At that moment, Nan Yao only felt that she had sunk into the cold pool, a cool air rushed from the soles of her feet to the top of her head, her scalp was numb, her heart "popped", and she almost didn't hold her mobile phone, she didn't want to believe her eyes at this time.

She leaned back in her seat, closed her eyes and took a deep breath, then opened her eyes and looked at the photos on her phone. The girl in the white dress smiled sweetly at her, and her big eyes were very bright, which made her think of the little swallow that returned to the pearl.

This can't be Gallon's girlfriend, definitely not, Nan Yao clicked the back button and took a second look at the contents. Deep down, she longed very much that this was just his relative or friend, and it would never be his new girlfriend.

But reality gave her a heavy blow, at that moment, Nan Yao felt that the sky was about to fall, and the string of red hearts told her that this was definitely his girlfriend, and in an instant, tears flowed down uncontrollably, and a "pop" sound dripped onto the screen of the mobile phone.

At this time, Nan Yao realized that she was crying, and hurriedly wiped away her tears and peeked at the other people in the car, but fortunately, everyone liked to squint on the bus, and no one noticed her gaffe. She put her phone in her bag, her palms were sweaty, and her heart ached for a while.

yes, it's not like Gallen doesn't want to be in a relationship, he just doesn't want to talk to me. I've finally come to the end of my self-deception, and now I can't lie to myself anymore. The lie has come to an end, it has come to an end, and the truth is standing there waiting for it. But why do I want to expose my lies so much? Why does it hurt me so much to not be able to continue to deceive myself? Nan Yao said to himself in his heart.

It was raining lightly outside, and it was still so hot at the end of August, and the so-called "autumn tiger" was menacing. The wind in the air conditioner above her head was blowing on Nan Yao's forehead, she leaned her head on the glass window coldly, the rain crackled on it, through this thick layer of glass, she really hoped that she could pass through it, let the rain outside the window give her a baptism, so that this obsessive person could break through the last layer of protective film and completely wake up.

When she arrived at the company, Nan Yao went to the bathroom first, sat on the toilet, she bit her lower lip and posted the incident in the group, and after Yihan saw it, he only sent her a hug to the villain. Millet cried out unrelentingly below.

How can that slut do that?

Didn't you say that you weren't in the mood to fall in love for the time being?

Rub, who the hell is this girl, but she does look pretty pretty .

But our Yaoyao is not ugly.

Yaoyao, don't be discouraged, that shit eye is not blessed, you will definitely be able to find a rich and handsome boyfriend in the future.

You must continue to believe in love (crying face).

Why doesn't he go to heaven?

No, the old lady is going to castrate him (angry expression).

......

Nan Yao didn't want to pay attention to Xiaomi's chatter, so he simply covered the phone.

After returning to the office, she didn't know what she was going to do, so she turned on the computer like a dead corpse, logged on to WeChat, and opened her mailbox. Dozens of emails crackled over, and for her as a newcomer to the workplace, it took a lot of effort just to deal with emails every day.

Nan Yao has never forgotten the bloody dog who was scolded by his own project manager because he accidentally sent an email to the general manager because he accidentally crossed the level. The job in front of her was completely different from what she imagined, and when she first came into contact with clinical trials, she chose to be a project coordinator because she didn't want to travel and gave up the CRA because she didn't want to travel.

At first, she thought that she was just collecting documents, but the truth was not, she had a headache with all the trivial chores, and the most important work of collecting documents became a small part of it, and the rest of the time was spent on trivial matters.

Nan Yao once wanted to resign impulsively, but it had only been two months of work, maybe she just hadn't adapted yet, and she always comforted herself like this.

After processing the email, Nan Yao sat there in a daze. The supervisor sat next to him, fortunately there was frosted glass separating her, but Nan Yao didn't even bother to look at her, a wretched direct boss, which made her very unhappy, thinking that everyone in the office one after another slowly became miscellaneous and the little secretary of the project managers, Nan Yao had mixed feelings in her heart.

The supervisor will only verbally tell everyone that they are not obligated to handle personal or additional work for the project manager, but on the other hand, they will imply that everyone needs to do the work that the leader tells them to do, and the leader has his own arrangements for what you want to do. Moreover, those extra things can train them so that they can develop into PMs in the future, which can really be described as painting big and fragrant cakes, and wearing hats high and fancy.

Nan Yao took out her mobile phone and glanced at the circle of friends sent by gallons, still there, like a red-hot iron burned in her heart, she couldn't help but gasp in pain. At that moment, Nan Yao realized that heartache could be a physiological reaction, not just a casual lip service.

She didn't know how she survived this day, she only knew that during the period when her colleagues talked to her, she took it slowly and half a beat, and the donkey's lips were not right, and she had been complained about all day.

