It was the height of summer, and the ground was already hot in the morning. People who rush to work early and take advantage of the cool hours to go to work enter the office early, and are reluctant to go out half a step.

There are also some vendors on the side of the road who want to stay up late and wait for the sun to get hotter before closing the stalls.

Su Pei carried his homework, the sandwich he made, staggered off the bus, and then slowly moved to the hospital.

Since last month, she has seen a psychiatrist every other week, and she is already familiar with the path. Her psychiatrist is called Su Pei, a psychiatrist specializing in depression and is quite popular in the Jianghuai region.

She is highly evaluated on the Internet, and it is said that many people with severe depression have new expectations for life after her treatment, and there are also those who have not been ill for many years.

In this regard, Ji Chen's only emotion is that fortunately, the hospital to which Su Pei belongs is very close to her home.

Ji Chen didn't know when she began to be vigilant about her surroundings, probably because of her illness, she became very sensitive to the environment and people. She saw a boy push his bicycle into the carport, bend down to lock it, and then carry his school bag into the hospital.

It wasn't until his back disappeared into the big mouth of the black hole in the hospital that Ji Chen came back to his senses and entered the hospital slowly.

Su Pei's business ability is beyond doubt, and she is also a living sign of this hospital, so it is difficult to make an appointment. Fortunately, the hospital also pays more attention to the privacy of patients, and patients in the psychological clinic must set a time in advance to stagger with other patients.

Ji Chen was the first one today, and her "homework" naturally became Su Pei's breakfast.

Su Pei chatted with her while munching on a sandwich, and the content of the chat was nothing more than a routine inquiry about the current situation.

Ji Chen replied one by one, his life was as plain as boiled water, and there were no waves at all.

"You should find something to do, such as reading a book, catching up on a show, or going out shopping with your little sisters."

Ji Chen half-lowered his eyelids and looked at the nameplate on Su Pei's chest.

"I think I'm good like that."

……

Yes, the most typical point of depressed people is that they live in their own world and are stubborn.

"Ji Chen, didn't you say that you would cooperate with my treatment?"

Ji Chen blinked his eyes and said seriously, "This is the life I want." "Bland, boring, ordinary.

"Do you have anything to look forward to while you're alive?" Su Pei looked at her with a smile, "Day after day, repeating the same thing every day, you think this is the life you want, but I don't feel what you expect from life at all." Su Pei waved the sandwich in his hand, "If you really learn to enjoy life as I said, then have you noticed that you sprinkled a lot of salt and pepper on top of the eggs, it was really salty." ”

……

All right.

Ji Chen admits that he really has no enthusiasm for life, and eating, drinking, and sleeping are all necessary for survival. Since the last time she returned home after talking to Su Pei, her daily routine is to learn to cook, watch the Vlogs made by others, most of the time in a daze, she doesn't know why she is in a daze, but it seems that she has nothing to do except be in a daze.

"Don't you have anything in particular that you want?" Su Pei asked her again, and she asked this question many times, and every time she came, she would ask her once. However, the first few times Ji Chen's answer was "I want to live with my parents for the rest of my life".

Well, she knows that she has no idea of seeking death for the time being, it is based on her happy family and the love of her parents, is it that if something happens at home, she can't withstand the blow?

Su Pei has seen patients for many years, and she has seen countless patients who are more difficult than Ji Chen, so she is not in a hurry at all, and it is most important to slowly open the patient's atrium.

"Hmm..."Ji Chen was rarely silent on this issue, she thought for a moment, and said, "There is a boy who I used to like very much, and I felt that I had put him down before. But when I saw him again today, I thought he was still very handsome and good-looking. ”

Su Pei was overjoyed, "Chase!" In life, it is not easy to meet someone you like! Tell me, how long have you liked him? ”

Ji Chen was in a trance, picking his fingers, six years of junior high and high school, counting the time he spent in prison and being an informant, another six years.

"Twelve years."

