Chapter 60: I'll Speak (Page 1/1)

Although Qin Ming's desire to know the truth was very strong, Qin Hengyuan's meaning was also very clear, that is, it was not the time to say it now. But whether it was not time to say it yet, or whether he was not ready to say it at all, it was just a perfunctory past, Qin Ming was not sure in his heart.

In the past, his father said so, even if he was unwilling in his heart, he might not say anything. After all, he has been like this since he was a child, and he never asks more about things that the other party obviously doesn't want to say.

But today he wanted to make an exception, and he didn't want this question to still weigh on his heart, and it was still bothering him after many years, and he still got such an answer.

"Dad, it's really hard for me to accept your answer.

As you know, I've been asking you a lot about our family over the years. As I grew up, those questions became more and more than less.

It's a very simple thing, and it only needs an answer from you, but you've been running away from it. I thought it was because you thought I was too young and had limited mental capacity, and there were some things I couldn't bear and bear.

But now, when I feel that I have what it takes to take it all and what it takes to know the truth, you still choose to keep your mouth shut.

It's not that I don't understand you, but I also know that you must have a reason for you to hide it, and the reason for being able to do it is purely to protect me. I can also imagine the psychological changes that will happen to me once you tell the truth.

I've thought about these things before, I don't know how many times.

I've thought about too many truths that can break me, but through anticipation over and over again, I've become numb to the truths that can break me.

All that remains is a strong desire to know the truth.

Whatever it is, I want to have the right to know, and I want to be part of this family and share it with you. ”

When Qin Ming said this, his voice paused for a moment, but Qin Hengyuan still didn't say a word, and it was difficult to see anything from his expression, so Qin Ming continued:

"Dad, if you don't want to say something, let me say something.

You also listen to my doubts about our family for so many years.

Other people have more or less childhood memories, but I don't know what happened to me, only memories after the age of 12.

I can't remember anything that had happened in the past.

But my memory is not bad, and with what I know about myself, I'm not the kind of person who doesn't like to remember.

So where are my memories?

Why did I forget all my previous memories?

And then there's the thing about my mom.

When I asked you before, you would say that my mother had passed away, and that she had gone abroad, but whether she was there or not, she should have left some traces at home.

However, what struck me as strange, even weird, was that there wasn't even a picture of her at home. Not a single one.

You didn't even tell me what her last name was or what her name was.

Of course, I would love to be like everyone else, with my mother by my side and caring, but when I have lost these things for too long, or feel like I have never had them, I don't want to have them myself, but wonder why I don't.

And then when I look back and look at it again, I'm going to be puzzled by you, Dad.

Because you can make up a definite reason to tell me plainly that my mother is no more, or that she has abandoned me, so that I will die and shatter all my illusions.

But you didn't.

As for why, I've thought about several possibilities.

You don't want to disappoint me too much at the time, you want me to have this fantasy that my mom will come back one day. It's like the white lies told by single-parent parents to their children in movies and TV series.

But when I was older and asked about you, you gave me a different answer. And when I asked for details, you seemed a little flustered.

It's like you haven't figured out what to say or how to be round.

But think about it, because it's a very difficult lie.

You say that my mother abandoned us, and sooner or later I will wonder who she really is, why she abandoned us, and where she went after that.

If you say that my mother is no more, I will also ask you if she had an accident or what kind of illness she had, and where her grave is.

However, these are questions that you can't answer.

Of course, these things are actually not difficult to make up, at least for you, Dad, it is not that difficult.

But why didn't you do it?

I think about it, and I think the biggest reason is that you didn't expect me to realize our family's problems so early.

Because if I had asked you these things later, I might have found no one.

You and Grandpa may be like my mother, who never showed up, and suddenly left me......"

Qin Ming's voice had become trembling, and Qin Hengyuan's face was no longer calm, and he couldn't help but speak:

"Son, what the hell are you talking nonsense!"

"I know exactly what I'm talking about. I also know how long these words have been hidden in my heart.

Although you have always told me before that people must not take chances, but I can't do it, in fact, I have always been lucky, and I think that the truth of the truth may not be what I thought.

Even though I've been reminded of a lot of things, I still pretend to be blind.

But lately I've found that it's hard for me to ignore them anymore.

Since you have to face it sooner or later, it is better to make today this day. ”

"Son, don't think too much, there is ......"

Qin Heng saw that Qin Ming's state was wrong, and wanted to appease him, but was interrupted by Qin Ming:

"Dad, there are some things you can't say, so I'll say it instead.

The reason why there is no trace of my mother in the house is because she doesn't exist at all.

I'm not your child at all, am I?

Grandpa wasn't crazy because of his illness, he was crazy because he was sneaky, right?

You should be a psyker and know sneaky things, so when I finished the college entrance examination and took the bus back to town, you didn't seem panicked about the sneaky things in the car.

At first I thought you wouldn't see it, but then I realized that you didn't care at all.

If I hadn't gotten out of the car at that time, maybe you wouldn't have had an accident with that car. ”

"Son, I don't understand what you said, but you said that our house was haunted and suggested that I move to the school dormitory, so I took your grandfather there. Don't you remember any of that? ”

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