When she got home, she didn't want to say anything, and went straight to her room and lay down on the bed. Xiaomi wanted to go over and knock on the door, but Yihan shook his head at her, "Let her calm down." ”

Nan Yao stared straight at the ceiling with her eyes open in a daze, her heart throbbed and throbbed, and her head went blank, as if all her brains had been emptied. The blood in the whole body seemed to be all coagulated together, no longer flowing, and surrounded the heart, and at that moment, the living heart seemed to stop beating.

She trembled and picked up her mobile phone, and flipped through the circle of friends again, the news was still like a poisonous snake arrogantly spitting letters to her, ten years, a whole ten years of love, and finally turned into a puddle of foam, and when the wind blew, there was nothing left.

Nanyao really wants to ask Gal in person and ask what is going on? But looking back, what is the need, the facts are in front of you, there is no doubt, there is no need to do more, lest you end up making yourself embarrassed.

Tears flowed silently down the corners of his eyes to the base of his ears, wetting a few strands of hair on his sideburns. Nan Yao's eyes trembled and blinked, and tears rushed down wantonly......

Yihan stood at the window of her bedroom, with a cigarette in her hand, and the smoke she spit out spread in a circle into the distance, and Nan Yao's incident reminded her of her former self. After pondering for a while, she extinguished the cigarette butt, left the room, stood at the door of Nan Yao's room, hesitated and knocked on the door.

After coming in, seeing Nan Yao lying on the bed in a slump of relief, Yihan had mixed feelings in her heart, she walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, sighed and said: "As long as the hoe is waved well, there is no corner that cannot be dug up, he is not married, even if he is married, grab it, if you want, I can help you." ”

Hearing this, Nan Yao's resurrected eyes lit up, and then she shook her head, her eyes quickly dimmed, she sat up and explained to Yihan: "That kind of love has become sour, without the original purity, even if I get it, I won't be happy." ”

"Pure love is more important to you than getting him?"

Nan Yao nodded with a wry smile, she wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, "I am willing to bless him, and I hope that he can stay with this girl for a long time, and don't give me the slightest chance to speculate, then I will be satisfied." ”

"Now that you've figured it out, why are you crying to make yourself sad?"

"Ten years, I liked him for ten years, it's not like you can let go of it, the long years have tormented me for so long, can't I be sad about it? My tears are worthless, and I should release them as much as I can enjoy rather than holding them in my heart. Nan Yao said with relief.

Yihan shook her head, she thought of what she had thought, it was too far away from Nan Yao, it was important for her to get nothing from the other party, as long as she could be with the other party, even if she lost everything, she was fearless by all means.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but ask: "You don't love him so much, otherwise how would you want him to stay with other girls?" ”

Hearing this, Nan Yao shook his head, and then replied in a firm tone: "You are wrong, precisely because I love him too much, and loving someone should give him freedom." I'm not happy if I tie him down to me, and I don't like to force people, even a little. ”

"Have you ever thought that all you like is him in your memory, in other words the person you fantasize about, I remember you once said that you don't communicate with him very much, so I can understand that you don't know him, right?"

Nan Yao pondered for a moment and nodded. "That's the memory of my whole youth, it's beautiful, maybe God is right not to let us be together, otherwise if this beauty is destroyed in the future, my last bit of love will be deprived, and what fun is there in life."

Hearing this, Yihan's heart "chuckled", Nan Yao's words poked into the depths of her heart, she was thinking, if she had the same idea as Nan Yao at that time, things might not have developed to this point.

She breathed a sigh of relief and said to Nan Yao, "Do you want to know about my past?" ”

"I'd love to be a listener if you were willing to speak."

"Well, it's too late today, and it's a long story, I'll talk to you slowly this weekend if you have time."

Nan Yao nodded, Yihan came over and hugged her gently, touched her hair, and continued with a smile: "You know, I envy you, you can still jump, but mine has long stopped beating here." Yihan pointed to the other party and his own heart as he spoke.

Before leaving, Yihan stood at the door, holding the doorknob with one hand, and suddenly asked, "Yaoyao, has anyone praised you for your good looks?" ”

Nan Yao shook his head and nodded, then sighed and continued to shake his head.

"Your temperament is very special, your temperament is very cold when you don't smile, but when you laugh, the whole appearance is sweet, it's the first time I've seen such a girl." After saying that, Yihan smiled, closed the door and went back to his room.

After Yihan left, Nan Yao sat on the bed in a daze, what she just said to Yihan was what she said in her heart, indeed, she liked Gallon very much, but Gallen didn't choose her in the end, Nan Yao was not angry, she knew that feelings could not be forced, since there was really no possibility between herself and the other party, she had to be able to afford it and let it go, and she couldn't make others laugh if she was bitter.

After making up his mind, Nan Yao breathed a sigh of relief, grinned the corners of his mouth and gave himself a smile, combed the broken hair in front of his forehead with his hands, and then clenched his fists, telling himself in his heart to come on, the future is long, and the broken love in front of him is nothing.

On Saturday, Xiaomi was going on a date with her boyfriend, and she went out early in the morning, so Yihan asked Nan Yao to go to a nearby café to sit down, and just sat down, a familiar figure appeared on the opposite side......