Panic this book,From the publication of the book to the present, it has finally reached 1 million words.,The speed is not very fast.,In addition to the first two months and three changes.,The back update is two more.,Three more.,And then interspersed with a very disciplined leave.。

Updates are slow, really slow.

Because I'm always questioning myself.

I always feel that what I am writing now is really like what many people who criticize me say, two words of rubbish.

How to say it, in real life, a smile is never a glass heart, only yourself.

But after so many years of writing the book, I have gone from the initial vow, to the light of the evil spirit, to the depression of panic, and my mentality has been a little uncontrollable.

It is not terrible for a person to fail once, but it is terrible to fail again and again.

Just like when I write a book, this book hits the street, and I even doubt myself to the point that I have already doubted myself.

I think it's a good idea, and the reader thinks it's highly toxic and garbage. I think it's a garbage idea, but what is written out by the brain is applauded by the readers.

I don't mean to be sarcastic about anyone, it's just that I can't figure out why I really write things with my heart, but I often receive negative comments, and I write irresponsibly, even with my brain, but I can often get satisfaction.

I won't talk about some of the stories in this book, just talking about logic, a hundred people will see it, and 90 people will be poisoned away, and there is no logic. But I've really been thinking about it for a long time, so it makes me feel like I'm becoming an idiot right now.

I can't even figure out the logic.

To tell you the truth, since this book was written, I have wanted to calculate it directly many times, and I have even discussed it with the editor-in-charge.

The reason is the grades, which is too rubbish.

But it's not because the grades are rubbish, so the income is low, I want to give up.

It's mentally hard. I have been preparing this book for half a year, revising it no less than 30 times, and hundreds of thousands of scrapped manuscripts, I just want to write a book that can build my self-confidence.

But no.

As always, boil the frog in warm water.

I don't know if you can understand, if you stick to one thing for six or seven years, let alone the goal, you won't even reach the passing mark, what kind of mood will you have, and will you doubt whether you have the ability to continue.

I'm so embarrassed right now that I need to feed myself chicken soup.

After the book Evil Spirits came out in the comics, it gave me a lot of confidence at the time. Because when I wrote it again, I felt that evil spirits were very suitable for comics, and I even wanted to invest money to get them myself.

Later, after the evil spirit came out, I saw the art style and thought it was pretty good, thinking that the manga could continue.

As a result, when I looked at it that day, I found that I was already a eunuch.

At that moment, I was really...... Very lost.

Some people want to make some achievements in order to earn money to eat. I, on the other hand, wanted to build up my confidence and write better.

But it's too hard.

I still don't even have a good book. All these years in the supernatural, I think it's all in vain.

This year, with the fire in the Book House and the Horror House, there are still some books coming in, and the supernatural is better than in previous years, and I thought that if I mixed in it, even if it was stable, I should be able to get into the essence.

As a result, it is not as good as the system.

It's very devastating.

Saying so much, it's not that I want to sell miserably, you all know, I'm very naughty, and it's better to ask for food than to make money by selling miserably.

It's just a one-sided catharsis, and when I say it, I feel happy in my heart.

I had nothing to do today, so I read the old devil's new book, and after reading it for a while, I found that the eunuch was a eunuch. Then I read his eunuch statement, and I felt that he simply spoke my heart.

These books of the old devil are also excellent at worst, and I still feel that I can't do anything, and I don't have the qualifications to do anything with this face.

I also reflected on it, read a lot of books, and finally concluded that what I wrote was too complicated.

There are too few people who are patient.

I'm the same, in addition to writing a book to concentrate for a long time, I can do other things, even eat two bites, and I want to look at my phone for a while.

Few people want to listen to you like they did in previous years.

Also, the road I insisted on came to an end.

I had imagined that one day the supernatural would be taken seriously by the beginning, and although I had seen the light of day, it was not me who could get the fruit.

The supernatural has also become, and the mode of cool text and ghost elements has become.

Either upgrade all the way. Either it's funny all the way.

Trend.

If I insisted on the transformation of this book, I might have done better, but I'm always like this, and I always want to try it. The result is a sluggish rhythm, and when it's over, it's disgusted by people who hate the upgrade system.

In the end, both sides were offended.

So, to put it bluntly, it's still something wrong with my head.

It's an online article, but I always think I'm a writer.

It's obviously an impetuous society, but I always think that someone can calm down and listen to your bragging.

When you watch a movie, you have to fast-forward four or five times, and it's no wonder that what you foreshadowed is not ignored.

Voice.

Laughing at the helpless voice, whether it scolds me or supports me, in short, I am also helpless. Always struggling with self-persistence and the big waves of the trend.

This book should be all a lesson, and that's all there is to it.

But don't worry, it will still be written.

Otherwise, the title is the eunuch's manifesto.

It's just to say it, have a good time, and then continue to write. As for whether the writing is good or bad, I don't have the confidence I had when I first opened the book, after all, your mentality can't be unaffected.

Let's have fun watching it.

You also know that I usually have a lot of skin, but I actually have a lot of scenes in my heart.

Finally, this is the focus of the whole article.

I really don't understand what you guys think.

Such a poisonous book, such a slow book, you can still see it now.

You are all great people.

The last of the last.

I love you.

Although there were no flowers and applause

But you are supporting my dreams

Every word

Each paragraph begins

No matter the ups and downs

No thorns are born

You're all with me

Like a beam of light

Illuminating the way forward for me

Like a hand

Guide me to the astray