"If you don't go, I'll give you a son?"

"Do you know that you are cunning about this?" Lin Shijun asked her. She said this, and asked him how to go.

"And did you know that you are also cunning?"

……

The two fell silent, and neither of them budged back. Qi Jingyan didn't know why he suddenly wanted to go to war, in short, there were many changes in this life and the previous life, and she couldn't use the previous life as a basis, but she knew how dangerous the frontier was...... Even the famous general at that time, the eldest princess, died in that war.

He has no power to restrain the chicken, he has only gained some meat in the past few years, and his body bones are not so strong, what battlefield is he on?

Do you want to die? She didn't want him to go, although she still complained about him in her heart, but ah...... In her heart, she was reluctant to send him to death. She didn't want those titles of Lady of Commandment, she didn't want anything, as long as he lived this life smoothly.

For the first time, she found out that she had accepted her fate, and she had compromised like this, and accepted him as her support for the rest of her life. She wasn't struggling anymore, and she wasn't thinking about leaving him. For the first time, she found herself resigned to her fate, and calmly accepted what fate had arranged for her.

Because...... She loves this man, she can't bear her, she also knows cunningly, he can't give up her, as long as she begs...... He won't refuse.

She always thought that their relationship should be mutually fulfilling and encouraging each other, but it was not until such a juncture that she found out that it was not. They are each other's stumbling blocks and obstacles to each other, they just hold each other back, putting on a look of "I'm for your good", but they are afraid, afraid that they will lose each other with such a hard fight.

"I want you to give me a son...... Now that I'm gone, my flesh and blood will take care of you. But I also want to invite you to ask Mrs. Command, so that the power is in your hands, and no one can easily bully you. But I want too much, I know God is stingy and won't let me get what I want, so I can only choose one? ”

Lin Shijun half-sat up and looked at her.

"Why?" She asked.

Lin Shijun brushed her face, she was still so good-looking, occupying the softest place in his heart, but she was pampered and murdered, piercing him again and again. But he was so willing, he knew that he owed her a lot, but there were some things that he couldn't do, he didn't have a choice and didn't know how much this generation had to compensate in order to satisfy her.

"What, why?"

Qi Jingyan moved her lips, and a tear slipped from the corner of her eyes: "Why haven't you been by my side all the time?" Why do you always want to get rid of me? I want to say the year you abandoned me, I ...... I can't do it, I can't do it when you're no longer with me. I'll always miss you, even though you'll treat me badly for years to come,...... But I still miss you, I wonder if you will change your mind and come to pick me up, but you didn't come......"

"I went......" went late.

His tears also pressed between her eyebrows, she closed her eyes, and punched him in the chest in annoyance: "You lied to me, you left me...... I've ever thought about starting over in this life...... I'm going to break it off with you, but you're going to come to me, it's you! It's you! It was you who were so unreasonable that you tied me to my side. It's you who are pestering me, so I can't cut off my feelings at all. But why don't you want me again? Why do you think about the future of the cloth? Since you provoked me, you should be responsible to the end. ”

Lin Shijun gently kissed her cheek, kissed her tears, against her forehead, begging in her heart to stop crying, my heart was broken when I cried.

"I know I'm responsible. But I'm not sure who will come first tomorrow or the accident. What should you do if I'm not there? I've been thinking about this a lot lately, I can't think of a way, I want to protect you for the rest of my life. But...... In this life, I know that I will die before you. ”

Lin Shijun suddenly smiled: "I'm so glad you can say it." You have been waiting for me that year, in fact, I am just angry, why did I divorce you? It's just a stopgap measure, it's just a pity that I'm too stupid to tell you anything. But there were so many things going on between us at that time, maybe you wouldn't believe me if I said it.

I thought I'd pick you up when I found another mansion, and I'd marry you back after beating the gongs and drums. That's what I planned, and that's what I thought, but it's only for one year, and you'll be gone when you come back...... Qi Jingyan...... I've been ruined on you for two lifetimes, but I'm willing to do so, willingly. ”

Qi Jingyan opened his eyes, a little incredulous, but he was so sincere and so sad. No one has ever mentioned this year's events, she has always regarded it as a wound that each other can't uncover, but hearing him say this, those faintly painful injuries seem to be less painful all of a sudden.

