"In this prison, He Yaoguang's affairs are taboo, and if you want to inquire about him, you can only ask others in private, and you must not let the prison guards know. Otherwise, a meal of flesh and skin is indispensable. The rat threw the cigarette butt in his hand on the ground and stepped on it with all his might.

When I heard this, I was curious and asked him, "Why?" ”

He glanced at me, looked outside the toilet again, and said softly: "I heard that the rich man has eyeliner here, and it reaches his ears, the next unlucky person may be you, in my opinion, you'd better not ask about him, just pull his body back to Hubei, by the way, how long have you been sentenced?" ”

"Three months and eighteen days." I say.

"That's okay, as long as we hand over this notebook to the prison guards, and then explain He Yaoguang's request, the prison should agree that after three months, you will take his body back to Hubei." As he spoke, he rubbed his eyes, "I have to go to work early tomorrow morning, so you can rest early." ”

With that, he walked out of the toilet, leaving me alone in the toilet.

After he left, I was stunned for a long time, and I always felt that this matter revealed an evil spirit, first the reaction of the male doctor, and then the reaction of Brother Mouse, when I first entered the prison, the male doctor said, let me go to the prison to ask if I have the ability, and now Brother Mouse asked me not to ask the prison guards, the reaction of these two people is the same, which is enough to show that He Yaoguang's matter is unusual.

What makes me depressed is that He Yaoguang was a policeman before his death, and he was a civil servant, and if he committed suicide, it should cause a shock, and the most unfortunate thing is that the unit he belonged to before his death should go to the prison to ask for an explanation, after all, a suspect committed suicide in prison for no reason, and it is always necessary to find out some reasons.

However, the current situation is that the prison is trying its best to suppress He Yaoguang's affairs, and the unit to which He Yaoguang belonged before his death did not ask for an explanation, what is going on?

After thinking about it for a while, I thought that this matter should not be simple, so I rubbed my cheeks vigorously, took a deep breath, and planned to study his notepad carefully tomorrow, so I went back to my bed and went to sleep.

Nothing was said all night.

The next day, at six o'clock in the morning, I was woken up by an alarm clock, and when I opened my eyes, I saw that Brother Mouse and Brother Long were standing beside my bed, and when they saw that I had woken up, they said, "Little brother, it's time to wash, eat breakfast, and go to work." ”

I hummed, rolled over from the bed, and washed up briefly, perhaps because of my profession, they didn't let me line up when it was time to wash, but just let me go to the front.

After washing, I followed Brother Mouse and Brother Long towards the canteen, this canteen is very large, there are about two hundred squares, and the middle position is full of long red tables and red stools, each table has seven or eight wooden bowls, which contain some porridge, and a sweet potato-like thing is placed next to it, and then Brother Mouse told me that it is the nest head in the north.

After a simple breakfast, we were led to the workshop by the prison guards, saying that they were making gold jewelry, and I was placed in group 7, with Brother Mouse.

During my work, I wanted to ask about He Yaoguang several times, but I was stopped by Brother Mouse with his eyes, so I could only bury my head and work hard.

In addition to winter melon, carrots, and cabbage are pumpkin, as for meat, I heard Brother Mouse say that you can only eat it once a month.

After dinner, I went back to the 209 dormitory, and Brother Mouse and they went to the basketball court, saying that they were exercising.

When I returned to the dormitory, I lay on the bed and opened He Yaoguang's notepad and began to read it, and the first thing that caught my eye was, on March 29, 2006, I was expelled from the party and imprisoned, I hated myself, I hated myself for not having money, I hated myself for not being able to protect my family, I hated myself for being too impulsive.

On April 6, 2006, I spent a week in prison, and my life here is not much different from the life outside, 7 in the morning and 6 in the evening, life is very fulfilling, I want to reform well, and strive to get out of prison as soon as possible.

On April 8, 2006, a group of new people came into the prison today, and they beat me up without asking whether they were right or wrong.

On April 9, 2006, I was beaten up again by the newcomers today, and my limbs were almost broken.

On April 24, 2006, I stayed in the infirmary for half a month, and when I was discharged from the hospital, I was beaten up by them again.

On April 30, 2006, I was beaten six times in this week's life, and the prison guards had turned a blind eye to my affairs, I hated, I hated, I hated...

On May 4, 2006, I was beaten, I couldn't see clearly in one eye, I didn't want to live this life anymore, I really didn't want to, this kind of life is not a human life.

...... 2006

……

In 2006, on June 3, I asked someone to bring a message to Lang Gao, hoping that he could save me out, hoping that he could prove my innocence, I didn't kill anyone, I really didn't kill anyone, I was wronged, why didn't anyone believe me, is there still a king in this world?

On June 4th, 2006, I was not innocent, and I felt that there was no hope in my life.

In 2006, on June 5th, they put me again..., I want to die, I want to die, I want to go to the underworld to find my parents, I really want to go to the underworld to see my grandparents.

On June 6, 2006, I couldn't stand this life, and I said goodbye to this world, to my former brother, to the person I once loved...

On June 7, 2006, I decided to commit suicide today, hoping that Brother Mouse would bring my body back to the countryside and bury it with my parents. As a police officer, I love this industry deeply, it is the most worthy thing to show off in my life, I have been a police officer for three years, I deeply know what the people need, I love this industry, I really love this industry, and I really want to be a police officer again. However, now that I can no longer return to the police force, only by dying can I remove the humiliation I have suffered, and my soul can be liberated and say goodbye.

Looking at the whole notepad, the corners of my eyes were a little moist, and I slowly closed the notepad, and my heart was bitter to death, and it can be seen from the diary that He Yaoguang is more positive, but I don't know what humiliation he suffered, so that a policeman chose to commit suicide.

At this moment, a voice came from my ear, "Little brother, what are you doing here?" Homesick? ”

When I turned my head, it was Brother Mouse, and he looked at me suspiciously.

I rubbed my eyes, stood up, showed him the contents of the notepad, pointed to the diary from June 4, 2006, and said, "Brother Mouse, what does he mean when he says that his body is not innocent?" ”

He glanced at me, smiled bitterly, and said in a deep voice, "I was raped." ”

"What? Rape/rape? I was amazed and said, "How is it possible, this is a prison, who would dare to do this." ”