There was a sparrow outside the window

Stand on the outside of the air-conditioned unit

The sun shines in the distance

on a towering building

What you look like

Hanging in the world of my memories

Let the negativity of numbing rendering

It's like a pine forest foggy in the morning

It's like the background that year away

It's like the eyes crying in the middle of the night

Now I think of you

Also prepare

Metaphors too

There is also a lazy foreshadowing

——Zhang Mian "Thinking of You, Need a Foreshadowing"

After Gao Jiabiao's mother worshipped the statue of Guanyin, she got up from the ground, and when she looked up, she found that Guanyin seemed to smile at her. Gao Jiabiao's mother felt that the stone in her heart had fallen to the ground, and she had not slept for a long time, and she fell asleep on the bed.

He had a dream, and the Gao Jiabiao in the dream was the same as a year ago, sunny and cheerful, and greeted his relatives and friends warmly, and now the depressed and lifeless Gao Jiabiao is like two people.

In the dream, Gao Jiabiao told his mother that he had a long, long dream, in which he experienced many terrible things that were beyond his reach, and now that he woke up from the dream, he no longer needed to face the people and scenes in his dream. The original Gao Jiabiao is back.

In the dream, Gao Jiabiao apologized to his mother, he smiled and begged for his mother's forgiveness, he confidently said to his mother that he would study hard, make up for all the homework he had missed before, and he would be admitted to the ideal high school and university, and a new life began.

In the dream, Gao Jiabiao will cry and smile at the moment, the child is fine, what is more happy than the child's normal, she even thought of the scene of Gao Jiabiao's marriage, the beautiful daughter-in-law toasted her and called her mother, she took out a big red envelope after saving money for a lifetime......

The next day, Gao Jiabiao did not change, sitting quietly in the corner of the back row of the classroom, his eyes were empty, and the noisy atmosphere of the lively junior high school students was incompatible.

That is, on this day, some people in Gaojiacun began to talk about it, saying that Gao Jiabiao's mother went to ask Guanyin, it is estimated that Gao Jiabiao is really evil, what a good child, after speaking, he sighed, and saw that his child was fine, and immediately smiled.

It is estimated that Gao Jiabiao's family didn't know before they moved out, how did the villagers know about worshipping Guanyin, Gao Jiabiao's mother went out at night to worship, and no one found out.

Who knew about it and spread it in the village, and in the end no one figured it out.

Zhang Mian learned about this at the class meeting on the afternoon of the third day after Gao Jiabiao dropped out of school.

The sunlight shone on an empty desk, proving that a teenager once existed, and there seemed to be a trace of his breath in the air.

"Do you know why Gao Jiabiao dropped out?" Zhang Mian asked Gao Xiaoya, both of them live on the street and should be familiar with each other.

"I don't know, when their family moved away, it was at night, and a tractor took away all the belongings, I guess his uncle knows, after all, his house is still there, you don't know him well, you care about him."

"It's okay, I'll just ask casually, after all, I won't go if I don't graduate, it's normal for people to come and go."

"Oh." Gao Xiaoya seemed to understand.

The days quickly returned to the beginning, and the classroom was not dull because of Gao Jiabiao's departure, if it weren't for Zhang Mian and him who had been communicating for about three months, Zhang Mian really doubted whether Gao Jiabiao was really his classmate in Gaojiacun Middle School, whether there was such a person.

In the years that followed, Zhang Mian went from Gaojia Village to Fengcheng, from Fengcheng to Hefei, from Hefei to Lanzhou, and from Lanzhou to Shenyang.

I can't remember the names and faces of many of my classmates, but these youthful figures really accompanied him during his school years, and brought him joy and sorrow.

Youth is one separation after another, when you are separated, you are not crying, you are not sad, and you only give each other good wishes. Then it's time to say goodbye to youth.

After Gao Jiabiao left Gaojiacun Middle School, Zhang Mian never saw him again, but his emaciated figure was imprinted in the depths of Zhang Mian's mind.

It is very likely that Gao Jiabiao has never spoken to Zhang Mian, and there is no such person as Zhang Mian in his memory, but Zhang Mian remembers him, in the youth of people coming and going.

The most important reason is that in Gaojia Village, Zhang Mian was too lonely, maybe because of the change of the environment, or maybe it was an inescapable experience at that age, but he couldn't forget, he sat by the flower bed of the campus, looked at the green vines, looked at the circling falcons, looked at the fallen leaves all over the ground, looked at the white snowflakes, the loneliness that penetrated deep into the bone marrow, made him helpless and nowhere to escape.

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"Is there any news of Gao Jiabiao?" Zhang Mian asked Gao Xiaoya in WeChat.

"He seems to be in the high school of Fengcheng No. 2 Middle School, he was not admitted to college, and now he should get married and have children, the specific situation is not clear, he has not been in contact with those people in junior high school for a long time, he doesn't know what to say to them, it seems that he has a lot to say, but he doesn't know what to say, who cares about other people's stories."

"Hehe, I'll care about you, at least in my novels, you're the main character!"

"Then update quickly, I have always supported you."

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Gao Jiabiao finally got married and had children, and his mother's dream came true, she drank the tea served by her daughter-in-law and heard the crisp "Mom".

Yes, a month after Gao Jiabiao left, there was a heavy snowfall in Fengcheng.