I was very sad when I heard this, why did you say such a thing, why did you embarrass me like this, what do I want your life for, I don't even want my own life. If it weren't for the flywheel, I wouldn't know what the point of my life would be.

I lowered my head, and tears fell the moment I bowed my head, dripping onto the quilt. "You know I won't. Do you want to make me feel uncomfortable when you say such things? ”

He took a deep breath and pulled my hand hard, my hand hurt, and looked up at him, his face became hazy and distant in my tears.

"You say I want to make you uncomfortable? How willing I am to make you uncomfortable. He looked at me steadily, a sneer appeared at the corner of his mouth, and there seemed to be a little more anger in his eyes, but it was soon covered by sadness, "You are hurt, you know how worried I am about you, how scared I am that you will leave me." But you, who treat me like an enemy, and now drive me away, do you know how uncomfortable I feel in my heart? ”

"I didn't make you an enemy, and I didn't blame you. I admit that I was a little angry with you at first, but then I also figured it out, I shouldn't blame you, and I don't have the right to blame you, from the beginning you let us leave the capital, we had to stay, and we can only blame ourselves. ”

"If you don't blame me, why do you want me to leave? I just want to stay and protect you, am I so lowly, do you still trample on my heart? ”

My heart ached, "Why are you bothering here?" You have a noble status, there are so many good girls in the world, why do you want to look at me as a good-for-nothing person. It's that I'm not worthy of you. ”

"yes, why? Why should I like you? He was stunned, his eyes showed a blank look, and the hand that had been holding me tightly let go at this time. He seemed to think of something, and those melancholy eyes brightened, but gradually dimmed for a moment, "Those countless dark and cold days, how difficult and desperate, you know? At that time, every day was so long for me, and there was no difference between day and night for me. Therefore, the warm rays of sunshine that day warmed my frozen and barren heart. Perhaps, I care too much, too much to hope for that little bit of warmth. So, the more you care, the more you can't get it, right? Am I really wrong, I really shouldn't have had extravagant expectations. His voice grew lower and lower, until finally he muttered to himself.

I couldn't cry, tears were like beads with broken threads, strings flowed down, you are not wrong, it is me who is wrong, if I was not so willful and had to come to the capital, you would not know me, and you would not be so sad. Mother, she won't come to the capital to find me, and she won't die.

I pounded my head hard, "It's all my fault!" It's all my fault! It's me damn it! It's me damn it! ”

He immediately grabbed my wrist and said in a panic: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, don't blame yourself anymore." He gently wiped my tears for me and comforted me softly: "I won't say it, don't cry, don't cry, okay?" ”

My tears seemed to burst, and the more I wiped them, I took his hand away, "What are you wrong, I just want to cry because I want to cry, and it has nothing to do with you." Do you know? I don't like myself at all, I wish I was dead, but I'm still alive. I know I can't die, and I don't have the face to see my mother when I'm dead. ”

He looked at me, with a sad gaze that seemed to have deep pity and deep helplessness, and he carefully wiped his tears for me with his sleeve, sighed, but said nothing.

My mood slowly calmed down, "You are the prince, and I am just an ordinary person, we should not have intersected." From the very beginning when we got involved with you royals, we were destined to have no good results, and we were destined to become victims of your struggle. So, I don't blame you, it's our life. I let you go, I just don't want to have anything to do with you royalty anymore. Do you understand? As long as we stay in the capital for one day, we will not have a day of peace. Sooner or later, we'll die here. You're right, this is not ours! ”

He seemed to be crushed all at once, and his expression was a little depressed, "I understand, you are afraid." You are afraid of these dark and filthy things, you are afraid of these never-ending battles, you are afraid of these calculations that do not compromise on all means. ”

"Yes!"

"I said I could give up everything."

"Give up everything, can you give up your memories? Can you forget everything? Even if you can forget, I can't. I can't forget the way Flying Rain looked when he left, and I can't forget what Sheng Zitang said to me. I can't forget my mother. ”

This sentence seemed to hit him deeply, and his face was a little pale, and he sat there in silence. He was silent for a long time before he muttered, "I understand." Okay, I'll go. ”

I whispered, "I'm sorry! "I don't know what to say to him other than to say that.

"But, I'm gone, what if someone hurts you again?"

"There won't be any more. No matter what, this is also the eldest princess's mansion, if something like this happens, they will definitely strengthen their vigilance, check the mansion, and will not let the murderers get in again. I also heard from Youlan that the emperor sent a team of royal guards to protect the princess's mansion. And ......," I paused, hesitated a little, and after thinking about it, I said it ruthlessly, "and if someone really wants to harm me, it will be impossible to prevent it." Even if you're here, you won't be able to protect me, will you? ”

After saying that, I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at him again, I knew that what I said would definitely break his heart.

When he heard this, he immediately looked up at me, and the sound of his breathing seemed to stop, and I still kept my head down, not daring to look at him.

He slowly lowered his head again, was silent for a long time, and finally said, "I understand, although you say that you don't blame me, you still blame me in your heart, don't you?" ”

I looked at him and shook my head slightly, "I don't blame you. ”

"You should blame me, you should blame me, I brought disaster to you, and I didn't have the ability to protect you." He looked at me, his eyes were a little red, as if something was flashing in his eyes, he took a deep breath, nodded, and said, "Okay, I'll go!" ”

With that, he immediately stood up, turned and walked out, and then I heard the door creak open, and he went out, and closed the door again, and closed it outside, without hesitation, nor looking back at me. The moment the door was shut, there was a soft knock, obviously very light, but it made my heart tremble.

It took me a long time to come back to my senses, but I didn't expect him to leave so simply, which really surprised me, but at the same time I was relieved.

I knew my words, it hurt his heart, and he was angry with me. I smiled bitterly in my heart, it's okay like this, if you hate me, it's better than pestering me all the time.

I sighed, got up from the bed, and planned to go back to the filial piety of my mother. As soon as I stood up, I heard Qin Yichang muttering to himself outside the door, and my heart tightened, he actually didn't leave.

"If my departure can exchange your peace in this life, then I am willing to leave, and I will not appear in front of you again in the future. Goodbye, Satsuki! I hope you are safe in this life. After these words were spoken, there was a sound of footsteps that were very light and light, but very heavy and heavy.

My tears flowed down all of a sudden, and my heart was barren, Luo Luo, why do you want to be like this, I have done this to you, why don't you hate me, why do you still think about me.

I held on to the table and slowly moved outward, feeling as if I was standing on the top of a misty mountain, spreading my wings and flying down towards the earth, the scenery in front of me was constantly changing, and suddenly it was dark in front of me, and I fainted.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw a familiar face.