I took a taxi to get off near the counseling studio, and at first glance I saw the signboard on the door of the "Window of the Soul". I walked in, and the counseling studio was different than I had imagined; The studio is elegantly decorated in a relaxed style, rather than a depressing hospital-style place. There are no staff in white coats, and there is no very medical professional appearance; On the contrary, dress appropriately, naturally, and even stylishly. If you didn't pay attention, I thought I was asked into a casual café.

When I entered the door, I was greeted by a beautiful woman who greeted me: "Hello, sir! You are Mr. Li who made an appointment last night! ”

I nodded, and the beauty continued, "Please inside!" Come here and take a break! Teacher Xu will come over in a while! ”

The beautiful woman took me to the window position, which had a glimpse of the Chaotianmen Pier and the confluence of the Jialing River and the Yangtze River.

After I sat down, the beauty continued to ask, "What do you want to drink, sir!" We have coffee, milk tea, and all kinds of cold drinks here! ”

"Let's have a glass of lemonade!"

"Okay, wait a minute!"

I looked out the window at the ripples of the Jialing River after it joined the Yangtze River, and the steamers on the river were moving slowly; I seem to have forgotten all the hustle and bustle of the city, like an old man sitting alone in a flat boat fishing; Let the waves caress my face, and feel the baptism of the river. Maybe I'm fishing for a vision for the future, or maybe I'm waiting for happiness to come! Maybe it's just the feeling of the waves caressing your face, and you sit alone until you get old!

"Sir! Your lemonade! You use it slowly! "The beautiful woman's voice interrupted my immersion in the view.

"Thank you!" I looked at the beautiful woman with a smile.

Just as the beauty smiled and turned to leave, a man in his thirties came in front of the beauty, wearing a fashionable suit.

The beautiful woman looked at the man and said, "Mr. Xu, the one sitting over there is Mr. Li who made an appointment last night!" ”

The man smiled and nodded, and walked towards me, this man was Xu Feng. Xu Feng came to the position opposite me and sat down: "Mr. Li! It's not a bad sight, isn't it? ”

"Not bad! It's so relaxing! But it's also very touching! ”

"Oh......, I wonder what Mr. Li felt?" Xu Feng asked curiously.

"I feel like an old man sitting alone in a flat boat, fishing for the future I dreamed of! But I feel the surging waves! It's hard to get on the shore, and I enjoy her caressing my face! ”

Mr. Li used such a witty phrase to feel this scene, as if he was describing his own inner struggle! If you don't guess wrong! You could be a poet, or you could be a writer! ”

"I'm just an alcoholic who has lived a failed life! After drinking, write something nonsense! What a poet and writer! ”

"I can blend complex emotions into the scenery and describe it in clever language! Not the average person can do it! You must have a lot of stories that you don't want to tell! I think those stories buried deep in your heart are probably one of the reasons that bother you! If you want, you can treat me like a friend! Tell me your story! Xu Feng used a guided approach to the topic of psychological counseling.

"I don't know what's going on lately! Wake up in dreams from time to time! The dream is so real, so real that it makes people feel palpitations for a long time! ”

"Is it a nightmare?" Xu Feng looked into my eyes and asked.

"It's not!"

"What kind of dream is that?"

I told Xu Feng about the dream I had after drinking in the past few days.

Xu Feng asked, "Have you ever had a history of depression?" ”

"I've searched the internet for the characteristics of depression, and I've been in that situation for a long time!"

Xu Feng describes: "Depressed patients have a persistent depressed mood, and their depression can range from depression to grief, low self-esteem and depression, and even pessimism and misanthropy, and suicide attempts or behaviors; Even stupor; Some cases have significant anxiety and motor agitation; In severe cases, psychotic symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions may occur. ”

"I never thought about ending my life, and I was looking forward to the future. I've seen people who have committed suicide, and I've seen the unbearable pain of their families! ”

"That's right! The fact that you can come here today to chat with me shows that you are looking forward to your future life! You may just be struggling in the whirlpool of life! Can't extricate yourself! You want to get out of the predicament of your soul and live the life you yearn for! ”

"Probably so! Is there any good way to get this situation up quickly? ”

"To untie the bell, you have to tie the bell! Find your heart knot! Try opening it! You don't need to say anything about it, it's in the bottom of your heart! "Xu Feng said the same thing as the psychiatrist I played in my dream.

"And what's going on with the psychiatrist in my dream? And last night in the taxi I felt like I had two of my own! An angel, a devil! ”

"Have you ever been drunk?" Xu Feng asked seriously.

I nodded, and Xu Feng continued to analyze: "You used to be drunk and caused you to have a psychological shadow, and you were also drunk yesterday; The human brain is divided into memory and creation areas, and under the influence of alcohol, the fragments of your memory are awakened through the central nervous system! Awaken your cravings too! Two or more thought patterns appear at the same time! Commonly known as 'schizophrenia'. Those dreams of yours are hallucinations that occur when you are drunk! ”

"I usually drink alcohol, why is this happening so often lately?" I listened to Xu Feng's analysis, but I was still a little puzzled.

"Have you been staying up late a lot lately? Mentally stressed? Xu Feng continued to ask.

"Yes, some time ago, I went to work during the day and stayed up late at night to write novels until two or three o'clock in the morning!" In front of Xu Feng's professionalism, I do not deny this situation.

Xu Feng said earnestly: "That's right! You should ensure a good sleep in the future and don't put too much psychological pressure on yourself! Relax properly! Don't drink alcohol! Try to open the knot again, and it will be fine! ”

"Thank you! I think I will! I've quit my job! Get ready to tune in! ”

"You're welcome! Come and sit often in the future! Just use this as a casual café, look at the river view, chat, it's all good! ”

Xu Feng looked at the time, and two hours passed like this. I also looked at my phone, it was almost 12 o'clock, and it was time for lunch!

I looked at Xu Feng's expression as he looked at the time, and I understood that it was time for my consultation. "Mr. Xu, let's go have lunch together! I'm in for a treat! "I invited Xu Feng.

"No! I'll have an appointment in a moment! ”

"That's good! If I have time another day, I'll invite Mr. Xu again! Then I'll go first! ”

"Okay! You walk slowly! If you want to come and see the river view in the future, just come directly! Feel free to sit! ”

I smiled and nodded, and turned to walk out the door. As soon as we walked to the door, Xu Li came in with a box, and the two of us almost bumped into each other.

We looked at each other and said in unison, "It's you!" ”

Xu Li said angrily: "You're not finished, are you!" You're all here to block the door! ”

I also didn't respond angrily: "You're sick!" Now it's you're blocking the door! You're in my way! ”

"You're sick! Stinky rascals! Drunken maniac! ”

"That's right! I'm sick! I'm here to see a doctor today! Did you come with you? ”

"You...... You still want to be beaten, don't you? As she spoke, she raised her cute little fist again.

Xu Feng saw us arguing and walked over: "Do you know each other?" ”

Xu Li and I said in unison: "I don't know this drunken maniac (crazy woman)!"

"What the hell is going on with you two?" Xu Feng asked curiously.

[End of chapter]