Later, after I agreed to Miss Qin, I began to slowly distance myself from him, at first he came to me a few times, he didn't understand why I suddenly snubbed him, he said a lot of good things to me, wanted to save me, I still stubbornly ignored him. Later, he probably thought I had changed my mind...... And then, they got married. Xiao Zilan's expression was stunned.

Su Yue can somewhat understand her current mood.

Even the current Xiao Zilan has reconciled with the goblin's father and lived together.

But something that was once lost is gone.

Especially, the sense of loss that a woman feels in her best years without her favorite person by her side.

"On the day of their wedding, they didn't send me an invitation, but I still went, didn't tell anyone, just hid behind the crowd alone, watching the crowd make a noise, watching them kiss in public, I thought with tears in my eyes, what if the person standing in the bride's place was me?"

It's a pity that there are no ifs.

What about Fluttershy? Didn't you say that Fluttershy is your own daughter? Su Yue wondered.

If the goblin's father married that Miss Qin, even if he passed away within a few years, Xiao Zilan reunited with the goblin's father, and gave birth to a goblin at this time, then the goblin is definitely less than fifteen or sixteen years old now.

Naturally, it should be smaller.

Besides, if the little goblin was really raised by Xiao Zilan, how could she think that Xiao Zilan was her vicious stepmother?

Generally, children can have their own judgment on the subjective situation, at least at the age of five or six years old.

In other words, the goblin must grow up to at least five or six years old before he can distinguish the concept of a real mother and a stepmother.

Before the age of five or six, she only knew that there was such a person who was always by her side, and as for the meaning of the title of parents, the children may not necessarily know it.

Suddenly, Su Yue suddenly thought of a possibility, and then his gaze fell on Xiao Zilan's face, "Could it be ......?"

Xiao Zilan smiled bitterly and sighed softly, "You're right...... By the time they got married, I was already having a reaction in the first trimester, which means that I was already pregnant......"

Su Yue was slightly stunned, and then relieved.

Although it is said that the mind was not so open-minded at that time.

But for two young men and women who both already have the idea of getting married, it is natural for them to have a relationship before marriage.

Moreover, even Xiao Zilan herself would not have expected that such an incident would be interspersed in the middle of the way to block her marriage with her goblin father.

"I don't know if you can understand what I'm saying, but as a woman, the most loving way to show a man may be to have a child for him. Although having a child is something that almost every woman will inevitably experience in her life, taking the initiative to have a child for him is two different states of mind than 'because you are married to him, let him pass it on'. The former is the crystallization of wanting to have love with him and wanting to have a happy family. And the latter just goes with the flow, because human beings have been passed down like this for thousands of years, so the latter is more inclined to go with the flow. ”

"So, you chose to do the former, right?" Su Yue answered.

Xiao Zilan nodded.

This may be where the leprechauns come from.

If it weren't for Xiao Zilan's determination back then, maybe there would not be a girl named Chu Qingdie in this world.

"After giving birth to Qingdie, I didn't tell her father, nor did I tell Miss Qin. I didn't give birth to Qingdie for anything, I just wanted to prove that I loved him before and still love him now, even if he is getting farther and farther away from me, but this mood will not be shaken with time. ”

"However, a girl in her early twenties has no experience with children. At the beginning, I handed Qingdie to my parents, but I lied to them that my husband was very busy starting a business outside and had no time to go back, and when I had time in the future, I would definitely bring my husband back to meet them. Later, when Qingdie was two years old, my father passed away due to illness, and my mother was not in good health, and she also had a high degree of myopia, and she could barely bear to take care of a baby who was very noisy. So I had no choice but to take Qingdie over and live with me. ”

"However, Qingdie was still a baby at that time, and no one took care of it, so some of the jobs with better treatment, but the working hours were not fixed, I resigned, and chose to take some odd jobs at home to subsidize the family, and in order to treat my father's illness before, the family owed a lot of foreign debts, although my father was gone, but the debt still had to be repaid by usury, and the family owed it had something to do with loan sharks, claiming that if I didn't repay the money within the specified time, I would be sold to be a miss, Then he sold Qingdie to an elderly man suffering from infertility in a remote mountainous area as a daughter. ”

Listening to Xiao Zilan's faint talk about the past, with an expression that seemed to be indifferent, Su Yue had a feeling of traveling through time, as if Su Yue was watching the scene she experienced back then, watching from the perspective of a bystander.

It is hard for Su Yue to imagine that a young lady who has no worries about food and clothing has such a difficult time in her infancy.

Of course, the person who really suffers is not the little goblin, but Xiao Zilan.

"At that time, there was a time when I didn't even dare to go out, and I spent my days in tears."

"And then?" Su Yue's heart was a little blocked, but he still couldn't help but want to know what was going on.

Because it seems that Xiao Zilan has been forced to a desperate situation with no way out, a large amount of foreign debts owed by her father for treatment of his illness before his death, her mother is not in good health, and the loan sharks have repeatedly collected debts, and they threatened to force her to repay the money in a way that her mother can't bear.

The amorous woman in front of her is well-dressed and has a delicate and picturesque appearance.

But more than ten years ago, she was also a single mother who was once overwhelmed by life.

"Later? Hehe......" At this point, Xiao Zilan let out a desolate laugh, and only slowly spoke after a while: "My mother died in a car accident, and I received a pension and funeral expenses, and I used that money...... Paid off all debts. ”

After her words fell, Su Yue's heart seemed to be tightly pinched by a big hand, as if even breathing had become weak.

In the world, will there be such a coincidence?

When she needed the money the most, her mother was in a car accident, and she was able to get a funeral fee to pay off the loan sharks......

When Su Yue raised his head again, he found that Xiao Zilan's cheeks were already full of tears, biting her red lips but refusing to cry.

A woman who was almost twice his age was helpless at this moment with red eyes like a child, hiding her face and hanging her head, and after several whining, she couldn't cry.

Su Yue was silent for a moment and handed over the tissue.

"Thank you......" she finally spoke, and then took the tissue handed by Su Yue and stopped crying.

"Actually, you can cry a little longer."

“…… I'm not a kid anymore. ”

"If you don't want to think back to the past, you don't have to force it."

"I just want to talk about this thing that has been backlogged in my heart for a long time, it has been precipitating for too many years, and it is not just me, it also needs to be vented."

Su Yue didn't speak again, but chose to be a quiet listener.

(End of chapter)