it's raining

The mood is inexplicably low

Busy state

Blocked by rainwater

It's on the radio

It's all sad songs

Suddenly, my heart tightened

I miss you so much all of a sudden

Suddenly I don't want to lie to myself

I really just

Pretend to forget you

I really just

I don't dare to think about you

Tears rolled down

It doesn't want to hug either

Hypocritical me

Suddenly, my heart tightened

I miss you so much all of a sudden

Suddenly want to know your news

I really just

I don't want to bother you

I really just

You deserve it

Lonely city

It started to rain

A flash of rain came by

But that you

……

——Zhang Mian "Suddenly I Miss You"

Before the winter vacation, there was another big event in Gaojiacun Middle School.

It's not that Hu Dong peeked at the girls' dormitory again, even if it was cold, he probably wouldn't see anything if he lived in.

It's not that the vegetable worm man has eaten the cabbage worm again, but it is estimated that he will not ask for non-points when he eats it.

It's not that Gao Xiaoya is in love, she didn't fall in love in junior high school, but there is one person she likes, who Zhang Mu can't say without Gao Xiaoya's consent.

This matter is a little related to what Zhang Mian said in the first chapter, but it is not too related. Zhang Mian has always felt that he died in a car accident 30 years ago.

At that time, it was a very ordinary noon, and there should have been beautiful sunshine, because Zhang Mian remembered that he was a little dizzy that day, and it was a kind of vertigo that could only occur in the sun.

Suddenly, a group of people poured out of the next class, desperately running out. Hu Dong was the first to react, and also ran out, and after asking one of the students, he turned back and ran to the door of the classroom.

"Xiao Yi has a big incident" Hu Dong ran out after speaking, and then the people in Zhang Yi's class also ran out, Zhang Yi didn't know who Xiao Yi was, and saw that everyone was running out, and they also ran out.

When Zhang Yi and the others saw Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi was covered in blood and pale and was carried by a woman to the township health center, and some of the timid female classmates cried when they saw this scene.

Zhang Mian and a large group of them followed the woman to the hospital, and when they passed by the Guanyin Temple, Zhang Mian saw that the Guanyin statue was still looking into the distance with a kind face, and the sky was blue.

Blood came out of Xiao Yi's mouth.

"Auntie, I won't die, I don't want to die." After saying this, Xiao Yi seemed to use all his strength.

"No, you're not going to die." The middle-aged woman cried.

A few minutes after a group of people arrived at the hospital, the people who arrived in advance had already called the doctor, and the woman put Xiao Yi, who was covered in blood, on an empty bed in the hospital.

The doctor, a man in his fifties with eyes, looked at the wound and rolled Xiao Yi's eyelids.

"I can't save it." The doctor shook his head and said, also with a look of regret.

When the middle-aged woman heard this, she immediately fell to the ground and cried, hitting herself in the mouth as she cried.

Some female classmates also cried loudly.

Xiao Yi, who was lying on the bed, was twitching all over, but he burst into tears.

Tears are clearer than pearls in the afternoon sun.

Xiao Yi died, dying in a winter afternoon.

He stole his grandmother's tractor in the middle of the day and crashed into a tree, and a handlebar was inserted through his chest, which could not be saved even now.

Xiao Yi watched himself die before he lost consciousness.

When he asked his aunt if he would die and that he didn't want to die, Zhang Mian happened to look at Guanyin like a kind look at the distant sky, and the sky was blue.

This is the first time Zhang Mian has seen a person from birth to death, and a car accident is so cruel to deprive a teenager of his life.

The living were so powerless, desperate to watch him convulse and weep on the cold iron bed, helpless in the process of his death.

Some people say that except for life and death, it is a trivial matter.

If Xiao Yi lives until now, even if his life and work are not satisfactory, he will at least be alive.

When Xiao Yi's parents rushed to the health center, the sad mother fainted in front of Xiao Yi, who was already cold, before she could cry, and the middle-aged man's eyes were full of tears and despair.

For the first time, Zhang Mian felt the horror of death, and it was also the first time that he was full of fear of death.

Zhang Mian always thought that he died thirty years ago, but when Xiao Yi really died in front of him, the mysteries that were suppressed in his heart were unanswered and unimportant.

Xiao Yi died in the winter of Xiao Suo, that sunny noon.

Hu Dong, who has no heart and lungs, is also secretly touching tears.

Zhang Mian felt like something was blocked in his heart, but he didn't cry, he didn't know why he didn't cry, maybe it was because he saw the kind Guanyin statue.

He felt that Guanyin would bless him, and although he died, he should have gone to a place where there was no pain, where he would no longer face death and would not die.

That night, Hu Dong was surprisingly quiet, looking at the ceiling.

Zhang Mian is not familiar with Xiao Yi, he should have met a few times on campus, he is a thin teenager with big eyes.

"Zhang Xuan, are you afraid of death?" Hu Dong asked when Zhang Mu was about to fall asleep.

"Are you afraid?"

"I'm afraid, I'm afraid, what about you?"

"I'm afraid, at least I don't want to die now, who knows what the future will be."

"I'm going to study hard."

"You don't joke on this serious issue."

"You're really boring, you're young and like an old man."

"The locomotive has strength, you may be in the way"

……

When Zhang Mian was about to fall asleep, Zhang Mian saw Guanyin in the afternoon looking into the distance with a kind face, and the sky in the distance was blue.