"Madara! What's going on here? Cat Xiaoxian stared at the computer screen, which was also blurry, and she had to raise her head to look at the spotted ...... leaning against the wall ybdu。

"Just like you can see!" Madara laughed.

"You have ...... Mental illness? Mao Xiaoxian looked at Madara cautiously, and when she said the last four words, her voice became quieter, but fortunately the room was silent.

"Yes! And have already given up on treatment! Madara played with the soul wand in his hand and said nonchalantly.

"It's not funny at all!" Cat Xiaoxian stared at Madara, not believing it, she had followed Madara for seventeen years, although Madara was indeed strange at times, but it was not like a psychopath.

She knew that the memory of Qin Shi in Madara's brain should be a very painful thing, but she never dreamed that Qin Shi would have a mental illness, but she didn't know if Yan was serious.

"It's not a mental illness, just read it!" The spotted face is lowered and the expression is calm.

"Why can't I see the handwriting on the form?" The cat fairy was surprised.

"It's just a fragment of my memory, there are many things that I can't remember clearly, such as the problems on the table, only the things that I can remember will appear in front of our eyes." Madara laughed.

"But......" Cat Xiaoxian was a little surprised, and glanced around, if Madara didn't remember something, why this room was so real.

"This memory has been hidden in my heart for twenty-three years, and when I pulled it out, I had already sorted out the memory fragments, so you see, in order to add some atmosphere, this room was just added by me." Madara seemed to see the confusion of the cat fairy and explained with a smile.

The cat fairy was silent. Staring at Qin Shi, Qin Shi at this time lowered his head and looked a little nervous.

"Mr. Qin. Your problem is serious, and now that I can be sure that you have a personality disorder, and not just one, I recommend that you be hospitalized immediately and have your brain checked for damage! The middle-aged female doctor raised her head and stared at Qin Shi with a serious gaze.

"What is a personality disorder?" Qin Shi asked confusedly.

"Personality disorder is simply a way of doing things that are completely contrary to normal people. There are many types, and at the moment you should have schizotypal, borderline, and performative types, and I can't conclude the rest yet. I need to meet your parents. The middle-aged female doctor said solemnly.

"I'm afraid not, I don't have a family!" Qin Shi's hands on his knees clenched slightly.

"Mr. Qin, this is related to your future life, if you are embarrassed to say it. Could you please give me my contact information. I'm going to contact them, if you don't treat it now, the condition will only get worse. The middle-aged female doctor looked at him very seriously, she thought that Qin Shi didn't want to be known by his family.

"Is it expensive?" Qin Shi asked in a low voice.

"Your situation is very special, multiple personality disorder is rare, you still have a big mental problem, I need to communicate with your loved ones and understand something!" The middle-aged female doctor stared at Qin Shi.

Qin Shi fell silent. After a moment, he whispered, "Thank you!" I'll think about it. Please give me a certificate, I want to buy some sleeping pills. ”

"Mr. Qin, you are very mentally unstable now, I can't prescribe it for you," the middle-aged female doctor said solemnly.

"I'm not going to kill myself!" A smile appeared on Qin Shi's face.

"Mr. Qin, sleeping pills can't solve any problems, they will only make you more painful, you are not ordinary insomnia, you don't have psychological pressure, personality disorder is not mental illness, it has a lot to do with people's growth environment, if you want treatment, I hope we can talk about it seriously and find the root of the problem." The middle-aged female doctor leaned back in her chair and said calmly.

"I'm ......" Qin Shi's lips trembled, he was silent for a moment, got up from his chair, and didn't say anything.

"Mr. Qin, I'm a doctor, no matter what your past is, I won't tell anyone." The middle-aged female doctor sighed when she saw Qin Shi walking towards the door.

"Excuse me!" Qin Shi's thin back trembled slightly, and he whispered a word in his mouth, pushing open the door of the house.

The cat fairy was about to speak, when suddenly the room shook violently, everything began to blur and disappear like smoke, and the cat fairy felt herself fall into a black vortex, sucking her in.

"Madara!" The cat fairy shouted in fright, the world spun around, and when she opened her eyes, the scene had changed again, and it was no longer a hospital.

A road, the sky was dark, the street was empty, the street lamps illuminated the road, Qin Shi stood on the side of the road, looking at the house opposite with his eyes intently.

It was a restaurant, the room was brightly lit, and there were many people sitting at the table in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, eating hotly, but the faces were also difficult to see.

Time seemed to freeze at this moment, Qin Shi was motionless, just looked at it, he didn't shed a single tear, his eyes were calm and terrifying, maybe he had experienced too many things, and the tears dried up.

Madara stood beside Qin Shi and watched with him, the expressions of the two overlapped at this moment, although Qin Shi was Madara, but Mao Xiaoxian always felt that the difference between the world and the world between these two people, when she was in the hospital, she knew that Qin Shi was Madara's previous memory, but she still felt that they were two people, and now Mao Xiaoxian found that they were still very similar.

