Chapter 114: The Difference Between Like and Love
Feng Nansheng sighed, put the chess pieces into the box, and his expression was indescribably gloomy, "Yin Huan, if you really miss him, go find him." ”
He didn't know how to comfort her, and he could only give her the most intuitive advice.
Yin Huan was picking up chess pieces, and was stunned when he heard his words, the chess pieces inadvertently rolled off his hands, and the chess pieces rolled on the ground for a long time before they ticked......
"That." Yin Huan raised her head, Feng Nansheng's eyes still made her sad, and she was even a little reluctant to hurt this poor man.
He didn't even want a home for her, but she was thinking about another person who was extremely important to her life all the time.
"Huanhuan, you don't have to say sorry to me, what I did to you is because I like you, since you love him, then let go of love, fight hard, you should have your own happiness." Although he was laughing when he said this, he could also feel his pain and soreness.
"Nansheng, I'm sorry for you, I really want you to be happy, if you want to go home, I can go to Osli and start the machine that reverses time and space......" She bit her lip, a little overwhelmed.
After all, it has reached such a point, there is no need to hide it, and it may be a good thing to admit it generously.
"Yin Huan, I stayed for you, but the bigger reason I stayed was that I wanted to find a better person, so you don't have to be sad or anything, you're not wrong at all."
Yin Huan didn't know what to do, her lips were biting, and she still looked at him so quietly.
She knew that she and Cang Rinchen were not wrong, after all, there was no fairness in the world of feelings, it was all what you and I wanted, but every time she saw him, in addition to her mood, she felt guilty.
She had never seen a man who was as gentle as jade than him, he was so dust-free, and Yin Huan hoped in her heart that he could find a more suitable woman for him, so that she wouldn't have to carry anything.
At the end of the day, she herself felt selfish.
"Yin Huan, we are friends, you don't have to hide from me, I won't trouble you anymore." He used his slender fingers to pick up the chess pieces one by one, and his expression did not change at all.
"From the first day I met you, I knew that your feelings for me were very special, but I knew that you were special to me, just between friends, there was no such relationship, in the final analysis, I have always imagined you as my ex-girlfriend, and I have been deceiving myself in my heart."
Yin Huan hooked the corners of her mouth helplessly, because she didn't know how to persuade him, there were always many selfish people in her relationship, and she was just one of them.
"Yin Huan, I think I should be stronger, if I can be more decisive, maybe the person who is by your side at this moment will not be him......"
"Nansheng, in fact, the relationship is already doomed many times, it's not you and I can have the final say." Yin Huan sighed, she couldn't control her heart after all.
"Yin Huan, no matter if I give you a box or not, you have decided in your heart that you want to stay by his side and accompany him all the time, right?"
"I ......" Yin Huan was silent and didn't speak, in fact, the answer should have been predestined.
She didn't know what to say, she had a shock in her heart when she got those things, but the shock was only a second before it was back to square one.
Feng Nansheng saw her tangled expression, and suddenly understood, "Yin Huan, it's me who is reluctant, love will not change because of anything, love has no cause and effect, right?" ”
If Yin Huan's heart can really change, then when he sacrifices his life to save her, or when he gives her the box, her mind has already changed.
Yin Huan lowered her head and didn't know how to face it, she took a few deep breaths and met him with a sour smile, "Nansheng, I beg you, you don't want to be like this, I feel very distressed when I see you, please." ”
The corners of Feng Nansheng's mouth hooked, "Yin Huan, in fact, from the moment you chose to stay, I have already decided to start giving up my feelings for you, so don't be afraid, I hope you and Cang Linchen can grow old together, and you don't have to avoid me at all." ”
Yin Huan looked embarrassed, she didn't avoid him, but he didn't want to see him, right?
"Nansheng, I said, you must have a more suitable woman for you." Yin Huan really blessed him, not any perfunctory at all.
"Okay, I'm going to try to find the woman I like now, and if I meet someone like you, I won't let go this time." His smile was very bleak, making Yin Huan feel that she was about to lose her.
She breathed hard and let out a tentative voice, "You're going to treat me as a friend, aren't you?" ”
She pursed her lips and raised her head, she also knew that she was going too far, she already had someone she liked, but she still expected another man to never abandon her, although she knew that Feng Nansheng would not refuse whatever she said.
Feng Nansheng pursed his lips, "Yin Huan, I said that as long as you need me, I will definitely be by your side at any time, unless you don't need me, I will disappear immediately." ”
She didn't know what kind of word it was, since she came to ancient times, she found that she had harmed the feelings of too many people, and became their fate of thousands of people who could not be parted, she hated herself like this, gave too many people hope, and finally gave them heavy disappointments.
"Okay, Yin Huan, don't think too much, if I have any news about the battle ahead, I will inform you as soon as possible......" Feng Nansheng finished speaking, and buckled the box of the chess pieces.
"I'll send you?" Yin Huan asked tentatively, she originally called him today, she wanted to ask to see if she could use modern technology on the ancient battlefield, but she didn't expect to see his sad and sad expression.
