Never thought weekend nights would be so deserted.

Walking alone on the empty street, the mobile phone in his hand kept ringing, bringing the only glimmer of light to this lonely night.

The old blackened streetlamp on the side of the road emitted a little ghostly light, seeping into my eyes and turning into a curtain of light, bringing a little luster to my already ash-like world. The icy wind of the night tossed me around, and I swayed like a lonely corn in the wind.

The stars in the dark night emit a faint blue light, which makes people can't take their eyes off, and the stars like grains of rice are so small and moving. I sat in an iron chair next to the street lamp, and the black machine in my hand made a unique silent vibration that kept me calm for a long time.

With trembling hands, I clicked on the phone and hurriedly unlocked it, and her appearance made my mirror-like heart ripple again, like a stone thrown in the middle of a lake.

"Lu Yu, see you at the old place at ten o'clock tomorrow morning."

Unique Xiaokai, with a hint of meaning that she usually doesn't feel, usually she says "I'm waiting for you there, you come quickly" but today, I feel a kind of determination.

I stared at my phone, trying to give her a call, but on second thought, she chose to send a message, so it shouldn't be as bad as I thought.

I looked at the young men and women holding hands on the street with vacant eyes, and I felt envious for a moment. I hope they can always be like this, I think it's ridiculous, little by little I follow the light to find the direction, looking down at the lonely shadow on the ground, such loneliness, the loneliness of a lifetime can't withstand the coldness of the moment.

Unsettled, I came to the door of the "Tea Life" teahouse, I walked to the front desk and asked, "Is Miss Ning here?" The front desk lady smiled, "She's waiting for you in the VIP room on the second floor now"

My feet seem to be tied up at the moment? Thousands of pounds, it is difficult to move a step. I could only walk to the VIP suite, I knocked on the door, and a familiar voice came from inside, it was Fang Yang. He is the owner of this teashop, and he is also his high school classmate, and he and I met again in this teahouse.

The despair in my heart was like an iron claw tugging at my heart.

"Come in"

It was a palatial room, with a crimson carpet on the floor, crimson cloth covers on the chairs, a pure white ceiling with gold trim on all sides, and a silver chain in the center of the ceiling hung with strings of glass beads, shimmering with soft light.

I could clearly see a man and a woman in the room hugging each other tightly, and the woman who had once haunted me was quietly snuggling up in the arms of the blonde man, enjoying the warmth of each other.

My arrival seemed to be a mistake, and instead of being separated by the fact that there were more people in the room, they became more intense, and your embrace stung my eyes.

The woman said slowly: "Lu Yu, I'm going to break up with you, I'm Fang Yang's girlfriend now, where do you like to go" and kissed Fang Yang.

My heart felt like it was tearing, and I was holding back the slippery nausea in my throat. At the moment, I only felt a strong feeling of vertigo, as if the whole world was dark.

As for how I got out of the teahouse, I don't remember exactly, I just know that I cried, I cried desperately regardless of the dignity of a man, like a child.

My world became a blank gray, sleeping in a dim room every day, thinking about her every day, I wondered, is all this fake? Are they all lies? If it was all a dream, it would be too real, and it would have sparked a strong sense of frustration in me.

When I woke up from my sleep and faced my familiar self, you didn't know that everything about you had changed, everything that belonged to you before didn't belong to you anymore, the only peace in my heart was turbulent again, everything that happened was too sudden, and there was no possibility of preparation. Later, I chose to leave, leaving this sad city, I only chose to escape, not afraid that I would see her again, but afraid that I would run to her by myself.

The colorful and gorgeous past me many times, I had to choose to bear it alone, even if there is no her in the future world, I will still choose to stay away. The lingering compassion that appeared many times in the dream, I don't know why it is so dim today, I shuttled through the dream alone, and the phantom that appeared many times, I didn't want him to leave, but it only left a sign that made my heart ache.

I lived a life of luxury, jumping day and night to all kinds of places where I could have fun, living an abnormal life, the music dancing in the bar gradually died down, and I would walk back to my home alone.

Has anyone told you that after being strong is weakness, after smiling is sadness, after indulgence is boundless emptiness and loneliness.