Professor Zheng was putting the leather shoes he had changed into the shoe cabinet, and when he heard Zhang Nanyan come out, he looked up and smiled at her gently.

"Xiao Zhang, how are you doing today? Is it still going well? ”

Zhang Nanyan felt like a world away, in front of her, the lights were warm, the living room was tidy, and the male host was elegant and gentle, this is the happy life that people work hard to pursue.

But the chill on her back had not yet dissipated, and through a door, it was a woman's island.

Professor Zheng smiled gently and asked gently, it seemed that he was still as elegant as usual, but after hearing his heavy steps and silent pause at the door of the house, Zhang Nanyan seemed to peek at the tiredness and helplessness behind this gentleness.

She understood the meaning of Mrs. Zheng's "don't tell him", not only not to tell Professor Zheng about Mrs. Zheng's attempt to commit suicide and crazy hurting people, but also not to let him know that the illusion of peace he had painstakingly disguised had long been understood.

"Madam, she ......" Zhang Nanyan lowered her head, let her hair cover her face, and put one hand in front of her forehead.

"What's wrong with her?" Professor Zheng immediately asked anxiously.

Zhang Nanyan was about to speak, but she remembered Xia Baiping's request, but she changed when the words came to her mouth.

"Madame didn't eat, I'm sorry, I didn't do well." Zhang Nanyan said quickly.

Professor Zheng immediately breathed a sigh of relief, smiled and said, "It's okay, she doesn't like to eat when she is eating, and it is useless to persuade anyone." ”

"That'...... I'll go first......"

Zhang Nanyan was anxious and hurriedly said goodbye and left.

After running downstairs in one go, she couldn't help but glance back at the bedroom window.

The window was closed tightly, and when she closed the window in the afternoon, she deliberately locked the bolt and pushed it hard a few times to make sure it was firmly locked.

Curtains draped over the windows, illuminated by the bedroom lights.

I don't know why, Zhang Nanyan always felt that behind the curtain was a face like ashes.

She suddenly thought that this morning, the youthful Li Chunxiao happily followed Professor Zheng's side, her smile was delicate, her figure was charming, and every look and every movement showed her admiration for Professor Zheng.

And Mrs. Zheng, maybe she was behind the window at the time, she watched this scene, she listened to the sound of the young and beautiful girl's unbridled high heels, entangled in her husband's side, maybe it was this scene that stimulated her! Middle-aged women who have lost their youth, lost their beauty, and lost their ability to move look at this scene, powerless, angry, resentful, vicious, cursed, or hopeless?

Zhang Nanyan shuddered violently, and Mrs. Zheng's face covered in messy hair appeared in Zhang Nanyan's mind, and the hysterical curse pierced her eardrums.

Zhang Nanyan took a step back abruptly, not daring to look at the bedroom window again, she turned around and fled.

Zhang Nanyan had a dream all night, she dreamed that she was still living in a poor and dilapidated small mountain village, and dreamed that her father beat her mother with a broom, and her mother was still crying and begging just now, and the next moment she cursed Zhang Nanyan with her hands on her waist and her hair scattered. She walked into the dark adobe house in fear, so dark and so clammy and cold, she couldn't walk to the end, in the darkness, stretched out a pair of shriveled hands, pinched her body fiercely, she wanted to run, but her legs seemed to be filled with lead, and they were nailed to the ground. At the door of the house, my brother was laughing proudly.

The father savagely roared: "I will feed you, and you can fight as much as you want!" No one dares to care if they are killed! ”

The mother cursed viciously: "The woman is a money-loser, she will only waste food and it is better to raise a pig!" ”

Grandma laughed silently, and the air squeezed out of her shriveled mouth like a tattered bellows: "Xiaoxiong, she is your child daughter-in-law." ”

The young brother babbled on her back, the young brother ran and shouted beside her, the adult brother was like a wall and condescendingly persecuted, and the immature voice, arrogant voice, and domineering voice were all shouting in her ear: "Child daughter-in-law, child daughter-in-law!" ”

Black thunder exploded overhead, and snow-white lightning tore through the darkness for a moment. The mother, covered in wounds, held a pesticide bottle in her hand and trembled to her mouth...... The person who drank the pesticide suddenly became her, the strong and spicy pesticide smell was getting closer and closer to her, she wanted to struggle, but the thick darkness made her afraid and tired, so I wanted to drink it and give up and it would never work hard......

Zhang Nanyan woke up suddenly, her heart twitched violently, and after a few seconds of blankness, the air slowly inhaled into her chest, and her consciousness gradually recovered.

She sat up, raised her hand and touched her neck, it was wet, and then touched her face, only to realize that the palm of her hand was full of tears.

Zhang Nanyan finished washing up step by step.

When it was time to go to work, she hesitated.

She was so scared.

But on the other hand, she deeply sympathized with Mrs. Zheng, and she felt the despair.

Moreover, her situation forced her to have a job to support herself, which did not allow her to escape and retreat.

She could only continue to go to Professor Zheng's house to work as a nanny.

She walked across the campus to the Faculty Family Building.

The campus is full of college students, and the basketball court is very lively early in the morning, and many male and female students are busy hanging banners.

Zhang Nanyan didn't have the heart to watch the excitement and walked alone.

There was a big, fat white cat lying in the grass by the side of the path, and the sound of footsteps disturbed its purity, and it opened its mouth wide and yawned greatly, but slowly stood up, glanced at the platform not far away, and saw which reckless fellow disturbed the dream.

It's definitely a good day, and the sun is shining early in the morning. The white cat squinted and glanced at it, intending to turn and walk away, but it stopped and lazily watched the "poor ghost" approach.

This "poor ghost", every time I see her, she looks pitiful, so weak and mournful, can she find food to feed herself?

The white cat purred in its throat, like a helpless sigh.

Zhang Nanyan walked low, and suddenly saw a big white and fat cat standing by the grass not far away.

"It's you!" Zhang Nanyan exclaimed in surprise.

She hadn't seen a white cat for a long time, when she was working in the canteen, she was grateful for the white cat's company in her difficult time, she wanted to feed the white cat the rest of the food in the canteen, but unfortunately, the white cat was like a hermit hero, the dragon saw the head and the tail, and couldn't find it, Zhang Nanyan had to give up.

Unexpectedly, at this time, I saw it again!

Zhang Nanyan looked at the white cat: "It seems that your life is very good." ”

The white cat also looked at Zhang Nanyan, "Look at your miserable appearance, you are so thin, you will starve yourself to death sooner or later!" ”

Zhang Nanyan was about to run over.

"Xiaoyan!"

A youthful shout sounded, stopping Zhang Nanyan's footsteps.