me, Xianghui opened the door for me. I helped Youlan and walked towards the door, and as soon as I walked out of the door, I was stopped by four dedicated guards outside the door, "County Lord, please go back!" ”

I looked at them, not angry at all, but as if chatting, I asked, "Who is the leader of you?" ”

A guard in his twenties stepped forward and saluted me, "Subordinate Guan Hu, may I ask what the county lord commands?" ”

I casually asked, "How many of you are there?" ”

"Back to the county lord, we are a team of ten people! There are 20 people in two teams! ”

"Twenty?" I was secretly surprised, my God, there were twenty of them, did this take care of me like a baby?

I asked quietly, "Why do I only see the four of you?" What are the other people doing, they won't sneak out to play, right? ”

Guan Hu was so frightened that he immediately knelt on the ground, "The county lord is angry, how dare his subordinates derelict their duties." Others, two at the back door, two on the right wall, and two on the left wall. The other team of brothers is resting, and when it's time for a shift, they'll come and take our place. ”

I hurriedly helped him up. "Thank you, brothers. By the way, what about that night, don't you sleep either? ”

Guan Hu hurriedly said, "Thank you for your concern." At night, we also have two teams of guards in rotation. Please rest assured that we will do our best to protect the safety of the county lord and dare not relax in the slightest. ”

"Oh!" I thanked the others one by one, "Brothers have worked hard. ”

The others hurriedly replied, "Thank you for your concern." ”

Although I was grateful on the surface, I was a little crazy in my heart, okay, there were people sent from the four directions of east, west, north and south, how could I escape.

I thought about it for a moment, and then asked, "By the way, who do you people obey?" ”

"We are the Ouchi guards, so we naturally obey the emperor's orders."

"Then what is the emperor's order to you?"