If you haven't met in this life, you haven't missed it; If there is no me in this life, I will not know that there is you; If I think there is no you in this life; If there is no me and no you in this life, there is no way to talk about it; If we love each other in this life, we don't have time to think about these questions. - Zhang Mian, "If We Love Each Other in This Life".

As soon as the story begins, it will automatically end, just like every failed love.

Hu Dong peeped into the girls' dormitory, and Principal Hu personally gave Hu Dong a punishment at a plenary meeting of the school, and the matter was over.

After this incident, Hu Dong's biggest change is that he no longer messes around the campus, except for his home and classrooms, he is in his pocket on campus.

He seems to be the father-in-law of the school, and he can appear at any time in any place you can imagine in the school.

Zhang Mian often feels tired because he gets up early every day, and Hu Dong is like a young teddy dog, full of strength.

At this point, Zhang Mian was very envious, because in the three years of junior high school in Zhangjiacun Middle School, Zhang Mian either skipped class to play games or slept in the classroom.

Due to the very poor foundation, there is a lot of room for improvement, and Zhang Mian can improve a lot in every monthly exam, he is the focus of praise for each teacher, and Zhang Mian's progress fully affirms their work.

After several months of hard work, Zhang Mian's grades in the class are already above average, which gives him a small sense of accomplishment who has always been at the bottom, and his motivation to study is unconsciously greater.

The repetition of the days is like keeping a running account, which makes people sleepy, but just when you are about to fall asleep, it brings you different content, and the cycle repeats.

Zhang Mian got up in the morning to read, go to class, and go to self-study in the evening.

After getting acquainted with Gao Xiaoya and Liu Yifeng, Zhang Mian often talked with them, and finally the familiar ones could chat like Teletubbies when they were familiar with each other, and they would pass notes when they were bored in class.

Hu Dong would talk about poetry with Zhang Mian when he was tired of thinking about things at night, and he once patted his chest and said indignantly: Ancient and modern poetry is a bragging book, happy to blow, sad to blow, proud to blow, down, in love, to fall in love, to blow to flowers, to blow insects and fish......

One night he pointed to an article in "Selected Poems in the Misty" and said:

"You see, there is no mountain higher than a man, and there is no road longer than a foot. This bull braggadocio doesn't want to. ”

"You don't understand, don't blame you, you are raising the bar, so the monkey in Journey to the West or the stone becomes, isn't that bragging, you just have a prejudice against poetry."

"I'm discussing poetry with you, don't be in a hurry, I don't want others to discuss it yet."

"You call this slander, you only read a few poems and point fingers, if you don't like poetry, you can choose novels or prose."

"I don't like any literary genre now, I see that you often read poetry, I just looked at it, and I discovered this shocking secret."

"You braggart agrees."

"It must agree in the face of the facts, what use do you say you see this?"

"At least see if I don't feel lonely"

"Are you lonely?"

"I'm often lonely."

"Why are people lonely?"

"I don't know about this, I know that when I'm lonely, I read two poems, and my mood will be better, it's good to have a hobby, I don't know what hobbies you have until now, and it's not counting to wander around."

"I don't have a hobby, or we're talking about poetry for a while"

"Let's talk about the white thighs that night, you might say it again."

"Fuck off"

…………

On the day Wang Qian transferred to another school, it was late autumn.

The rain did not stop for a long time, and the campus was depressed.

Zhang Mian knew about this before the afternoon class, Gao Xiaoya's family and Wang Qian's grandmother's house are neighbors, Wang Qian was taken to school by her parents in Wangjia Village, ten kilometers away, saying that it was to take better care of Wang Qian, and I don't know if it has something to do with Hu Dong peeking at the girls' dormitory.

After the voyeurism incident, Wang Qian's classmates often teased her, making her the principal Gongzi, and then the child's wife, and she can go sideways in Gaojiacun Middle School.

Wang Qian just laughed after hearing this, without explaining or being annoyed.

Wang Qian did not become the principal, and his wife failed to walk like a crab, and left Gaojia Village without finishing junior high school.

Once you leave, it can be a lifetime. Since then, Wang Qian has disappeared from the world, and so far Zhang Mian has never seen Wang Qian again or heard of her.

Zhang Mian sometimes wonders if Wang Qian is fictitious in her mind, if it is fictitious, the palpitation in Zhang Mian's eyes when she first sees her from behind is clearly palpable in her memory.

