Chapter 321 Without you, I will lose myself

Originally, the journey of ten days was fast, because of the cold and snow, and Li Yue's body did not dare to be too hurried, and walked for ten days, but there was still half the way, if it had been such weather, or Li Yue's body had not improved, I am afraid that it would take more than ten days to get to Linzi County.

But Li Yue's body is getting worse and worse, Lin Xiao's antidote pill has gradually begun to fail, Li Yun was anxious, so he began to dissuade Li Yue from taking the antidote first, and then let Lin Xiao think of a way when he went back.

But Li Yue resolutely disagreed, she liked children so much, and she was still so young, she didn't want to lose her qualification to be a mother like this.

The antidote, Li Yue didn't know if it could really cure the poison on her body, but Li Yue knew that the antidote was a traditional Chinese medicine ingredient that could really cause her to be sterilized.

When Li Yun watched Li Yue's spirit getting worse and worse, drowsy, and less and less awake time, he finally made up his mind in his heart.

In the inn where he stayed, Li Yun took the antidote, and in the backyard of the inn, he personally watched Wu's mother boil medicine for Li Yue.

Zhou Huaijin was on the side, and said worriedly, "Are you really going to do this?" A woman can't have children, do you know how much it hurts a woman? ”

Li Yun had deep helplessness and heartache in his eyes, "But I can't watch her have something, it's a big deal that we don't want children, anyway, as far as my identity is concerned, whether I have children to inherit the family is not so important." ”

Zhou Huaijin wanted to say something, but in the end he just sighed and didn't say anything more. Li Yun is right, his identity is different from his own identity, and he doesn't have so many scruples about himself.

When Li Yun poured medicine into the mouth of the unconscious Li Yue with red eyes, only he knew how painful his heart was, but he understood that if something happened to Li Yue, he might not even feel the heartache and would become a walking corpse.

When Li Yue woke up and felt the bitter taste of the Chinese medicine in her mouth, her tears fell uncontrollably, and she had a little sober mind, which made her instantly understand that Li Yun must have poured her the antidote while he was unconscious.

When Li Yun saw Li Yue who had woken up, he wiped Li Yue's tears a little at a loss, and asked softly with a trembling voice, "But what's uncomfortable?" ”

Li Yue didn't glance at Li Yun, nor did she answer Li Yun's question, she just kept shedding tears.

The silent crying gradually turned into a painful cry, and then gradually became silent, gradually closed his eyes, and kept hugging Li Yue, who was at a loss, and stared at Li Yue, who was crying again, and fell asleep again, for a long time, when he heard Li Zhong's urging sound outside, he took a deep breath, sorted out the clothes on his body for Li Yue, and then went out with Li Yue in his arms, and got into the carriage that had been waiting at the door of the inn for a long time.

The doctor invited halfway through the road couldn't tell that Li Yue was poisoned at all, so how could he know if Li Yue's condition had improved? How do you know if the antidote really works? They must rush back to Linzi County as soon as possible and find Lin Xiao to show Li Yue.

When Li Yun found out that Li Yue had drunk the antidote and had been sober for more time than before, Li Yun took advantage of Li Yue's coma to feed Li Yue the antidote again.

After Li Yue woke up this time, she felt the bitter taste in her mouth, and instead of crying, she looked at Li Yun coldly and said, "I said, I don't want to drink this antidote." ”

Li Yun looked at Li Yue like this, feeling so strange, and seemed to be a little ungraspable, Li Yun hugged Li Yue tightly in his arms in a little panic, and said softly, "As long as you live, you will live." ”

Li Yue felt Li Yun's tense body, her eyes were a little complicated, and then she finally closed her eyes again, unwilling to open them or speak.

Wu's mother sent hot porridge and left silently, during this time, Gongzi took care of his wife personally, and basically would not let her interfere.

Li Yun helped Li Yue, sat on the bed, brought over the hot porridge, and said softly, "Eat some porridge first and then sleep, okay?" ”

Even if she was sad in her heart, Li Yue didn't think about suicide, and finally opened her eyes, blew Li Yun cold and fed the porridge to her mouth and swallowed it one by one.

Li Yue tilted her head, looking at Li Yun's busy back, when she was groggy, it seemed that Li Yun took care of her like this, even if she poured the antidote to herself, it was for her.

Why did you make such an awkward mess with him? I'm afraid that he doesn't feel better than himself in his heart, when Li Yue saw the red eyes of Li Yun who finally cleaned up, Li Yue couldn't help it anymore and cried again, not only because he was sad, but also because he was distressed, Li Yun, who was once so cold and calm, was tossed like this by himself.

Li Yue on the bed who Li Yun listened to cried again, a little flustered, wiped her tears for Li Yue, and said anxiously, "What's wrong?" But what's so uncomfortable? ”

Li Yue shook her head indiscriminately, Li Yun went over and lay down beside Li Yue, kept gently wiping the tears on Li Yue's face, and said softly, "Okay, don't cry." ”

Li Yue rushed into Li Yun's arms, hugged Li Yun's waist tightly, and wanted to embed herself into Li Yun's body, but this move made Li Yun feel Li Yue's panic and helplessness, hugged Li Yue back, didn't speak, and patted Li Yue's back like this.