She began to feel a deep sense of guilt, and felt that she shouldn't have done this, so it was better to keep these things for him to digest slowly.
The two of them walked to the door of Fengqi Palace, Feng Nansheng smiled lightly and said, "Yin Huan, you go back, my carriage is at the door." He didn't want her to give him any illusions, he wanted to cut off all thoughts about her.
"Then be careful." Yin Huan returned to the room after speaking.
Feng Nansheng watched her disappear out of his sight before slowly leaving, but he knew very well in his heart that his love for Yin Huan could not be taken back at all.
Feng Nansheng came to see Yin Huan again on the second day, and Ye Xinghuan said that the battle ahead was anxious, and he was worried that Cang Linchen would be in danger at the border, so he decided to let him go.
Yin Huan frowned, looking at the inexplicable tightness in his heart, "Why are you going too?" Who did you go to the imperial court? Is there really that tension ahead? ”
He thought for a while, nodded and said, "King Jing is in the court, not to mention that there are prime ministers and others in the court, although the war ahead is anxious, but there is news that Yan Zhao and other countries are ready to move, King Jing is worried that the emperor is in danger, Yin Huan, you are waiting for our news in the palace alone, and we will notify you immediately if there is news." ”
Yin Huan was stunned for a moment, and she didn't know how to open her lips, what should I do? Is there really that much danger ahead? She wanted to say that she would go with her, but she ......
The words came to his lips, and at the end there were only four words, "Be careful all the way." ”
She didn't know what's wrong, Feng Nansheng suddenly wanted to go to the border with her? Is it because he is avoiding her? Or is it really that the battle ahead? She couldn't do anything now but pray silently, hoping that they would all return safely and soon.
"Yin Huan, don't worry, I will definitely protect the person you love on this trip." Feng Nansheng looked up at Yin Huan, she was a beautiful woman he would always love, so he also had to protect her most beloved man.
"Thank you." Yin Huan avoided it as much as possible, she didn't want Nan Sheng to bear anything for her, but in the end she still caused trouble for him.
It's all her fault.
"Yin Huan." Feng Nansheng suddenly walked towards her, her heart tightened, but he leaned down slightly and tapped lightly on her forehead.
Yin Huan didn't refuse him, but he was shocked by him, and he also understood that he wanted to say goodbye to her forever, right?
While she was still stunned, he said softly, "Huanhuan, you must live a happy life, happier than anyone else, this is my greatest wish." ”
After speaking, he didn't wait for Yin Huan to say anything, he ran away directly.
"Feng ......" Yin Huan originally wanted to call him, but in the end she didn't know what to say, she could only watch him leave, she couldn't save his loneliness, why did she provoke him?
She sat in the Fengqi Palace, in a daze under the sycamore tree, Cang Linchen was gone, Feng Nansheng was also gone, even Su Meisheng, who was the noisiest on weekdays, left, Ye Xinghuan was so busy, she was the only one left......
What should she do? She didn't want to be like this, waiting here day by day for the situation ahead, she didn't want to be so scared, but she ......
It was as if angels and demons lived inside, and they were negotiating at the moment, and her heart was extremely anxious.
Just when she was still worrying about what to do, a small paw grabbed her leg, and she lowered her head to see that it was Youdu crawling on top of her, and it looked like a dusty ......
Yin Huan smiled and hugged him, only to see him frowning and obviously displeased, "Queen Mother, Du'er has been standing here for a long time, why don't you ignore you for so long, what are you thinking?" He looked dissatisfied, his voice was hoarse, she ignored herself, if she hadn't done it herself, she probably hadn't come back to her senses.
Yin Huan let her sit on top of him and pinch his nose, "When did you come?" Isn't it class today? Why did you get out of school so early. ”
He shook his neck and groaned, "Queen Mother, it's past noon now, I've been out of school for a while, and I saw Uncle Feng hugging you." ”
When Yin Huan heard him say this, his eyes widened, "Don't talk nonsense, the queen mother and your Uncle Feng have nothing to do, don't talk nonsense." ”
She suddenly froze and explained something to her bastard son? He doesn't understand anything about the love between men and women, and the more he explains, the more confused it becomes.
"I haven't asked you yet, and you said? You say that this is not a ghost in the heart? His eyes narrowed, as if he had caught something.
"......" Yin Huan knocked a chestnut on his head, "Your mother is an adult, what the hell is there?" Don't pretend to understand if you don't understand, you know? ”
"Who said I didn't understand." He covered his head and looked unconvinced, "Don't think I don't know, Uncle Feng also likes you, I heard Su Ya say it last time." ”
Yin Huan was stunned for a moment, shook Youdu in her arms, and said with a smile, "Su Ya is still so young, how does she know what love is and what love is, don't spoil her with you, little bastard." ”
"Hmph, I don't." He twisted his neck, "Uncle Feng's love for you is the kind of love between men and women, he also hugged you, and talked to you so gently, Du'er was not mistaken." ”