"Fairy, it's time for us to go!" Madara closes his eyes, and the cat fairy falls into his arms.

Cat Xiaoxian felt that she was rising into the air, the street disappeared, and the surroundings were pitch black, like a long and narrow tunnel, Mao Xiaoxian's eyes lit up, and she had returned to the secret base of the wallpaper, and there was still a stone basin on the table, but Mao Xiaoxian didn't care about the meditation basin, her big green eyes stared at Madara, and she was worried and blamed herself, if it weren't for her, Madara wouldn't have experienced the pain she had experienced again.

"I'm sorry! I'll never ask you about the past again! Seeing that Madara didn't speak, Cat Xiaoxian hurriedly apologized, compared to the curiosity in her heart, she didn't want Madara to recall bad things.

"You're not wrong, and didn't we say okay and stop saying we're sorry!" Madara said softly.

"If I don't ask you ......, you won't pull out your memories!" Cat Xiaoxian was just about to say the betrayer. Hurriedly jumped over.

Madara placed the cat fairy on the table, and the soul wand pressed against her temple, pulling out some more silver substance. Place in a meditation basin.

Mao Xiaoxian was a little surprised, but he was still happy in his heart, Madara's past memories would only bring him pain, so it was better to give it up.

Madara placed the meditation basin in a cabinet, and pressed the door with his palm, and black tadpole runes suddenly spread from his palm, quickly enveloping the entire cabinet. Three magatama appeared in the middle of the cabinet door.

Uchiha Seal!

"Let it pass!" Madara saw the surprised cat fairy, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and he hugged her and left the wallpaper secret base.

One man and one cat returned to the cabin. Mao Xiaoxian put away the wallpaper secret base, saw Madara take off his pajamas, put on a suit on the side, and asked in surprise, "Why are you going?" ”

"Peter is locked up at Hogwarts. I'm a little uneasy. Go out and see, you go to sleep first! Madara put on his suit, changed into leather shoes, and a transparent vortex appeared on his body, leaving the Kamui space.

"Madara!" The cat fairy murmured, lay on the bed, looked at the pillow next to her, and felt empty inside. Madara made her understand something, but she was even more confused.

Is Madara in good spirits now? Who exactly is the betrayer? According to the doctor's words. Madara's mental problems have a lot to do with the environment in which he grew up, what terrible things he has experienced before.

These cat fairies want to know, but she will never ask Madara about her past life again.

At the top of the Hogwarts tower, a man sat quietly on the edge of the stone, staring at the horizon with his eyes as if he had penetrated the starry sky and seen the other side of the Milky Way.

Madara didn't go looking for anything Peter, he wanted to come out to breathe, and he was afraid that Cat Xiaoxian would worry, so he found a reason.

"Sure enough, the hardest thing in the world is to forget!" Madara sighed, he didn't erase his memories, the memories he had just put into the meditation basin were just some inconsequential things, and he didn't pull out the memories of his past lives.

When he was still Qin, he just felt that he was different from normal people, but at that time he didn't know what it was, and then for a while, he had mental problems and couldn't sleep every day, he thought he had depression and wanted to go to the doctor to prescribe some sleeping pills, but he unexpectedly knew that he had a personality disorder, whether it was the first time he saw Mao Xiaoxian, or now, his personality disorder has not disappeared.

Personality disorder can be explained as a person's personality problem, as for what the problem is, it also needs to see what kind of personality it is, for example, schizotypal personality disorder, always arrogant, and easy to produce a sense of shame and shame, such people suffer from schizophrenia much higher than others.

There are many other types of personality disorders, such as histriative, narcissistic, borderline, paranoid, and severely violent, and very dangerous antisocial personality disorder, which does not interfere with normal life if it is not a more intense personality disorder.

Drugs for this disease can only play a certain auxiliary or inhibitory role, and there is no drug that can cure personality disorders.

If through the counseling of a psychologist, untie the knot, may return to normal, many people's personality disorders accompany a lifetime, this disease may be hereditary, but most of them are related to past experiences, among which childhood life experience has a very great impact on personality, parental education, school growth, these are the main factors in the formation of personality disorders.

A child is like a blank piece of paper, whatever color you want to dye him, he is.

Personality disorders may not be serious at first, but the unhealthy tendencies, money worship and other unreasonable social phenomena and distorted values in society aggravate the formation of personality disorders.

"Xiaoxian, you already know my secret, what is hidden in your heart?" Madara sighed, he originally wanted to use the meditation basin to erase some memories, so that his personality disorder might really be better, but in the end he gave up, because he found that no matter what he was, he was unique, so no matter what the future holds, he would never erase the memories of the past, even if the pain tormented him, even if it really broke out one day, it was an inevitable thing, there was nothing in this world that could be turned back.

Even if you have a time machine that changes the past, what happened in the past still happens, so people want to change.

I look back on the past, look at all the painful times, and feel that the painful days are the most valuable days of my life, because those countless days and nights have shaped me into who I am today. (To be continued......)

PS: Thanks to 'Lyich' and 'Initial Starch' for the tips!