Wang Qian quietly left Gaojiacun Middle School, and Zhang Mian also quietly left Zhangjiacun Middle School where Yanzi was located a few months ago.

At that time, Zhang Mian would often miss Yanzi, write about her in his diary, and dream of her at night.

He never left her in his memory, but it was just four kilometers away.

When Zhang Mian sat in front of the window and watched the rain hit the plantains, Hu Dong came back soaking wet, his hair was sticky together, and his face was not very good-looking.

At this point, Zhang Mian is far inferior to Hu Dong, he starts with voyeurism and ends in the rain, and every time he uses his actions to prove that he likes someone.

A few minutes after Hu Dong returned, the rain stopped.

The scene at this time in the novel should be deafening thunder, rain and wind, Hu Dong looks up at the sky, rain and sweat are mixed together and poured down from his emaciated face, a lightning bolt, illuminating his lost figure, and then he knelt on his knees, smashed a ripple on the ground, grabbed his hair, and looked up to the sky and howled.

The real situation is that Mr. Xue did not scold Hu Dong, his eyes were full of love, and Hu Dong's caution was unobstructed in front of Mr. Xue, who taught Chinese.

Teacher Xue greeted Hu Dong to eat in a much gentler voice than usual, and Hu Dong hesitated a little and ate after changing his clothes, and had a full burp in the middle.

Hu Dong entered the room and sat on the bed, Zhang Mian greeted him with his eyes, but he didn't speak, and he didn't know what to say.

At this time, it is not appropriate to tell a joke, and it seems inappropriate to say comforting words.

If Zhang Mian can become Wang Qian, he will agree without hesitation at this time, of course, there can be no freckles on his face.

Zhang Mian always felt that he needed to do something, so he threw "Selected Poems of Hazy" to Hu Dong on the bed, turned around and went to write a diary, and this matter had to be recorded.

"December 4th, rainy day, Thursday.

Hu Dong came back like a dog, the black sesame paste was transferred, he fell out of love, and he used his attitude to explain his sadness.

Swallow, I really don't know how to comfort him, I'm happier than him, I can miss you now, only sad and sad to accompany him, maybe tomorrow the weather will be fine, he will be fine, let Basho testify. ”

…………

"Zhang Xuan, you don't sleep?" Hu Dong still broke the silence.

"Sleep right away, it's actually ......"

"Don't comfort me, I ask you if I can still see her?"

"She's just transferred schools, just go to her if you want to see her."

"I don't think I'll ever see her again."

"You're too pessimistic, it's okay to see it."

"Do you trust your instincts?"

"I believe it, but intuition is not necessarily accurate, I relied on my intuition to choose the multiple choice questions in the high school entrance examination, and my intuition finally made me come to Gaojia Village to repeat."

"You didn't study hard, what does it have to do with direct, what should I do now?"

"Study hard."

"No kidding, I'm in a bad mood."

"Ask your parents to help you propose?"

"My dad will hit me"

"No, it's not like you haven't been beaten again."

"Is there any other way?"

"Forget her."

"I can't forget it"

"Then don't forget."

"You're all bad ideas."

Hu Dong ignored Zhang Mian, picked up the poem and flipped it up. After a while, it was when Zhang Mian was about to turn off the lights and go to sleep.

"Wait a minute, I'll come to Guan, I ask you who Zheng Chouyu is and how old is he now?"

"A Taiwanese poet, now about sixty years old, how do you care about him."

"So old, nothing, you go to sleep first."

That collection of poems was given to Zhang Mian from Cao Xiaoshan, Zhang Mian has read it many times from beginning to end, and a few of his favorite poems can basically be memorized, and the poetry collection only includes one poem by Zheng Chouyu:

I hit Jiangnan and walked through

The face of the season is like the blossoming of a lotus flower

The east wind does not come, and the catkins in March do not fly

Your heart is like a little lonely city

Just like the bluestone streets are late

The sound is not in place, and the spring curtain in March is not revealed

Your heart is a little window tightly closed

The sound of my Dada's horses' hooves is a beautiful mistake

I'm not a returnee, I'm a passerby......

Hu Dong must have watched this song "Mistake", which touched his heartstrings, and Wang Qian's sudden transfer caught him off guard.

Zhang Mian was also as confused as him, there will always be various differences in life, you have to learn to endure it, time will tell people, which ones you will have and which ones will eventually pass away......