The Ulanala clan has a milk name called Rou'er.

It is said that her mother told the nurse when she was still pregnant, and if she gave birth to a daughter, her nickname would be Rou'er.

Her Eniang is a Manchurian, in fact, she is just curious about the name of the Han people, so she has such a small name for her.

Maybe it's the wrong name, so she's always been very weak.

She was born in a Manchurian family, and she didn't have too many rules, so she lived a little wanton.

It's a pity that there is no Eniang in the swaddling clothes, and the stepmother is a girl from a serious Han family.

Even though it is a Han military flag, it is just for the sake of being an official, and it is still taught by the Han people in his bones.

As soon as he entered the door, he was wary of the two sons left behind by his wife, and he was not very friendly to this infant daughter.

The shrewd two nurses were driven away by her ideas early in the morning, and Mama Hu who was left behind was not very good-brained.

The people around her also passed by her hands, and she could completely control it.

So she was very well-behaved when she was very young, because of her stepmother's superficial love, she didn't understand at all that she wasn't her own.

even made trouble and cried, except for Zhou, no one could coax it.

When she was older, she looked at her cousins who didn't understand what they didn't know and no one cared for, but she was happy herself.

Later, when she was older, she realized that it was not that her cousins were not loved, but that her own life was wrong.

For example, a seven or eight-year-old girl wants to be fed in her arms, and refuses to go by herself and has to be carried on her back.

Almost everything she wants to do is done for her, and she has never experienced what she can't get.

No matter how old she is, after being able to follow the Zhou family out of the house, she has seen a lot of Miss Gege, and gradually understands that she is not good like this.

But her temperament has been cultivated to be sensitive and sentimental.

She never seemed to be cheerful.

She has never had that kind of 'spring shirt on the swing frame' days.

She is a Manchurian girl who learns the rules of the Han people. When she was a child, she seriously remembered a truth, that is, when she gets married in the future, it is good to be in love with her husband.

But whether it is the Zhou family or the people around her, no one has ever taught her how to live.

If it weren't for the fact that she got married and had enough room in the house, and the people from the Internal Affairs Office were powerful, she wouldn't even know the general affairs in the house.

But until she got married, she didn't quite understand that these truths were wrong.

Knowing this, knowing that she entered the backyard of the fourth elder brother, she suffered a loss, and it gradually became clear after she suffered the crime.

It turns out that the affection she wants is not easy to get.

As a wife, it's not that she can't think about affection, but she just has the means to match it.

In this world, men can naturally have many women.

The fourth elder brother is the prince, and when she entered the mansion, she even had the favored Li family and the Song family.

There is no opportunity, no means, and even a poor temperament, and it is almost not uncommon to have no husband's favor.

She can only cry, she will cry if the fourth elder brother does not come, and she will still cry when the fourth elder brother comes.

If she doesn't come, she's sad, and when she comes, she's wronged.

Gradually, the fourth elder brother came even less.

yes, what man wants to see a woman cry all the time? In particular, she is also the prince of Fujin.

She must be dignified and generous, and she must be able to handle the affairs of the backyard and arrange the concubines well.

But she didn't do it well.

In the last year of Fujin, because she had spent too much time lying down, she thought about it a lot, almost thinking about her short twenty years over and over again.

At first, she resented, resented Ama for not caring about anything, and resented Zhou's deliberate killing, which made her temperament like this.

resented Mama Hu's past stirring, which made the fourth master dislike.

Resentment of the Li family, resentment of the Song family, resentment of the Ussuri clan is too good at hooking up.

even resented God for telling her to give birth to a child.

But gradually, I stopped hating.

She actually knew what the fourth master said when he was outside the delivery room, and kept the big one.

She felt that God had given her a lot of opportunities, but she was not blessed.

When she was a child, she was killed, but she has to admit that she was still happy in the more than ten years at home.

There is no shortage of anything, and when I see little sisters of the same age, I envy her for her exquisite jewelry and beautiful clothes.

I still remember that the sister-in-law's eyes were red when she saw her jealousy.

Later, when she entered the mansion, although the fourth master preferred the Li family, he was not bad to her.

It's all there.

Even she crossed the favored women and became a man in one fell swoop!

Her life is destined to be so long, but she has lived a good life over the years.

Of course, it is really painful to put aside the last two years and endure illness all the time.

In the dark night, the only thing she couldn't let go of was the child. The child was so young, and he had suffered another sin.

So in the letter she left for the fourth master, there were not many words, only one paragraph, begging him to have mercy on the eldest brother and the only child she left. Pity his own eldest son.

She resented Amma, but now that she thinks about it, Amma also loves her, just a man, and can't take care of the backyard.

She also resented the Zhou family, but in the end, she was just helpless, gone, and she didn't have to leave a word.

The Zhou family raised her, but the Zhou family has been like a day for more than ten years, and it is really good to her, even if it is fake.

She couldn't even think of what she would do to her if she was her biological mother.

As for the fourth master, she has long been no longer resentful. The fourth master is a good husband. It's just that she really doesn't know how to be a wife.

And those women in the backyard, they can't hate or hate, there's nothing wrong with them.

At the last moment of her life, she even had a feeling that the four major were empty.

The only child she cares about is that she can't do anything but let go. It doesn't matter to the others.

She was in the tent, no one was around, and she was not as lonely and sad as everyone thought later.

She just thought that she hadn't done anything bad in her life, and she would still give silver when she went out and met a beggar when she was a child.

Or is it a person in the next life?

If she were human, what kind of person should she be? Anyway, if you are still a woman, you will not enter the royal family.

She didn't have any royal ruthlessness or anything like that, she hadn't had time to feel it yet.

She just felt that even if she wasn't raised by the Zhou family, she didn't have much ability. It's better to marry an ordinary family.

It can't be the eldest son and eldest daughter-in-law, and it's also very tired.

She even wondered a little funny, was this abandoned by her stepmother, or was it wasted in the first place?

Finally, thinking of the fourth master, there was a smile on the corner of her mouth. But there is not much sadness and sadness.

It's funny to think about it, after being sick for all these years, she doesn't know whether she likes the fourth master at the beginning, or thinks that it is her husband, so she should like it.

Before closing her eyes, she thought that the man she fantasized about when she was young was a scholar in white clothes......

Fourth master, he's not.

Wrong grievances The east wind blows and falls, and the boundless spring comes to the world.

The peach blossoms and apricot blossoms in the garden are falling one after another, and the green fruits are also hanging on the branches. And in the main courtyard, Fujin is also like this early summer flower, quietly withering.