"But...... I also want to ask, why didn't you wait for me in the first place? Why don't you wait for me? Lin Shijun suppressed the bitter fruit in his heart, and suddenly said it, he knew that there were some things he might not need to ask, and there was no need to know.

But he asked himself countless times, why wasn't she waiting, he had already fought for her life, why couldn't she wait, if she was waiting, they should have been evened out in their previous life, those things would not have dragged on in this life, obviously like this.

Qi Jingyan pressed his face and stroked her eyebrows: "I'm waiting...... It's a pity that fate didn't make me wait, and others didn't let me wait. I am innocent with your cousin Lin Shiping, and I have always only treated him as your younger brother. He just saw me as ostracized and pitiful, but he just saw my desolation, but everyone misunderstood, so when he met me, the eldest aunt was angry and fed me poison in my food...... I've been waiting for you, even the day I died...... I'm thinking that if I see you again, I'll be dead. ”

"Me...... When you see it, you ask me, 'Are you going to die?' When I saw you, I realized that I didn't want to die so much, but I felt ...... Ah, in this kind of life, it's really good to meet you, although there are still a little regrets. But I think it's really good. ”

Qi Jingyan's tears spread across his eyes, and he also cried against her forehead: "Yan'er...... My words, why can't I come back sooner? Then you will be free from this suffering. ”

Qi Jingyan said calmly that she had died, she was relieved, and she didn't hate it so much, she felt that her current life was what she had always wanted.

"Perhaps, it will be difficult for us to tell this story without this death, you always let me guess you, I guess and guess...... I feel that I am just wishful thinking, but I am deceiving myself. I've been skeptical for a long time...... Before us, did you still care about me? Do we still have love? Isn't it even as good as a stranger on the road? But I found out that it wasn't. Even if you are a stranger to me one day, you will always be the most unique existence in my heart.

But that poison ...... I know I also have a hunch, because I can't wait for you, my heart will die first, so I know that the poison is there, I still drink it. I just want to prove that I never owe you anything, so that I can clear my name. It's just a little reluctant......"

Lin Shijun sighed: "Why? Why...... Hahaha! He smiled dissolutely, but there was a trace of pain in his laughter: "Yan'er, you must not know, you must not know." On the day you died, I killed them all, and I killed the whole house, from the old woman to the three-year-old child, and I didn't leave any of them. ”

Lin Shijun laughed, but Qi Jingyan was stunned, and he couldn't slow down for a while.

"What did you say?" That's your loved ones, how could you kill them?

Lin Shijun laughed for a while before calming down: "I killed them all, everyone who harmed you." I've killed them all, including me...... Myself. ”

"You lied to me? You're lying to me, aren't you? ”

Lin Shijun shook his head and shook his head again: "It's true." If there is no Bofu, if we don't go back to Bofu in the first place, it is actually very good in that small courtyard, and you will not become the future you. I always knew that it would be nice if I didn't go back to Bofu, but I was so incompetent that I didn't know what to do but rely on others...... If only they could be kind to you? But they didn't ...... either I knew we wouldn't be where we were if I had done something, but I didn't ......

has too many scruples, but relying on your love for me, let you forbear. I know that the worst of me is nothing more than that...... So I thought you should stay away from me forever, away from this home, but you're gone.

I still can't sleep on the third day after taking your leave...... It turned out to be a person who complained in every way, only to find out that I couldn't live without you and let you go free, but I was in a difficult place. Therefore I vilerated those who tried to help you, and even spoke ill of you to you. I want you to be left alone, just wait for me. ”

Lin Shijun laughed a few times: "But I didn't think that it would become a reason for others to bully you...... They think that if they despise you like this, they will gain my appreciation. I was wrong, I underestimated people's hearts too much. That's why Heaven will punish me and make me lose you forever...... I am also to blame for your death. ”

Qi Jingyan trembled, so that dream ...... That dream is real, he put his own blood and drew a magic circle, intending to recall her soul, that spell in the fire, not a dream, everything is real?

"So, what did you do? Lin Shijun: What did you do? ”

"Change this afterlife." I will repay you for this life.