Li Yue finally stopped crying and said softly to Li Yun, "I'm sorry for worrying you." ”

Li Yun saw that Li Yue had finally figured it out, and finally breathed a sigh of relief, and said softly, "Do you feel better?" ”

Li Yue wiped her tears and snot into Li Yun's arms, and after wiping them clean in Li Yun's arms, she finally raised her head, looked at Li Yun with red and swollen eyes, and said, "It's much better, it seems that this antidote still has some effect." ”

Li Yun breathed a sigh of relief again, "That's good." ”

Li Yue felt that the snot came out again, and unceremoniously approached Li Yun again, rubbed it in Li Yun's arms, and then continued, "How long do we have to get to Linzi County?" ”

Looking at Li Yue's small action, Li Yun was very helpless, but he was very relieved, and finally saw such a vivid Li Yue again, and while letting go of the hand holding Li Yue, he said, "There are still two people at most, you let go first, and I'll go get a towel to wipe your face." ”

Li Yue obediently let go of the hand on Li Yun's waist and said, "Since it's only two days, don't feed me that medicine, I feel much better now, I should be able to stick to Linzi County, and let Lin Xiao show me when the time comes." ”

Li Yun looked at Li Yue, who had completely recovered from the pain and could think independently, and finally let go of the big stone that was pressed in his heart, and went over to wipe the face that had just cried for Li Yue, and said, "Well, I listen to you, but if you have any discomfort, you must tell me, don't carry it yourself." ”

Li Yue nodded obediently, Li Yun wiped Li Yue's face, cleaned up, and then took off the coat that was rubbed by Li Yue full of tears and snot, and went to bed to hold Li Yue tightly in his arms.

"Go to bed early, continue to rush tomorrow morning, and strive to arrive in Linzi the day after tomorrow." Li Yun whispered in Li Yue's ear.

Li Yue nestled in Li Yun's arms obediently, because of the crying just now, her voice was a little hoarse, "I can't sleep." ”

Li Yun replied softly, "Then talk to me for a while." ”

Li Yue said "um", "You tell me." ”

Li Yun was silent for a while before he spoke, "It doesn't matter if you have children or not, as long as you accompany me; If you like children very much, let's adopt more and raise them as our own children; Stop torturing yourself about it, okay? ”

Li Yue didn't speak, and Li Yun, who listened, continued, "Sometimes, I also feel scared, when your eyes no longer look at me, when you deliberately ignore me, ...... When I call you, but I can't call you anything, I'm so scared, I have nothing to lose, only you, you know, I didn't have anything before, because with you, I will have a lot, if I don't have you, I don't have myself. ”

Li Yue suddenly understood Li Yun's feelings at this time, when she couldn't find Li Yun on the battlefield in Yanxi, she also felt like this, Li Yue hugged Li Yun's hand tightly, "If I don't have you, I will also lose myself." ”

Life is still there, but it will lose itself.

Li Yun was very pleased, Li Yue finally understood herself, "Then you must remember that in my heart, you are the most important, no matter what, you must protect yourself first." ”

Li Yue said softly, "Not next time." Li Yue finally figured it out, this time she was willful and got into the child's dead end, if Li Yun hadn't saved herself in time, what would have been the consequences? She didn't want to, and she didn't dare to think about it.

After knowing that Li Yue was poisoned, Li Yun slept peacefully for the first time in so many days, until Li Yue woke up, Li Yun was still sleeping sweetly, Li Yue supported his head with his arm, and looked at Li Yun who was still asleep.

Thinner than before, with closed eyes, and a faint cyan color under the curtains, I am afraid that it is because I haven't slept well for a long time, Li Yue understands that these are all because of herself.

Li Yue unconsciously put her hand on Li Yun's face, and woke up Li Yun, who was still asleep.

Seeing that Li Yun opened his eyes, Li Yue withdrew her hand very apologetically, and said distressedly, "It's all my fault that woke you up." ”

Li Yun pursed the corners of his mouth, reached out and scooped Li Yue's body over, pillowed it on his shoulder, let Li Yue's face lean against his face, rubbed it lightly on Li Yue's face, and said in his mouth, "It's good." ”

Li Yue snorted and laughed, "Are you so happy to wake you up?" ”

Li Yun turned his head to look at Li Yue, smiled and said "um" softly, but continued to rub Li Yue's face happily.

Li Yue felt Li Yun's movements like a pet puppy, and said helplessly, "Didn't you say that you have to go back to Linzi County early, it's not too early." ”

After Li Yue's reminder, Li Yun, who was immersed in happiness and warmth, finally came back to his senses and let go of Li Yue, "Hurry up and get up, by the way, what discomfort do you have in your body today?" ”

Li Yue responded, "Compared with yesterday, my strength has recovered a little, and I am not so weak." ”

Li Yun exhaled, "That's good, you lie down first." As he spoke, he got up and went to find clothes for himself and Li Yue.