Ji Chen's brain was not very good when she said this number, and when she finished speaking, she remembered that she was going to be a senior in high school this year, and why did she come to junior high school for six years. And what jail or something. She closed her eyes, and the scenes were clearly placed in her mind like objects in the exhibition hall, extremely clear, as if she had personally experienced them.

Su Pei rubbed his nose unnaturally, he has been secretly in love with his family since kindergarten? It's really not easy, it's not easy.

"You say, why did you decide to give up on him?"

Ji Chen pursed his lips, not knowing how to speak, Su Pei is not the kind of doctor who is very easy to fool. People who suffer from depression have a lot to do with the environment in which they live, and Ji Chen, her family background and living environment are all very beautiful, and there is no reason for her to be depressed.

Ji Chen's explanation for her was that she always had nightmares, and this nightmare had plagued her for four years. As for where these four years came from, Ji Chen was also confused, but fortunately, no one asked her deeply.

Su Pei also tightened her brows after listening to her, the nightmare came from a lot of pressure, Ji Chen's grades were average, her family was very good, even she couldn't tell what pressure she had, and her indifference to the things around her showed that she didn't care about the things in this world at all.

Except that her parents were the reason for her life, Su Pei couldn't think of any other reason.

Inexplicable nightmares, inexplicable depression. Su Pei believed that she was not telling the truth to herself at all. After all, none of the depressed patients who came to her were honest with her when they first met.

"When I saw him marry another girl in my dream, I died."

……

Twelve years for a dream, saying that if you die, you will die?

Su Pei couldn't believe her reason.

"Can you describe your dreams to me?"

Ji Chen put his back close to the leather chair, found a comfortable position, folded his hands, and rubbed his two thumbs back and forth together.

"I've always liked him, but I didn't get into college, and he went to a very good school, which was so strict that I couldn't even get in. I'm busy and have a lot to do, but I know he's going out every weekend to work part-time as a tutor for a family. When I have free time, I sneak over to peek at him. Later, when I found out that he was getting married, I secretly ran to his wedding. Ji Chen's tone of voice was very calm, calm and unwavering, not like he was talking about his own affairs. She had no emotion, and obviously didn't care about it.

Su Pei looked at her carefully, her eyes were very empty, and the corners of her mouth were raised when she spoke, as if she was saying something very happy.

"I've never seen him smile so happily, and I think he must love his bride very much, so I'm dead."

Su Pei was silent for a moment, "Can you tell what that bride looks like?" ”

Ji Chen closed his eyes and recalled for a moment, and the bride was as clear as if she had appeared in front of her.

"Willow eyebrows, peach blossom eyes, two moles under the right corner of the eye, the nose is particularly straight, the mouth is small and thin, about one meter six, very thin, and the legs are very straight."

Su Pei took the pen and drew on the paper.

"How many times have you dreamed of her?"

……

Not once, of course she couldn't tell her that.

"Once."

Su Pei let out a long sigh, "Can you tell me the truth?" Most of people's dreams are woven from images stored in the brain, and dreams are rough and can no longer be rough products, because your consciousness is not awake in the dream, and the brain cannot receive the command to process the image finely. So you said you only dreamed of that girl once and you were able to tell the details of her, I don't believe it at all. ”

Ji Chen sighed, "I've seen her. She said nonsense, she didn't know why a person she had never met was so clear in her mind, her mind was filled with a lot of things, none of which were happening now, all in the future. It was so crowded that her head was about to explode. Her personality also changed suddenly, depressed and dull, so frightened that her parents immediately sent her to the hospital.

"That boy has a partner?"

"Nope."

"There's an ambiguity between the two of them?"

"They don't know each other yet."

Su Pei suddenly picked up the cup on the table and poured a large sip of cold water.

"I don't think you're suffering from depression now, you're suffering from delusions."

Ji Chen shrugged indifferently, "Maybe." ”

Su Pei really wanted to throw the medical record book in her face, it was a miracle that she could still be so optimistic after serving these patients for so many years!