so

I don't know if it's all the options

It's all not the same

In the winter, I chose snowflakes

Is it a catkins in the summer

The days began to numb

so

A former boy chasing the wind

Is not the opponent of time

Love can be chosen

Family affection can be hidden

Friendship can be remembered

so

It's not a thing

It takes time to make a decision

I endure it when I feel like crying

I endure when I miss you

Thinking about everything I felt was uncontrollable

so

Am I guilty of such an unconditional surrender

Surrender the hand of time

Surrender to the tenderness that has passed

Surrender to you and I can't give filial piety to the ancestors

so

I can't choose the raw

Is it also a death in the inability to choose?

What a desperate thing to die

I feel sad

Boundless darkness is felt

Feel the last flash of your shadow

so

Can I get serenity

Serenity has nothing to do with the world

It's none of your business

It has nothing to do with me either

so

What am I, who am I alive or dead

Despicable or glorious

so

How that means

My humble world

My ignorant world

……

——Zhang Xuan, "Then"

"You're foaming at my tank?" Cao Xiaoshan, who finished going to the toilet, looked at Zhang Xuan, who was looking at the vegetable jar, and asked.

"Am I that bored, you let me see if there is any meat in your ass, and I'll lend you fifty dollars."

"You can go back to Gaojia Village, if you don't go back, I'll tell you slowly at night."

"Return, you hurry up, it's getting dark." Zhang Mian returned to sit on the stool, the sun had set, and the village radio began to broadcast various advertisements in Fengcheng dialect.

"Where am I?" Cao Xiaoshan also sat down, I don't know if it was intentional or not, his butt was placed on the bench little by little, as if he was looking for the most suitable position for stress.

"Speaking of the love letter of the woman named Xia who tore up your face, is it possible that your handwriting is too ugly?"

"Nonsense, I, Pang Zhonghua, have been practicing for several years. I remember talking about me sitting on the playground with Cloud. ”

"I know you still ask me, my brain has always been inferior to yours."

"I think you can listen carefully, in fact, this is my first real date with Yun, Yun is sitting next to me, I can clearly smell the fragrance of her body, this fragrance is different from the smell of any perfume, she sat quietly next to me, I asked her to come alone and suddenly didn't know to say so, the first sentence at the beginning of my first sentence actually asked her if you can eat, she smiled so suddenly, although the street lights are not on, I feel that she is smiling brighter than the sun, I don't know how to talk all of a sudden, just look up at the starry sky."

"It's like we're sitting on the dam of the wheel kiln factory and looking up at the sunset, and you're absolutely in the right shape."

"Or do you know me, I also thought that I would leave her with the most handsome side face, just when I was about to overdress, Yun asked me if I asked her because of the love letter, I suddenly came back to my senses and forgot about the business. What does Kasumi mean? I didn't provoke her. Yun said calmly, in fact, you really provoked her, I and Yun are in a village, we went to elementary school and junior high school together, and we came to Fengcheng No. 2 Middle School together, basically inseparable, she likes me, it is more than friendship, and I like her, but I am different from her, I also like the opposite sex, you understand. ”

"Oh my God, gay, you don't read too many stories, tell me stories, the exam is coming, I'm short on time."

"When I heard her talk about these things plainly, it was like talking about someone else's, and I was blinded at that time, more than when I was caught stealing money and being caught by my mother, how could the girl I like among thousands of girls be the legendary homosexuality, it's too much of a coincidence."

"Are we both gay?"

"It's not."

"Then they may be like us, the kind that is good in pants."

"If only it were what you said. Yun said that although it was not love at first sight when she saw me, she did have a good impression of me and knew my thoughts, but she was afraid that Xia would be jealous, so she kept acting as if nothing had happened. She said that when they were in junior high school, a male classmate also handed Yun a love letter, and Xia fought directly with the boy, I knew it was not good and I was angry, but every time she came back, she asked me to forgive her, hugged me and cried, we grew up together, went through a lot of ups and downs, I can understand her, how can I bear to say cruel words, this is my current situation, you are afraid. After saying that, the cloud got up and looked into the distance, and I got up too. After sitting for a long time, my butt hurts, and I firmly told Yun that I am not afraid, I really like Yun, and I am serious. Yun promised to date me, but everything can't let Kasumi know, I dated her secretly until now, you tell me what to do, I'm going to date another girl behind my back, and a few times I almost got caught. ”

"Where are you in your development?"

"Hand in hand, it would be better if there was no Kasumi, what should I do, what should I do." Cao Xiaoshan leaned against the wall and said helplessly.

"Your matter is beyond the scope of what I can advise, I'm going back to Gaojia Village. I suddenly remembered that I still had homework to do. ”

"You help me figure out a way, I help you come up with ideas every time, and this time it's your turn to help me."

"I have twenty yuan here, give it to you, you don't have to pay it back, you have to focus on your studies."

Zhang Mian got up and took out twenty yuan and stuffed it into Cao Xiaoshan's hand, pushed up the bicycle parked next to him and left, and rode in the direction of Gaojia Village with a booster.

"You bear."

Zhang Mian heard Cao Xiaoshan scolding behind him, pedaled the car faster, and disappeared in a corner.